Randy sat in the circle of the recovery group just like he always did. He looked around at all the famular faces and noticed one he didn't know.

"So guys we have a new member joining us today." Austin said. "Why don't you introduce yourself?"

John cleared his throat. "Well my Name is john Cena and I'm an alcoholic. Nine months ago I lost my husband in a car accident and I felt like my life was over. I started to drink to ease my pain but ended up losing the rest of my family as well. So I decided to give it up and I've been clean for almost a week now but it's getting harder and harder."

"Well good thing about us is that we know how you feel." Randy said.

John looked over at him. "Really, how long have you been here?"

Randy sighed "I started here about six months ago and I've been clean for five of them."

"Did you lose anyone?" John asked.

Randy nodded "Yeah I lost everyone after I came out. So I filled that hole by drinking."

"What made you stop?" john asked.

"When I decided to not let them run my life. I love who I am and no one is going to change that." Randy said smiling.

John smiled "You kind of sound like Scott. He was always positive and upbeat about everything."

Randy looked down "You really think he would want you to be alone?"

"You don't know anything about him!" John yelled.

Randy sat back "Sorry I didn't mean to upset you."

"Okay guys lets calm down." Austin said. "We're only here to help you John."

John sighed. "Yeah."

Later

John was getting a cup of coffee when he was Randy heading his way.

"Hi um I'm really sorry about upsetting you." Randy said.

John sighed "No need because you were right. Scott wouldn't like what I was doing but every time I talk for even look at another guy I feel like I'm cheating on him." He leant back against the table. Scott is the only man I've ever been with and I can't imagine being with anyone else."

"Well I don't know what its like to lose someone like that but I do know that you have people here who understand you." Randy looked down "I'm really sorry about Scott."

John looked over at Randy "You know I never found out your name."

Randy held out his hand. "Oh I'm Randall but my friends call Randy."

John shook his hand. "Well Randy thank you and I'm sorry for your loss as well."

"So were your parents cool with you being gay?" Randy asked.

"Not at first but as time went by they finally came around." John walked over to one of the chairs and sat down. "You should have seen them with Scott. They treated him like he was family."

Austin walked over to them. "Sorry guys but were locking up soon."

"So will we be seeing you here next week?" Randy asked standing by John's car.

John smiled "Yeah you just might. It was nice to meet you Randy."

"You too." Randy said "We'll I'm going to let you go now."

John chuckled "Yeah bye."

Randy waved him off. "Bye." He went to his won car.

John walked into his apartment and sat on the couch. "Jessie are you home!" he yelled out.

Jessie walked into the room and sat next to him. "So how was your first day?"

"It was good to talk about my feeling with others who understood." John looked down. "But it was also kind of weird."

"What do you mean?" She asked.

"I never talked to a guy as much as I talked to him." He said.

"Ohhh what's his name?" Jessie said smiling.

John chuckled "Calm down it's nothing but his name is Randy."

"Is he cute?" She asked.

"Jessie will you stop." John shirked.

She laughed "Oh my god you do think he's cute."

John sat up "Okay so I think he's cute but on a serious note he's the first guy I actually feel comfortable around. I like talking to him and somehow tings don't seem as bad as they are."

"Why do you think that is?" She asked.

John sighed "I don't know."

Jessie looked down "Maybe you should ask him out."

"Jessie" John stood up "I can't do that."

"Why?" She asked.

"John it's been nine months. How long will it take for you to realize that he's gone and move on with your life."

"Until I feel that I should!" John yelled "You don't understand Jessie. Scott was my life and I'm not ready to let him go. I don't want to let him go." He walked off "Just drop it alright."

Randy walked into his apartment and was greeted by Maxine. Maxine was his golden retriever. "Hey there girl and what have you been doing all day huh." She licked him in the face. "Come on I know you're hungry." He walked in to the kitchen and Maxine followed close by. He poured her some food and water then watched her eat. Besides Maxine Randy was completely alone.

He grabbed a bottle of water and went to the living room. He sat on the couch and turned on the TV. Not long later he was joined by Maxine who jumped up next to him. "I missed you too Maxine." He said petting her. "You'll never guess the night I had girl. I met this guy and I felt something I never have before." He looked down and smiled when Maxine licked him. "Look at me I'm talking to a dog." He smiled "Am I losing my mind." Maxine barked "At least I have you and you will never leave me will you."

Maxine responded by resting her head on Randy's lap.