If you're reading this, it means it got to you. Obviously. And thankfully as well.
Hey, it's me, ED. EDward Hikaru. You remember me, I hope. It's been a while.
I'll be quite frank with you. I've been a complete shit head. That's no surprise to any of you, I'm sure. And to be perfectly honest, now that I'm all alone and have no one left, I realize how much of an idiot I was for bailing on all of you.
So for that I just wanted to say: Vollin, Syrius, DT, everyone, even the little pissant I haven't talked to in, what, almost two sweeps now?
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for being such an insufferable prick. I know I've been a pain in the ass to deal with lately. And I'm sorry I exploded over seemingly nothing. But to be fair, in my defense, you could have stopped pressing.
But it's not about whose fault it is. No, this is about me apologizing to you guys for being such an idiot. Because now I've lost everyone else I had. So now I've come crawling back to my old family with the hopes that they will still take me back.
I still remember the good times we had. All the parties in Vollin's hive, the adventures we had. You guys remember all the bullshit anime shit I did in the past right?
Yeah. Figures that the D in my name actually stood for determination, not divine. And I was so determined to be some anime weeaboo piece of shit that it just… Well, happened.
I'm a shell of who I used to be when we were all still together. I've changed a lot ever since leaving you guys. And to be frank, despite my initial anger, I really miss you all. It doesn't help I have no one else to run to either.
You guys are probably reading this message with disbelief. "It takes him losing every one of his other friends for him to come back to us? What a superficial asshole". I imagine DT is the one saying that. Presumably while she's stoned or something. I don't remember if she ever ended up sobering up.
I want you guys to know that I'm sorry. I've always been the most sensitive one in the group and I've always hid it with anger. It was unjust for you all. And I'm truly sorry.
I'm planning on coming to see you all in a pedigree or so. I don't know. I'm still trying to figure things out on my end. I hope you still remember me for my stupid antics as opposed to my outbursts of genuine anger. I've ditched that Buster Sword/Gunblade crossover thing for a more practical long sword. I've been trying to mature myself without sacrificing who I am, and I figured I'd start with my specibus.
If you've gotten this far, thank you. I have no right to ask for your forgiveness but I thought I had nothing else to lose, right? If you want to forgive me, you still have my handle, right? Feel free to hit me up. I'm always online. I haven't done a lot with my free time here.
And once again, thank you to the family that put up with me for sweeps, and I'm sorry that I've been such a dumbass.
-Your (hopefully still) best friend and local nimrod,
EDward Hikaru
