Just a random one-shot.


I keep thinkin' bout that little sparkle in your eye
Is it a light from the angels, or your devil deep inside?

I have major trust issues. I can barely trust him, but I'm still kind of paranoid about the whole thing. I don't know whether I'm being lied to or not anymore. Sometimes I can't even distinguish dream & reality. There's something about him that makes me want to trust him, but at the same time there's a red light in my head, telling me not to.

What about the way you say you love me all the time
Are you liftin' me up to heaven, just to drop me down the line?

I don't know if his love is true or not. What if he's just making me feel good to hurt me in a terrible way? I don't want that. I want it to be real. But I have no way of knowing the truth.

There's a ring around my finger,
But will you change your mind?

I'm terrified that he might dump me at the altar.

And you tell me that I'm beautiful,
But that could be a lie.

Everything could be a lie. The kisses, the words, the promises. Lies.

Are you a heartbreaker?
Maybe you want me for the ride.

It's happened to me before. Guys go out with me for my body. All they want is sex, or to not be girlfriend-less.

What if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker?
And everything is just a lie
I won't be leavin' here alive
I won't be leavin' here alive, no

I will die if I get my heart broken one more time.

Temporary happiness is like waiting for the knife
Cause I'm always watchin' for someone to show their darker side

I'm paranoid. What if they're making you smile and laugh, only to crush you later? That's why I always have my guard up.

So maybe I'll sit back and just enjoy all this for now
Watch it all play out, see if you really stick around

My friends are telling me not to worry. That he truly loves me, but I don't think so. I've been hurt too many times. Maybe death will be easier. Maybe I'll just enjoy it for a while. I'll see how it plays out. Hopefully, I am wrong, and he stays with me.

But there's always this one question
That keeps me up at night:
Are you my greatest love
Or disappointment in my life?

Sometimes I think I have finally found true love, but I'm so unsure. I can never sleep, knowing that it might be fake.

Are you a heartbreaker?
Maybe you want me for the ride.
What if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker?
And everything is just a lie.
I won't be leavin' here alive.
I might as well lay down and die.

I'm seriously considering suicide now. It all depends on him. I'm putting my life in his hands. That's how desperate I am.

I'm holding on with both hands and both feet, oh
Promise that you won't pull the rug out from under me

Now, walking down the aisle, I'm holding onto my father for dear life. I can see him at the altar, waiting. I'm terrified of the huge smile on his face. He's going to leave me! I'm mentally praying he won't.

Are you a heartbreaker?
Maybe you want me for the ride.
I pray to god you're not a heartbreaker.
This time around I won't survive.

Cause if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker
And everything is just a lie
I won't be leavin' here alive!
I might as well lay down and die, oh
I won't be leavin' here alive!

I smile, too terrified to do anything else, as I my father gives my hand to him. He leans in to kiss my cheek and whispers, "I love you."

"Don't leave me, please." I whisper shakily.

"Never," he whispers back. There's a certain passion about the way he says it that makes me feel safe.

And now I know it's real.


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