A/N: This fic here is mainly rated for vulgarity, sexual references, use of drugs and alcohol, notty words etc., etc., and the usual. XD Parings are Akuroku, Cleon, touches of Soku and Zemyx, and maybe some others in later chapters.

I really, really tried to make this fic as realistic as possible. Key word: tried. ;) And also, this is my first KH fic. -faints- So, uhm, yeah. Be nice. XD

ENJOY! :D

Cry For Me, Laugh For Me

Roxas sniffled slightly and rubbed his eyes. This was weird. He didn't even know why he was crying. One minute he was watching TV and the next he felt overwhelming sadness creep up on him like some sort of plague. He had shut off the television and quickly ran to his room, ignoring all the strange stares he received from his family, just to crawl up on his bed and let the warm tears travel down his face.

He briefly wondered exactly where Sora was, but he remembered that his lively twin was off with his friends Riku and Kairi. They were probably out having a great time, just like they did everyday. Don't get him wrong, he wasn't jealous or anything - actually he really wasn't fond of Riku or Kairi, but he did miss having Sora around. Cloud was great and all, but he was too much like… himself.

With a sigh Roxas pushed himself out of his messy bed and went to the window. The sun was just beginning to set. He placed his palm on the cooling pane of glass. Idly he glanced at his reflection. He looked so transparent, as if he wasn't really there, just… existing. And really, that's exactly how he felt at the moment. Like he was just there - just existed.

He stood in silence, watching the sky grow steadily darker and darker as his reflection grew more and more visible. It was all so ironic. He felt a small chuckle bubble its way up his throat, but it never met his lips, it seemed to die off before it could reach out of him.

"Roxas!" he jumped at the singsong sound of his own name and turned around to find Sora standing in his doorway. "What're you doing in here? It's really dark," as he said that he flipped on the light switch that Roxas had ignored earlier on his 'trip' to his bed.

"Nothing really," Roxas muttered. He sighed and ran a hand through his blond locks.

Sora nodded and took a seat on the foot of Roxas' bed. "Olette called earlier, like two minutes ago, asking for you, but Cloud said you were… busy?"

Roxas nodded. "Just a little."

"But you said you weren't really doing anything," Sora whined. Roxas gave his twin a dull look. Sora could be such a child, but he wasn't going to harp on him for it. It was part of what made Sora, Sora.

"Not anymore," he said with a sigh. He moved away from the now dark window and sat next to Sora on his bed. "Have fun?" he asked out of politeness. He knew that Sora always seemed to have fun, even if he went to the most dreary place on the planet, he came home with a good story to tell and a laugh.

"Yeah… I guess so." Roxas perked up slightly from the unusual answer. Sora should be blabbing to him, giving him a play by play recap of his entire day.

"You… guess?" he asked hesitantly and looked at Sora closer, as if he was an insect under a microscope. His eyes went wide when he noticed that Sora's cheek was red and beginning to swell slightly around the edges. He instantly felt himself grow angry and he grabbed hold of Sora's hands so the brunet would look at him. "Sora what happened?" he all but demanded.

"It's not anything. I… I tripped and hit my face on the branch of a tree. That's all. You don't have to worry or anything." Roxas narrowed his eyes at his brother. He knew Sora was lying. Not only about hitting his face on a tree branch of all things, but that he didn't want him to worry. If that was the case, he wouldn't have even come in here in the first place. "Really Roxas, I'll be fine. I… I should go to bed now. School starts tomorrow anyway. Remember? A new school, new people, new… everything!"

"Oh…" was all Roxas managed to say before looking out his window. He knew Sora wasn't exactly happy about leaving his old school and Kairi, but he also knew that he was excited that now he'd be able to go to the same school as Riku. Roxas understood that right now Sora almost felt as if he were picking and choosing. But really the only person who had a say in this matter was their mother, so he wasn't sure why Sora was beating himself up over it. Roxas chanced a glance at his brother. It looked as if someone else was beating him up over it.

Sora stood up and walked to the door. He placed his hand on the frame of the door and slid his hand down the smooth wood, obviously lost in thought. "Hey Roxas?" he said quietly a moment later.

"Yeah?"

"I know you don't believe me," he said in a slightly strained voice and looked up at the ceiling. Roxas blinked a few times and felt tears prick at the sides of his eyes. "But that's okay. I wouldn't believe myself either." Roxas shook his head. He wanted to laugh at how pathetic Sora was acting about his whole thing, but couldn't bring himself to do it. Sora gave a soft chuckle. "I'll see you in the morning Rox," he said and flashed his twin a smile. "It'll be fun! I promise!"

Roxas nodded and watched his brother leave. He lay back on his bed and stared up at his ceiling. He smirked slightly at the silly promise his twin had made. Promising that school would be fun? Only Sora would say something ridiculous like that. He rolled over onto his side and closed his eyes, pulling up his blankest as he did so. Slowly the blond teen fell asleep, not caring that his light was still on and that he was fully dressed.

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"Rox… Hey wake up you bum!" Roxas groaned and pulled his blankets up over his face to try and rid himself of the nuisance that was known as Sora. But it seemed that his twin would have none of that and jumped up on his bed. "Rooooxaasssss." Sora cooed right in the blonde's ear, "Wakey, wakey eggs and bakey."

Roxas groaned and pushed his brother off of him. "That doesn't even make sense," he grumbled as he sat up and rubbed his eyes.

Sora smiled at his groggy twin. "Who said it had to?" he laughed as Roxas' brows furrowed in annoyance.

"Get out so I can get dressed." Sora chuckled and left, leaving a scowling Roxas in his wake. He pulled on one of his favorite outfits of gray denim pants, a black shirt, and his white and black checkered patterned jacket along with his checkered wrist band, and his rings. He was extremely grateful that, unlike their previous school, they didn't have to wear uniforms in order to actually get in the building. He picked up his hairbrush and ran it through his hair in a half hearted attempt to keep it from spiking out. Not that it did much anyway.

He put the brush down to look at his reflection in his mirror. He just shrugged at what he saw and trudged downstairs to eat breakfast and encounter his painful first day of school. When he got downstairs he wasn't surprised to find Cloud making breakfast as Sora pulled on his yellow shoes with a pout on his face. The sight agitated him.

"So, what's the occasion?" he asked Cloud grimly as he took a seat at their kitchen table.

"Mother's on a business trip again." Sora answered for him. Roxas rolled his eyes as Cloud made quotation signals when Sora said 'business'.

He sighed, "How long this time?"

Cloud flipped a pancake before moving to the counter to grab a crumpled up piece of paper and tossing it to Roxas, who caught it without a second thought. He unraveled the paper and read the neatly written note as Sora moved behind him to do the same. They were beginning to see her handwriting more than the woman herself.

"She left us three hundred dollars this time? How long is she going to be gone then?" Sora asked no one in particular.

"Well, last time she left us a hundred fifty and was gone for a little over a month… I'd say probably around three months?" Roxas guessed and looked to Cloud for confirmation. He was slightly irked when Cloud didn't even bother to so much as nod in agreement or something.

Sora scuffed his feet slightly on the tile floor. "Sorry Cloud," he said. His eyes refused to meet those of his older brother.

"Don't worry about it Sora," Cloud said. Roxas couldn't help but feel envious. Of course Cloud would answer Sora even when it wasn't even called for, but he wouldn't even give his two cents to Roxas when asked. Sometimes he couldn't help but think his brother was a prick. But Cloud was Cloud, and he had his reasons.

Whenever their mother left on one of her trips, the three brothers were always left to fend for themselves with whatever money their mother left them and the small wage that Cloud earned at his part-time job at a local plant nursery. What he did Roxas wasn't sure, but it had to do with flowers… and lifting things.

"Well," Roxas said with a sigh as he got up to grab some dishes to set the table, "That certainly puts a damper on things this morning."

Sora sighed and began to help his twin. "Not really. There's still school to look forward to!" Both Roxas and Cloud snorted. "What? Aren't you two excited too?" Sora asked with a pout.

"Sora…" Cloud began shifting a little uncomfortably at his spot in front of the stove.

Roxas sighed and took pity on his older brother. He was just too socially awkward, something Sora knew nothing about. "You at least have Riku. We don't know anyone other than each other."

"Oh…" Sora seemed put-off for a moment before he brightened up. "Then you guys can just make friends." He made it sound like it was so simple. Roxas and Cloud exchanged similar looks of 'he wishes' and 'that's not going to happen'. It was bad enough they were changing schools, but it was also in the middle of the school year. The decision had been extremely random on their mother's part and none of her sons had the heart – or courage – to try and argue with her decision.

"At least Cloud has it easy," Roxas said twiddling a fork between two of his fingers. "One semester of this school and he's done for good. Seniors get it easy."

Sora smacked Roxas on the head lightly. "No! Cloud had to leave behind Zack and Aerith! And it's his last year! At least we have two more ahead of us!"

Roxas scowled and swatted at his brother. "So? You can't make me feel sorry for Cloud, Sora! I'm leaving Olette, Pence, and Hayner! So don't try and give me any grief!"

Cloud watched his younger brothers as they began to 'play fight' as some would call it. Sora would whine something and jump on Roxas, where Roxas would push him off and grunt in response. These two could play push and shove for hours as he had found out when they were younger. It was always best to let the two solve their problems this way.

He waited a few minutes after he had placed breakfast on the table before clearing his throat to gain the twins' attention. "Want breakfast?" he asked with an amused smirk.

"You bet!" Sora sang out and left Roxas alone for the time being to take his place at the table. As the three brothers piled their plates with food, Sora felt the extreme need to break the comfortable silence. "I think you guys will make lots of friends," he said before shoving a forkful of pancakes in his mouth.

Both Roxas and Cloud nodded, knowing that it was useless to try and argue with the brunet any further. He was just too optimistic. As they finished Cloud glanced up at the clock and sighed. "Alright. Let's go. We'll do the dishes when we get back." He grabbed his keys and twirled them as he waited for his brothers. Roxas was trying to put on his shoes with Sora standing behind him cheering him on, making Roxas grumble something about not needing a cheerleader thank-you-very-much.

"Okay Cloud we're ready! Let's go!" Sora exclaimed gleefully. He seemed to be bouncing in his shoes while Roxas was just… sulking next to him. They really were just like opposites.

"Alright." He followed Sora and Roxas out to his car. Sora jumped in the passenger seat as he clambered into the driver's seat. Roxas just plopped himself into the back seat and lay across the seats with a bored look. Cloud sighed. "Seatbelts," he said quietly and yet demanded all at once. Sora snapped his on without hesitation and Roxas took the middle one, weaved around his hips and clipped it closed so he could remain laying down. He sighed again. Why did Roxas have to be so stubborn?

As they drove towards their new school –which happened to be further away than their old one, Sora turned around in his seat to pout at Roxas. "You know that wouldn't be so uncomfortable if you just sat up," he said when Roxas began to shift around to avoid the metal clasps from poking into his hip.

Roxas sent him an annoyed glance. "Same would go for you if you just turned around."

Sora's pout intensified and he turned around, crossing his arms across his chest. Roxas watched his twin for a moment before feeling guilty and sitting up as if to apologize to his twenty five minute older brother. Sora caught his movement and turned around again with a large grin plastered on his face. "Better?" he asked.

Roxas sighed and ran a hand through his hair. He gave his brother a small smile before muttering, "Much."

For the rest of the ride to school Roxas watched the scenery pass through the car window while Sora chatted loudly to Cloud. He felt that this whole situation was completely wrong. Switching schools in the middle of the year wasn't something that really sat well with Roxas. Of course there was no way that he could prevent any sort of change from happening, but this was ridiculous and he was glad that at least Cloud agreed with him on that.

Finally they reached the school and Cloud parked the furthest possible from the doors. Roxas understood that Cloud didn't exactly like trying to get close to others, but when that quality interfered with his ability to park closer to the school so his walk of shame would be shorter, then you knew that he had a problem.

It seemed as if Sora was thinking on the same lines as him –as he usually was – and turned to Cloud with another pout. "Cloouuud! Why did you park miles away from the school? My legs are going to fall off before we even reach the doors." Roxas guessed that Sora was waiting for Cloud to put the keys in the ignition and go park somewhere closer, so when Cloud just got out of the car, the frustrated groan that Sora let out was justified.

Roxas followed Cloud's example and got out of the car, Sora right behind him. The twins stood side by side as Cloud marched up to the school as if he'd been here every day of his life. Sora looked to Roxas, a little fear and anxiety showing through his once impenetrable excitement. He offered an arm out to Roxas, silently pleading for him to hook his own around it. Something they had done all the time when they were younger.

"For old times' sake." Sora said, a little unsure of how his brother would answer him. Roxas just nodded and hooked his arm around Sora's. They walked together to the entrance of the school, ignoring all the curious stares that they got from all the other students in the parking lot.

When they were finally inside the building both boys stood arm in arm, slightly confused. "So uh, do you know where the Admission Office thing is, Roxas?"

"Why would I know where it's at?"

"Well… I dunno." Roxas rolled his eyes at his twin. Really, he couldn't believe that Sora was the older one. "We should've just followed Cloud. He seemed to know where he was going."

Roxas snorted. "I bet he's wandering the halls hopelessly lost right now."

"Yeah, probably," Sora agreed.

"Excuse me." Both Sora and Roxas' gazes snapped towards the new voice. "I-I overheard your conversation… and… I can show you to the office if – if you'd like."

Roxas looked the girl that had approached them over. She was rather petite and almost sickly looking. Her long, pale blonde hair fell into her startling blue eyes. The poor girl was shaking like a small frightened animal. It must have taken all of her courage just to approach the twins.

"That'd be great!" Sora sang out, unhooking his arm from Roxas' to greet the girl properly with a handshake. "I'm Sora! And this gloomy guy here is my twin, Roxas!"

When Roxas didn't respond, Sora elbowed him in the ribs. "Ugh – H-hey…" he grunted out.

The girl smiled shyly and nodded. "I'm Naminé." She paused before waving them towards her. "Just follow me."

Roxas and Sora exchanged glances before following the pale girl. Roxas wondered briefly if she was an angel, or something along those lines. She just seemed to be so pure, so… innocent. He didn't feel right around her. But then again, he could just be nervous. She was really pretty after all.

He took his eyes off the blonde and rested his gaze on Sora. He was glancing about, taking in the school and mumbling about Riku, who had yet to show up. Roxas fumbled in his pocket for a moment to pull out his cell phone and look at the time. Unlike Sora he didn't wear a wrist watch, so he relied on his phone – not that he ever really cared for the time anyway, and of course they were pretty early for school; Riku probably wouldn't even be awake yet. Lucky bastard.

Naminé paused in her steps briefly before falling into step next to Sora. "Are… you two new then?"

Roxas grimaced while Sora linked his fingers together and pushed them out in front of him. "Yup, and our brother Cloud is too. We're coming here from Destiny High! My friend Riku comes here, but I haven't seen him yet, it's pretty disappointing… Have you seen him?"

Roxas rolled his eyes. Don't forget to tell her your shoe size while you're at it, Sora. He thought. Sora looked at him and pulled off a small glare, one that would most likely attract kittens to come and lap at his face.

Naminé, who didn't take notice of the small interaction, shook her head slowly. "No I haven't seen him." She said quietly.

"Oh." Sora seemed to deflate slightly. "Are you a friend of his?"

Naminé shook her head again, her smile thinning. "No. Riku is… too popular, to be my friend."

Roxas choked on a laugh, making it sound more like he'd inhaled a bug. With some difficulty he cleared his throat, "Riku? Popular? You've got to be kidding me." Sora gave another huff and elbowed him for the second time.

Naminé's smile twitched upwards slightly. "You really are new to this school, aren't you?"

"I thought we established this already." Roxas muttered as Sora laughed good naturedly.

"Here's the office. I'm guessing that you're going to get your schedules?" Naminé asked as she stopped in front of a heavy wooden door that stood out against the white painted walls.

"No, we're going to a party," Roxas said and pushed his way past the girl and into the room. She looked slightly bewildered before settling on a small frown.

Sora shot her an apologetic look. "Sorry about him. He's not really a morning person," he tapped his chin thoughtfully. "Or much of a day person, or night person either." He gave a sigh and shrugged his shoulders. "He takes some getting used to. But once you do, he's a good guy."

Naminé giggled, placing a hand over her mouth. "It's alright." She straightened, "What grade are you in? Perhaps we'll have some classes together?"

"We're sophomores."

Naminé's smile grew. "Me too! Maybe I'll see you two around." She gave him a parting wave and smile before heading off to her first hour.

Sora made his way into the office with a smile. He found Roxas leaning against the secretary's desk, back to the woman and arms folded. He looked up at Sora's entrance and sighed. "It's about time you got in here," he said and stood. He held out a piece of paper to Sora but snatched it away before the brunet could grab it. "This one's mine. You have to get your own because they thought I was going to sabotage yours somehow if they let me even look at a printout of your schedule."

Sora laughed. "Rox, you've got to stop being so impatient." Sora poked his twin in the face before moving over to the secretary. She was a middle aged woman, had curly black hair and thick glasses with plastic rims. Her beaded necklace clicked loudly as she moved to answer the phone, completely ignoring the waiting brunet in front of her.

"Hello this is the Admissions Office, this is Elena speaking."

Sora waited patiently as the woman rambled on the phone. Drumming his fingers on the hard wood of the desk, he allowed his eyes to scan over the sporadically placed papers on the desk. There were notes to teachers and students from parents and the like, medical documents for staff and students, a calendar, and there at the far end were some papers with both his and Cloud's name on them.

"Hey umm…" the woman hushed him with a finger to her lips and a glare to kill in her eyes. Sora looked over to the paper longingly. He just wanted to get out of here and find Riku. He could just reach out and grab the paper really fast. It was within his reach. But… what if the secretary got mad? He let out a frustrated sigh.

Roxas was soon next to him, giving the secretary an irritated glance. "This sucks," he said blandly. Sora nodded and continued to stare at the paper, fighting an internal battle. To grab or not to grab? Roxas followed his gaze. "Hey that's your schedule." He reached over, grabbed the paper and headed to the door.

"R-Roxas! Wait!" Sora yelled as the secretary squawked indigently at them. He closed the door firmly behind him and scrambled after Roxas down the hall. "Why'd you do that?"

"Hn. The only class we have together is… P.E.?" Roxas glared down at his schedule for a moment. "When the hell did I sign up for P.E?"

Sora sighed and smoothed out a wrinkle on Roxas' jacket, it was a nervous habit he had – fixing other people clothes. "Remember you had to take it? It's required here and you're supposed to take it as a freshman, so we decided to take a general P.E. class instead of being stuck with a bunch of freshies."

"Yeah yeah, I remember now." Roxas handed Sora his own schedule. "I'm just used to having more classes with you than this."

"Well… Didn't our classes just transfer over?" Sora asked. Curiously he glanced over at Roxas' schedule and gaped. "Roxas!"

"What?"

"Why do just about all of your classes say advanced in front of them?" He frowned. "That's not really fair you know. We're twins; we should both have the same amount of smarts."

Roxas raised an eyebrow. "Same amount of smarts?" he repeated.

"Yeah, I mean seriously Rox, you're taking like, junior level classes."

Roxas blinked at Sora, Sora blinked at Roxas for blinking. "It's not my fault I do my school work, unlike some people."

Sora's face scrunched in annoyance. "But Roxassss!" he whined.

"But nothing. I'm going to wander the halls to look for my advanced chemistry class." The blond waved Sora off as he chose a hall to begin searching for his class.

Sora let out a little huff of annoyance and stamped his foot. This wasn't exactly how he'd planned his first day of school to go. He looked down on his schedule dejectedly. First hour: History. Fun. Not. He took a glance down the white halls. People were starting to fill them, some heading to class, others lingering to chat with friends, and few just… milling about.

"Yo, Sora," a cold hand was placed on the brunet's shoulder, making him jump.

"Eep!" the teen squeaked out as his hands shot up to cover his face. He turned around slowly to meet strands of silver and an amused smirk. Instantly recognizing the face, Sora removed his hands from his face to place them on the other's shoulders. "Riku!" he gasped and shook the older teen's shoulders. "Where have you been?"

Riku, with some effort, unclasped Sora from his shoulders and chuckled. "I've been looking for you for a while now. Have you gotten your schedule yet?"

Sora nodded enthusiastically. "Yeah! See here?" he pushed the paper in front of Riku's nose, "I have history first hour." He said and grimaced.

Riku smirked, "Sounds like fun," he commented offhandedly.

"That's what I thought!" Sora chirped. He glanced around with a smile; the halls were getting really crowded now. "You want to help me find my class then?" he asked, cocking his head to the side curiously.

"And that's what I'm here for!" Riku said and slung an arm around Sora's shoulders. "I can't believe you're actually here. I mean when you first told me you were transferring, I thought you were just pulling my leg, but then last… night…" The subject trailed off suddenly and the two friends were left in its quiet wake.

The loud sound of sneakers slapping against tile brought the teens to their senses, along with everyone else in the hall. "Rikuuuu!" a bodiless voice called out from the crowd.

Riku sighed and rubbed his forehead wearily. "Here it comes," he mumbled.

"Here what comes?" Sora asked confused.

Before either knew it, a long arm slithered its way around Riku's neck and pried him away from Sora. "Riku! You didn't wait for me at the doors today! Is there a reason you're being such a prick to me?" Sora couldn't help but stare at the redhead that was all but smothering Riku in his chest and talking animatedly to seemingly no one. Suddenly Sora felt extremely awkward and shifted his weight around slightly. The redhead took notice of this and instantly stopped suffocating Riku to study Sora better. "And what do we have here? Is this the fresh meat that Riku's been talking about?"

Sora fought back a gasp of shock. "F-fresh meat?" he repeated, confusion evident in his voice.

"Axel, leave the kid be." Riku turned to Sora and clapped him on the back reassuringly. "Sora, this is one of my buds, Axel. And Axel, this is my long time friend, Sora. He just transferred here."

Axel looked Sora up and down, and Sora couldn't shake the feeling of being undressed with the redhead's eyes. "Cute," the redhead said after an uncomfortable pause. "I approve!" he bellowed suddenly. Sora just blinked owlishly.

"Right. Good for you Axel." Riku turned back to Sora, "Now, we were headed to your history class, right?"

"Right!"Sora beamed. As he began to turn in the direction that Riku had motioned to, a sudden, horrible thought occurred to him. "Oh no!" he exclaimed, making both Riku and the retreating Axel look at him worriedly. "Roxas is going to get lost!"

Riku scratched the back of his head for a moment, sending some silver strands array. "Well, now that I think about it… Where is he exactly? Didn't I tell you guys to wait for me?"

Sora gave an exasperated sigh. "I did! But Cloud said he refused to be carted around by a junior and Roxas just walked off saying he'd find his own advanced chemistry class."

"Sora… There isn't an advanced chemistry class." Riku said, a small amused smirk playing on his lips. He waited patiently as Sora sucked in an irritated hiss.

"I knew he was being sarcastic!" the brunet pouted; clear, oceanic blue eyes squinting in slight frustration. "So… that means he's on his way to chemistry." He looked forlornly down at his own pathetic schedule. His science class was just Earth Science, a crap class that he'd taken for some easy science credit.

"Oh hey!" Axel said suddenly, a sharp grin crossing his features. "I'm headed to chemistry right now. What's this Roxas kid look like? I can find him on my way there."

Both the brunet and Riku pointed to Sora.

"He looks like him."

"He looks like me." They said in unison.

Axel blinked a few times, his sharp green eyes clouded slightly with confusion. He pointed a long finger at Sora. "He… looks like you?"

Sora nodded. "But he has blond hair."

"And he's a major grouch." Riku added needlessly, earning him an elbow in the ribs. "What? That kid is moodier than Larxene sometimes!" Another elbow. "Ouch! Why do you keep doing that?"

Axel raised an eyebrow at the display but shrugged. "Okay, I'll just keep my eyes peeled for a blond, moody Sora." Without another word, the redhead took off down the hall, plowing over people that didn't react fast enough to move out of his way.

Sora looked to Riku, slightly confused. "Well, he's… nice?"

Riku chuckled, his aquamarine eyes shining mirthfully. "He takes some getting used to."

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Okay, well, that's chapter one. :D

I hope to update every other week. I've written extremely far ahead, so I shouldn't have a problem keeping up with that promise for a good while. :D

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