Author's Note: I...have no clue where this came from. It's almost 3 am, I'm not even tired yet, and when I opened up Microsoft Word I had actually set out to write a short Shizaya drabble to get my creative juices flowing. But then...this happened. I'm not even completely sure what this is. But...you should enjoy it anyway? I hope? :D

Disclaimer: I OWN DURARARA! ...Okay, no I don't. I lied to make myself feel important. TT^TT

Warning(s): Contains sensitive material that may be considered offensive regarding religion.


I am not a nice person. I know this.

Izaya Orihara was never meant to be nice.

I've always known I was going to Hell. Ever since I was a little boy. I wasn't abused or mistreated. I wasn't taught or trained to be bad, to think that I was going to hell. I've always just known.

It's always been a fact.

I am not a nice person.

I know this.

Everyone knows this.

I want everyone to know this.

I know I'm going to Hell.

I've always known I was going to Hell.

That doesn't mean that I've accepted it.

Because I haven't.

I never will.

That is why I must reawaken the Valkyrie. That is why I have to reawaken her and somehow convince her to choose me, to take me to Valhalla with her.

It's my only option.

I don't want to go to Hell.

I know that's where I'm headed.

I'm not going quietly.

I am Izaya Orihara.

I am not a nice person.

I am a fighter.

And I will fight until the very end.


So...was that creepy? I found it creepy. Anyway, reviews are lovely and make me puke rainbows~! And I would like to apologize for not having updated my story Playing Chess! I'm working on the next chapter, but it's taking longer than I thought it would, because I keep getting writer's block and getting distracted. Anyway, expect another drabble from me soon. It will probably be a lot like this one, only with SHIZAYA~! *A*