Your Answer

"Hey Natsume, did you know I like you?" I walked away. Those words; how I regretted saying them. I don't know how many times I've wished to take those back.

"What, Mikan?" was his response. That was it. I wished his response was more explainable. What if I just left it there and not continued? But no, I had to continue.

"You want me to ask him out for you?" I should have said no, but, "Sure why not?" I peaked to see what was happening and looked for facial expressions, but I was interrupted. Before I knew it, she walked back and told me his response, 'I'll think about it'.

Falling for your best friend is not easy, but more awkward than hard. Your answer might be long awaited for two weeks? One month, a year? Hopefully not because I have patience and I know you don't. I didn't want to tell you yet, but I was forced by friends. I love all the laughter we shared. Laughter we now share are half hearted and with unease. Do you want to reject me or not? Tell me quick or I will be gone.

I am not going to wait for you forever, even though I want to. I've been told my clumsiness is cute, my laughter is heavenly, my smile can light the universe, I am more beautiful then any goddess. I have been told that, so give me your answer now before I disappear from your life. Cinderella has time, I don't. Sleeping Beauty is young forever, I'm not. Snow White can be awakened by a kiss, I can't. Ariel escaped to the human world, I won't. Can't you understand that? Seize the day, Natsume, Carpe Diem. I could have moved away from your world. I could have died in an instant the same day. I could slip out of your hands right away.

Please give me your answer. I won't be able to wait for you forever. I have my own life, my own freedom, and my own rights. I can't just pause time just for you to make your mind. I wish I can, but I can't. I can't just stay with you and then leave right away if you say no. I can't just go get a boyfriend while you're making up your mind, and leave him when you say yes. You can't expect me to run into your arms, or walk out of your life just like that. I have feelings and I am my own self.

Please just tell me your answer, because I can't stand just waiting for you.

-Mikan Sakura