Welcome. My first fanfic so I hope you enjoy. The first chapter is a bit of a filler to indicate how I see Renesmee. The best stuff coming up!

Rated T – just for references to nudity, minor violence and limited profanity. This changes to an M rating after 'Divided and conquer' due to sexual content, aka, sexy time!

Disclaimer – Twilight does not belong to me, credit to Stephanie Meyer.

TEARING ME IN TWO

Introduction: Tearing apart.

I've never given much thought about love; I've always been surrounded by it. Like it comes naturally and it's always going to be that way. But something tells me that love is never going to be that easy, it won't just fall into my lap like raindrops race to a river. Because from reading book after book, all I can see is that people get in the way, regardless of how intense, passionate or right your love is for someone. This is my story.

My name is Renesmee, weird I know! It's a mix of my grandmother's names, Renée and Esme. I'm 17 now, well round-a-bouts, technically I'm only four and three quarters. I'm unusual, not like any of my mortal or immortal family members. I'm unique. I have grown faster a normal human, emotionally and physically. My mother lost her human life to love me, and I will never forget what she has done for me but ... things have changed recently. The close bond between myself and my vampire family is weakening by the moment, I have a constant feeling of dread, like something is going to happen but I can't tell when, why or where.

Bella and Edward are my parents, protective parents, and protective of my heart. Unlike theirs it beats, blood runs through me, I laugh, cry, and feel as any human would. But my skin is hard, unbreakable with a soft glisten in the sunlight. I live on the blood of animals, like they do, that part of me is vampire. I think I'm in love, though I'm not sure and I've never told him. He has always been here, you know, just around! He does anything for me, like I was his gravitational pull or something, holding him here. He told me it's to do with imprinting. We spend so much time together its unreal! But the more time I spend with him the more I feel the burn of their eyes on my back, watching me, ready to pounce, getting into my head, controlling my moods to suit them, seeing every plan I make. Hatred whirling and rising from somewhere deep inside their core. It didn't take me long to know why. Jacob.

There is a growing tension between myself and my father in particular. He loathes Jacob and I know it. But I'm starting to loath him, I'm not sure if I want that or not, trying to hang on to him as my loving father. But when I think of him and the way he treats Jacob, I, I struggle to remember him as anyone other than just Edward. The history with my Mother is still poignant in his mind, nibbling away bit by bit every day. So, you can imagine after a few years of Jacob trying to steal my mother from him that he's certainly going to be pissed when I'm, his daughter, next on Jacob's list! And Edward hates it, hates that I have feelings for Jacob too, that I love to be with him, feel his warm touch on my arm or my face, I love to touch his cheek and show him the most fabulous parts of my day. I honestly don't know what I'm supposed to do now? Try and re-build those bridges between my father and mother, or continue with my life and hope things resolve themselves. The thing is I can't see it getting better with them. All I can only see Jacob. His tall, tanned perfectly defined features, the softness in his eyes when he looks at me. His deep, but silky laugh designed to make a woman feel week. I need to decide if I love him, love him enough to ... leave. Or like my mother before me I could break his heart.

Chapter 1: Can I cope knowing he loved her?

"Well that was embarrassing, think I'd like to die now..!"

Today was beautiful. It's not often we get sun in Forks, so I'm going to make the most of this! The sun was shining, light dancing from all different angles spearing through the trees and spilling onto the mossy ground beneath me. I could have just kept running! Feeling the earth between my toes, Bella always wants me to wear shoes, scared I'd cut my feet or something, I swear she forgets that my skin is as hard as marble too. I felt like I was dancing, not running as I darted between the rays of sunshine, my silky white dress trailing behind me desperately trying to catch me up. Impractically dressed as always thanks to Alice, forever with the fashion tips and adjustments, wonder if she'll ever let me dress myself? Not likely as she never allows that for Bella. Though I've got to admit . . . I do look good today! Not that I'll ever tell her that. Risk of her head exploding and all! WAIT! Something suddenly caught my attention. I froze in position. Waiting. Searching for that scent.

Human.

The burning began in the back of my throat. My eyes began darting from left to right. Desire, trying to force me to lose myself in a frenzy. What should I do? Run? Stay? HUNT? No, no, no damn it! I can't do that, I have to control myself better than this. I closed my eyes and thought of him. Saw his silky black hair, his gleaming eyes, and those muscles, oh yes, those muscles! I remembered what Bella had told me, just hold my breath for a while and concentrate. An eternity passed before I realised that I'd lost the scent. The human must have been far off. Phew, no need to panic then. I suddenly became aware of how still I was, I must look daft right now. I smiled to myself in amusement and sighed a sigh of relief. I threw my head back and marvelled at the patterns the trees made on their way up to the sky, and that was that. I was back to my happy place. I wasn't far from the river now, not entirely sure why I felt the need to circle the entirety of Forks in order to get to the river that was almost at the end of our garden. But never mind! No one was around today, it was almost silent, well it would be to human ears. I however, am able to hear absolutely everything, when my human emotions don't get in the way! How inviting the water looked when I bounded up to the river bed. So clear, resembling the most precious of crystals, almost something out of a movie. Sometimes my human emotions get the better of me. Glancing around me I realised that I was completely alone. No one would know. I grinned a childish, yet mischievous grin and slipped out of the silky dress and watched it reach for the floor. I pursed my lips together, wrinkled my nose and felt my eyes do the smiling for me. Yeah why not! I slid into the water letting it engulf me in its splendour. Not that I was accustomed to skinny dipping on a regular basis during the day, but something overcame me today. Another human thing maybe? I guess I'm just content, I mean who wouldn't be if they tried out my shoes for a day or two? Feeling the rocks below my feet I lay back and let my hair twist with the patterns of the water. I watched the few clouds in the sky play and make images for my entertainment. Pretty sure that one was a deer, that or I was getting a little peckish. Maybe I should hunt; I haven't hunted in almost two weeks. There's always so much more to be doing and seeing than hunting with the family, to be honest I haven't got the patience for their competitiveness in this regard! But, I guess I can't survive any other way! Right, ok, I'd better get back to the house and see if Edward or Bella would accompany me.

"Renesmee?"

Holy crap! What the. . ? I span around to see him stood there. Jacob, if I wasn't so surprised I would have smiled, hugged and kissed him. Instantly it dawned on me that I might very possibly be totally naked right now. Oh dear. This could not be good.

"Err, Jake! Hey! Um, hi, I ... well ... Err" Words, words would be great right now! If only I could spit them out coherently. I grinned awkwardly as I desperately tried to cover myself with my hands. Two hands are clearly not enough for these situations. As advanced as I am, still I cannot seem to produce other bodily parts as and when required. I coughed to clear my throat, preparing to speak and then he cut me off. "I..."

"Okay. So, this is embarrassing! Not that I'm complaining", he flashed me that adorable smile that forced me melt.

"Jacob Black! Are you checking me out?" I laughed, much louder than I thought I was going too. Oops! Typically, he just giggled at me.

"Ok, nothing funny, I just wanted a quick swim it's such a, are you naked?" Astonished that it had taken me this long to realise that Jacob was standing against a tree, stark bleeding naked, I gawped in surprise. Again he laughed, keeping his hands in a protective position around his manhood and looked sheepishly at his toes.

"Yeah, looks like it." He glanced up at me and clearly noticed the unimpressed yet taunting look on my face, "Oh, no Ness I wasn't, you know, coming to join you, ha-ha! I was checking out the area, I'm on patrol. Just phased when I saw you now, didn't wanna startle you an all. I've left my clothes somewhere." Hummm, 'excuses excuses' I thought.

Before I had a chance to even say 'boo' Jacob flew to the ground with a thud.

"DAD! NO!" I screamed as I realised that Edward had launched himself at Jacob and was holding him by the neck, pretty sure he was thinking of killing him.

"I'll kill you Jacob!" He spat through his teeth almost in a scream. Yep, that'll confirm it. Not entirely sure if I should get between them, I hovered over the brawling pair.

"Edward GET OFF ME", Jacob warned Edward almost erupting into a growl. Edward was suddenly launched into the air and landed gracefully against a tree as if no force at all was used against him, at the same moment Jacob ran at him, leaping into the air and phasing into that humongous, but kind of cute looking wolf. OK, not the time to be thinking how cute he was.

"Renesmee, get out of here now," Edward hisses in my direction. They clashed mid air with an almighty smash and tumbled to the ground.

"Jacob please just listen to me!" I begged him as he circled Edward defensively, snarling.

"He doesn't understand what happened, you read his mind right Dad? Well, what he was thinking and the reality of the situation are two very different things. Please listen to me!" I couldn't spit the words out quick enough. Naturally they both totally ignored me, I realised that this could very easily turn into a blood bath and I certainly didn't want to lose either of them.

"PLEASE STOP! You can't hurt each other without hurting me!" I begged them to be reasonable and understand, it might have been selfish but I couldn't take the hostility any longer. In that instant, they both stopped, dead. They just glared at me. NO, it wasn't a glare, it was shock, astonishment. Why were they looking at me like that?

"What?" I didn't understand what I could possibly have done to warrant such looks "What did I do? Jacob?" No answer so I turned my attention to Edward, "Dad?" I searched his eyes for something, anything to guide me in my wrong doing. Oh God, ground open now and swallow me please! They both dropped their defensive stances and broke their gaze from me to look at each other.

"I know" Edward said after a few seconds of silence. I burned up, erupting fury...