The lights flickered on in the library which made Dean jump slightly but he relaxed when he saw it was [y/n] leaning against the door frame. He gave her a small smile before taking a sip of whiskey, and going back to reading the lore book he had in front of him.

"You know It's kind of weird that you sit here in the dark," She said.

"I have a lamp," He said pointing to it, "Besides its kind of creepy that you're just standing there watching me."

"Well what can I say? You're too sexy for me to look away."

The comment made Dean laugh softly to himself, and he just pinched the bridge of his nose gently to get himself to wake up. He loved when she made those comments because it always put a smile on his face. However he knew what she was up to, and like always he was going to push her away. He was only doing what he knew best, and that was being alone.

"I'm not worth it," He finally whispered. "Besides I'm fine [y/n], I don't always need cheering up but I appreciate the thought."

The words sound mechanical and cold because at this point it was just a routine. Same script different person.

"Why do you always do this," He heard her walking towards him, and soon felt her arms wrap around his neck as he continued to look down at his book. "How many times do I have to tell you that you're not alone, and stop acting like you are, and you're not okay. You're sitting in the dark drinking by yourself, and we both know you're not reading this book."

He watched her close the book and pushes the book away from them. He took a deep breath before saying, "You know why I do this. I don't know why you keep asking when you know damn well what the answer is."

"I know you're afraid, I know you're used to walking through life by yourself. Yeah you had people but they always left, and even when they're around it always ends with you taking care of them. You had to take care of your brother, your dad, Castiel, and me with barely any help besides Bobby." He held back his emotions and lifted up his hand to grab one of hers gently. He kissed her hand that just a few days ago had a blade going through it. He saved her life that night, and many nights before then, and they both knew he will still do so no matter how much he pushed her away.

He felt her relaxing against him but he soon got up quickly from the chair which forced her to step back a few feet. He turned to look at her and saw the tears threatening to fall. Dean felt his heart breaking as he pulled her quickly into his arms and held her close to him. He kissed her temple gently when she finally wrapped her arms around his waist.

"I'm sorry, please don't be upset." He whispered. "It's just I've gotten so used to going through all of this on my own that I honestly don't know how to let someone help or just be by myself. Hell I haven't even gotten to that point with my own brother, But [y/n] I'm going to try too. Just please be patient with me okay? I'll get to that point eventually."

"Does that mean you'll finally let me in?" She whispered.

"Yes."

"Will you finally say out loud how you feel about?"

"You know how I feel about you. I thought I was making it pretty obvious right now," he said while pulling her closer to him.

"I want to hear you say it."

He groaned and rolled his eyes which earned him a playful smack on the arm. "Please, I think saying out loud will be helpful for you."

He smiled at how she was practically pouting and finally took a breath and sighed. "You mean everything to me. Normally I would run by now out of fear, but the fear of being away from you hurts more. [y/n] I love you, and I always will," He placed his hands gently on either side of her face and pulled her into a kiss.

"Was that what you wanted," He whispered against her lips. He laughed when he watched her smile widely and nods her head quickly. He could already see her blushing from what he said.

"One more thing, can we cuddle tonight?"

He raised his eyebrow at her question, and playfully pulled away from her. "Alright see now you're just asking too much," He said jokingly and he could not help but laugh at how quickly she began to pout again.

"Alright munchkin come on," He bend down and quickly threw her over the shoulder which made her laugh, and try to fight to get down. He gently tossed her onto the bed, and started to get ready for bed. He slept in his underwear like always, and he could see out of the corner of his eye [y/n] drooling at him.
"Sweetheart you have a little something," He said pointing to the side of his mouth and she quickly touched the side of her lip in fear, but realized that he was only messing with her. She threw a pillow at him which he caught in the air and set it back where it was.

He crawled into the bed and laid down on his back. His arms wrapped around her and pulled her to his chest, and soon her body was wrapped around his. He turned off the lights, and cuddled up closer to her.

"Good night, beautiful. I love you so much," He whispered, but all he got was the gentle sounds of her snoring. He smiled to himself before drifting off to sleep.