Ok so this is an old story I had written and I decided to post it. It's from Kate's POV and it's basically just her dealing with Jack being with the Others still. It is definitely AU from what actually happened in Season 3, so ignore Season 3.

Disclaimer: Really?


If I'm not in love with you

What is this I'm going through tonight

And if my heart is lying then

What should I believe in

Why do I go crazy

Every time I think about you baby

Why else do I want you like I do

If I'm not in love with you

It was the middle of the night. Kate lay on her back staring at the tarp ceiling above her. Sawyer's arm was draped across her stomach. She sighed and carefully slipped out of his grasp and into the dark night. Her feet led her, like they always did, to Jack's tent. She didn't go in because she knew he wasn't in there. She was reminded of that every day.

He was still with the Others. He had sacrificed himself so that she and Sawyer could escape. He was so stupidly selfless sometimes.

She wandered to the shore of the ocean and buried her feet in the wet sand. After a few moments she decided to sit on the dry sand instead. Sinking didn't have the same affect anymore.

She wrapped her arms around her body as a cool breeze washed over her. She wondered where he was and what they were doing to him. If they were hurting him because she had escaped, she swore she'd kill them.

She should be there right now. With him. She'd rather be with him, waiting to die, than safe on the beach. She was alone on the beach. Sawyer thought they were…together or something, but she wasn't so sure. Now that Jack wasn't here, she realized what deep down she had known all along; she wanted Jack. Not in a sexual way (who was she kidding, of course she wanted him like that); she wanted him to be safe, to be sitting next to her in the sand, to be lying next to her in his tent, just to be with her.

She needed him.

She got up and brushed the sand off her pants. Instead of returning to Sawyer's tent, she went to her own. She needed to think. She needed to plan. She needed a way to rescue Jack.

If she didn't get him back she'd never know what they could have had together.

She needed that chance.

Didn't they at least deserve that?


Yes I know it's short. The next two chapters are about the same length, but the last one is really long so there.

Anyways,please review! I always like feedback even though this is an old story.