Don't want to suffer anymore.

[1x1] : "They say I'm crazy. But they are wrong Cyrus, I have never been so sane. But they are not entirely wrong. Remembering you hurts me too much." Drabble. Alice's thoughts as she decides to forget. Alice/Cyrus.

I am suffering.

As futile as it is, I say it to myself sometimes.

I am suffering, and the pain doesn't want to leave.

You're the one who is hurting me, and it breaks my heart to be forced to think it, because it shouldn't be the case.

You're dead.

You're dead, and I think that I am dying too.

Before, when the pain hit me, I told myself that it was a good thing.

It meant that I wasn't forgetting you.

I don't believe it anymore now.

They say I'm crazy. But they are wrong Cyrus, I have never been so sane. But they are not entirely wrong. Remembering you hurts me too much.

I love you. But it can't continue that way, or I will become crazy.

I can't support it, I can't stand it anymore.

I am suffering, in pain, and I don't want to suffer anymore.

Never.

Forgive me Cyrus…