whee!! my first fanfiction.
AND ITS SERIOUS?!

i betcha this will be the only one.
reviews welcomed.

Pick Yourself Up, Beast Boy

Orange Rays glowered down upon the city of Jump, purple clouds casting themselves in the darkening sky.

It had been a long day.

Emerald eyes cast themselves across the water and passed the city. The green changeling had spent most of his days lingering on this shore, his heart broken. The girl had hurt him like no one ever had before. He had been through severe physical pain, and emotional. But this affected him so much, he just couldn't think straight. He wished she'd remembered. Raven told him that she was lying about not remembering him, that she was doing it because she just didn't want to be involved in this stuff. She also told him he should move on. He had been skipping practices, isolating himself more and more. He still went on missions when the city was under attack, but he found himself doing less and less. He had stopped all attempts at being funny. That's when you know there's a problem. He finally got off of the beach, brushing off his clothes, and digging his boots into the sand. He trudged along, dragging his feet as he entered back into the giant T shaped tower. A rush of air conditioned breeze fell over him, and he sighed wearily. He went up to his room; first thing to catch his sight was a picture. The frame's glass settled a shine on the green one's face, making his attention fall on the blonde headed girl. He picked up the picture frame and looked towards his window, imaging her figure standing on top a rock, just like that one night, the night he almost kissed her. His eyes narrowed and his teeth clenched as he through the picture frame at the unopened window, watching glass shards fall. "It was all lies" he said to himself, his tone full of malice, but also sadness. He stepped back and began to pick up the shards of glass, but why stop there? Why not clean his entire room? So he did, it was the most unusual thing this boy could do. Beast boy was changing, all because of a girl that broke his heart. But how could that be happening, she obviously moved on… now why couldn't he? This changeling, Beast Boy, needed to take Raven's advice; he needed to get over her. But he had never been hurt like this before, he didn't know how. He got over his parent's death, he got over his strange changing, so now all he had to do was say he could get over this, and he'd be unconquerable. Those green eyes looked upon a different view. A clean room. It felt like he just got rid of his old self, any trace of anything that reminded him of Terra, even this silver, heart-shaped box he had made just for her. He sunk over to his bed, climbing the steps to the top bunk one by one, before he laid down on all his problems, to lurk in his own sorrow.

He watched his room dim down as the sun fell behind the city, lower and lower. Like his self-esteem. A raspy sigh left his throat as the rumbling of his stomach interrupted his train of miserable thoughts. Even depressed creatures would have to eat sometime,

Beast Boy jumped down to the floor, standing up wearily. His eyes watched his feet walk, not paying attention to detail at all, until he felt a pain in his shoulder, and saw a flash of purple and blue. He had knocked Raven, the one person that knew what he was going through, to the floor. His eyes watched her rub her shoulder.

He didn't help her up though, just stepped right over her legs and walked to the kitchen, speechless.

The purple haired figure glared at the boy. His depressed manner had gone on long enough, she just couldn't feel sympathy for him anymore. She helped herself up, still glaring at him with an iced over purple gaze

"You've become cold Beast boy" She said somewhat angry
The green eyes met with her purple ones "Well, at least at some point in my life I was warm, unlike you"

Raven's face turned from angry, to shocked and hurt. She looked around past him, before shaking her head and walking to her room in a hurried manner. This wasn't like Beast boy at all. When would he get over Terra and learn that his friends are much better than she is? When would he learn that she was much better than her?

"What am I thinking?" Raven asked herself once she got to the door. Her eyes fell on the chest, which held in it the book of her first love. She thought he had loved her back, just like Beast Boy to Terra, but that relationship was filled with deception, lies, hurt.

Beast Boy thought about what he had just done, an angry look spreading across his face. But he felt more anger towards himself. "Damn, why can't I do anything right?" he grumbled. His hands met with the counter as fists, his head hung down low as he stifled a livid yell throughout the tower. Mission Accomplished, he just yelled in his mind.

Morning had come, and Beast Boy hadn't slept a wink. His mind was to cluttered for sleep, had been for the past few days. Maybe that's why he was so irritable. He spotted Raven, and almost instantly wanted to duck away, cower away. He didn't though; he got up his courage and approached her.

"Hey Raven, can I talk to you for a minute…?" He asked somewhat timid.

The girl's glare cast itself on the boy. She got to her feet and just pushed passed him, hard, like he did her. She noticed that he fell, and she just looked down at him, her face trying to hold back a smirk. "No" she answered, and then took a step over him walking to her room, feeling accomplished by her payback.

Beast Boy looked at the floor "I guess I deserved that" he said quietly, but Raven still heard. She turned around, watching him pick himself up. Once he was standing Raven spoke.

"You still haven't picked yourself up" She said before making her way to her room once more.

This made Beast Boy ponder "What is she talking about, I'm on my feet aren't I?". Then it hit him, how dense. He really did need to pick himself up. He wasn't exactly trying to hard to get over Terra.

Gaining up the courage that lingered down at the base of his tippy-toes, he walked over to Raven's room. Eyes shutting tightly as he knocked softly on her door.

It slid open, showing half of a partially shadowed face. "What?" the monotone voice said, eyes narrowing at the green teen. He was being an asshole lately, and she didn't exactly want more of it

"I'm sorry" He said quickly and quietly

"What?"

"I'm sorry" clearer now "I've been so down in the dumps lately, that I completely changed, Terra was just, she was the only one that actually accepted me-"

"Oh don't give me that crap" Raven interrupted opening her door all the way and standing in front of him with her arms crossed over her chest. "Do you think you'd be with the Titans, surrounded by people that care for you, if Terra was the only person that accepted you?!" Her eyes blazed white and she stepped closer, finger engaging itself into Beast Boy's chest as she snarled. "You just need to grow up and get the hell over yourself! Because that's what the real problem is, not Terra, it's you! You can only think of all the bad things happening to you. So she dumped you, get over it and stop being an ass!" She glared at him and slammed the door in his shocked face.

It was true though. Every word that was just told to him, lashed out at him was true, whether he wanted it to be or not.

Beast Boy found tears roiling down his cheeks. He wiped them away and walked outside. The waves crashed up onto the shore as light blanketed around them and him. He sat on a rock down close, skipping stones like usual.

What a miserable day to realize that you've been annoying the others around you with your sorrow and anger.