Adam's POV:
So here I am, lying alone in bed like every night, crying. Some much emptiness, I just wish I could go back and take back all I said. I miss her. I miss my Sunshine…..
" I can feel her breath As she's sleeping next to me
Sharing pillows and cold feet She can feel my heart Fell asleep to its beat
Under blankets and warm sheets "
It's been months. Fucking months.
I've heard she's dated since we broke up. I can't bring myself to look at another women the way I looked at her.
"If only I could be in that bed again
If only it were me instead of him "
4 years. Since junior year of highschool she loved me. Now I'm nothing, not a goddamn thing to her. She's probably someone elses. I don't doubt it, she's amazing. But no matter how much someone else loves her, they won't love her the way I did. Never.
"Does he watch your favorite movies? Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts When you've seen it a million times?
Does he sing to all your music While you dance to Purple Rain?
Does he do all these things
Like I used to? "
Movie night's with her were the best. Same movie all the time and as much as I would get annoyed, I loved her enough to watch that movie million times more. Just to see that I could make her smile and happy was all that mattered. Hell, that movie is now my favorite movie.
I miss my sunshine.
She stood by me through everything, whether it be Whisperhug stuff or my transition, she stayed by me and I stayed by her.
Speaking of transition, I remember our first time. I can't forget it.
" Fourteen months and seven days ago Oh, I know you know
How we felt about that night Just your skin against the window
Oh we took it slow And we both know "
She loved me when I didn't even love myself. She taught me to love, not just to love her but to love myself. I'm a damn fool for love now. I need love, I need my sunshine's love.
"I know love (I'm a sucker for that feeling)
Happens all the time, love (I always end up feeling cheated)
You're on my mind, love (Oh darling, I know I'm not needed)
It happens all the time, love, yeah"
I miss my sunshine.
I miss her so much. No one. No one will love her the way I love her. I'll get her back one day, I'll be able to tell how much I love her everyday again one day.
" Will he love you like I loved you? Will he tell you every day?
Will he make you feel like you're invincible With every word he'll say?
Can you promise me if this was right, Don't throw it all away?
Can you do all these things? Will you do all these things
Like we used to? "
I'll get my sunshine back one day and it will be like it used to.
