~*~ A/N - This is my new story and its different than Destined. I hope you like it. Enjoy and please review.~*~

Chapter 1

As I lay on my bed curled into a ball while sleep tried to overcome me, I fought it. There was nothing more than I wanted then to go into the dark for awhile and not have to deal with this pain but I knew for a fact that it would be waiting for me in the morning and all that I worked up to at this moment would be a waste. I was calm at the moment. I felt stronger. I already had my self therapy in my mind and my outburst of tears for 3 hours. I didn't want to do it again. I have become a scared little girl again. A broken girl. No a damaged girl and I hated her. How did I let myself get like this? How did I lose myself so fast?

I know how it was because I handed all of her to someone else to hold…. Only to drop me.


I was standing on my front porch wearing the white tank top and sweat pants that Jake said he loved on me, while waiting his arrival. I couldn't help but wear the permanent smile that has been on my face ever since I met Jake. He was everything anyone could ask for in a partner. We had most of our stuff already moved into the house we picked out and only had two boxes left and a shelf to bring over. Tonight was going to be our first night staying there and I couldn't help but almost jump out of my skin at the sound of his rabbit coming down the road. I skipped my way to him while he finished parking. He was already a half hour late and I was all ready for getting a little iffy about it but as soon as he got out I could care less cause he was here. Our three years of being together never faded the butterflies that fluttered frantically around in my stomach still. I stood on my tipsy toes to reach his lips but only to be able to examine his facial expression better and my Jake has never wore this one. My eyes raced back and forth from his while pausing mid air frozen from my once sought out home coming kiss. I was trying to make out what was wrong. I could read Jake like a book and I wasn't taking it well that I couldn't right now..

"Jake what's wrong?" I quickly asked after coming up with nothing. He wasn't smiling his Jake smile and he wasn't looking at me, but what bothered me the most was the silence.

"Damn it Jake. Tell me what's wrong." I bit, but I couldn't help it. Whatever this was, wasn't good.

"Bella…" he said while having a little to much sadness role off his tongue with it. He brought his hand to my cheek and touched it ever so lightly.

"I am so sorry but I am not going to be able to do this." He said with as much or maybe even more remorse.

"Do what?" I said while breaking the two words while trying to hold back the tears that were beginning to form. I wasn't stupid it was a gut feeling of what was to be said next.

"I am sorry but I don't love you anymore Bella." He said while handing me the keys to our house and quickly turning to his car.

"I am so sorry Bella, the house is yours." And that was the last thing I heard come out of his beautiful mouth. He was already in the car and peeling out of the drive way while leaving me here to fall to pieces. I didn't even care to pick up the pieces of me that fell in my dads drive way that night, instead I threw the two boxes and shelf in the bed of my truck and quickly drove off with tears flooding my vision as I headed towards our…my new broken home.

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