Hi, this fic is a little bit random and quite a bit weird but I felt inclined to post it. You see yesterday (25/05/06) I wrote this to express how I was feeling; then I added in some Power Ranger stuff and turned it into a fic. If I haven't made you think I'm totally insane then feel free to read on…..

Disclaimer: I don't own anything to do with the Power Rangers I'm just borrowing Adam to speak for me


Earl Grey Tea.

I think I've just finished university….

You probably think that sounds a little odd, I mean you would assume that someone would be pretty certain about something so major as finishing a three year university course but I'm just….not.

It was my final exam today, which is a weird thought in itself, but about two hours after the exam finished I had to check with one of my classmates that we had actually done it. Not that it was easy- far from it, it was horrible- but just because it didn't feel like I'd done it. I didn't feel like I'd sat my "hopefully" final exam of my university career, the one that could possibly decide whether I graduate this summer or not. I didn't feel anything, I felt empty.

Just empty.

It's like that feeling you get after drinking Earl Grey tea. You drink it and its fine but then you immediately need to drink something different because it doesn't feel like you've had anything. Ok, so maybe the tea thing is just me but the principle is basically the same.

Its like three years of my life have gone by and nobody bothered to tell me. I think back on all of the experiences and incidents I've had while at Uni and find myself questioning: "Was it really three years ago?"

"Has it really been three whole years?"

"Did I really write all those essays?"

I get this overwhelming feeling that something is missing, that I've forgotten something…. The last three years of my life for one thing.

So now here I am, three years down the line with just an empty feeling inside. I mean as long as I pass (fingers crossed) that'll be it, Uni finished, over. I keep thinking that I should feel….something. I don't know, maybe I should feel happy or relieved, upset or depressed, maybe I should cry- no that's pushing it a little too far- but I should be feeling something instead of this infuriating emptiness.

It's funny, as I walked back to my car this evening I wondered what I was going to do tomorrow, now that there was no more revision or assignments or essays, and I couldn't think of anything. The only thing that came to mind was the phrase "Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life". Actually, forget funny, that's bloody terrifying!

I've actually got to find something to do with the rest of my life.

Hopefully in a few months I will be a graduate, I'll have a degree that I'm really not sure what I'm going to do with….and my whole life ahead of me….

Wow…

Still feel empty though.

I mean what now? What should I do next?

I've won competitions as part of the ninja trio; I was a power ranger for so long, through so many different powers, villains and team-mates; I've risked my life when I should have… and risked my life when I possibly shouldn't have – Rocky will never let me forget about how I "could've been destroyed" after morphing with my broken power coin to help Carlos; anytime we have an argument and it looks like I'm getting the upper-hand he'll bring that up…although I am getting better at finding comebacks that drive him crazy-; I've just finished a three year degree course and now….now…now I just don't know….

I'm not feeling empty now….I'm feeling lost….fantastic…..


Well there you have it. But anyone reading this just about to head off to university or doing exams please don't take it the wrong way, going to University has been one of the best decisions I have ever made, there are very few regrets….I just can't quite believe it's over….

Thank You for reading.