Life's A Playlist
A/N: Okay so this wasn't supposed to be the first chapter, but it was Halloween weekend and I just had to write this because it was all I could think about. So the explanation about this story will probably be in the next chapter, so wait. And if you could guess right away what movie this is from before you read, then you seriously deserve a hug and you're awesome, so yeah
Sally's Song
Halloween, the one day kids are allowed to eat all the candy they can consume. When you're older however, the candy stops and you go to every party there is.
For about two weeks, all I have heard about is this huge costume party Paige is throwing. She sends out invites and I am one of the unlucky ones...I receive an invite.
The minute it landed on my desk during homeroom, I quickly shoved it in my messenger bag, making sure it got crumpled in the process.
Halloween was tonight and I grumble as Marco just shakes his head disapprovingly after asking if I was going to attend. I know he wants me to go by the countless times he's pleaded but I refuse. There was no way in hell, I, Ellie Nash was going to a party. Especially one that Paige was throwing. She had invited everyone I did my best to avoid. Sure she invited people I cared about, like Marco, Jimmy, Alex, and dare I say his name...Craig.
After the last bell rings, I make my way home on foot. I WAS alone but was that was until I heard the oh so familiar sounds of someone's footsteps behind me. I hear my name being called by the one voice that makes my knees grow weak. I turn around and that smile I try so desperately hard to hide makes it way across my face. Craig finally reaches me and gives me a pleasant smile 'hello'. He asks to escort me home and I agree.
Of course after five minutes of walking he asks the one question I was hoping he wouldn't ask. I don't hold back my groan as Craig asks if I got an invitation to Paige's Halloween party. I look up at him with a disgusted look and he just gives me his infamous condescending smirk. You know that smirk, the one that makes all the girls fan themselves...including me.
He drapes his arm over me and pulls me in closer. I feel the hotness in my cheeks as I smell that aroma that haunts me every night.
It's the please that gets me to agree to go. Once were at my doorstep he looks down at me and promises we'll have fun. A deep shade of red swells up again in my cheeks and increases as he laughs. He pulls me into a hug and I shiver as I feel his breath against my neck. He turns to leave and I watch as he descends towards his house. I walk into my apartment and I start to feel my eyes become teary.
I sense there's something in the wind
That feels like tragedies at hand
After making a makeshift costume out of clothes in my closet, I go as a vampire. I ignore the comments that are said behind my back as I enter the house decorated for tonight's festivities.
I find Alex and Paige by the refreshment table and they compliment my attire. I thank them though I know it was said out of politeness and not sincerity. As they continue their conversation, I look around for Craig.
I spot him across the room talking with Marco and Jimmy. I chuckle to myself as I notice Craig is wearing a Jack Sparrow like costume. I see him break away from the conversation and look up at me. I feel my heart rate increase just slightly as he smiles and waves me over. I look away nervously as I make my way towards the trio.
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
We stand around for a little while just joking around. I stand close by Craig as we socialize in our small group. Everything was going so good and I finally started feeling more at ease.
I felt Craig position his arm around me and I snuggled in closer. I gaze up to find his beautiful hazel eyes looking down at me. I smile shyly and I hope that this isn't a dream. As I open my mouth to speak, Craig's attention is somewhere else. I turn around to see what has is interest, when my smile quickly falters.
The worst is just around the bend
I watch as Craig is dragged away by Manny. She leads him to the dance floor where I painfully observe the two sway rhythmically to the music. I turn back around and head to the bathroom. I stop at the door and stare back long enough to see Manny inch closer to him. I open the door in one swift motion. I turn the lock and rest my head against the frame. It doesn't take long before the tears stream down my face. I sink down to the floor as I realize my heart is breaking.
And does he notice
My feelings for him
I sit in the bathroom and cry for what seems like an hour. I can hear Marco outside asking where I am. I pick myself up from the floor and look in the mirror. My vivacious loose curls now seem lifeless and my makeup is smeared. After reapplying my eyeliner and fixing my hair, I head back out into the crowd of people.
I soon find Marco and tell him I stepped out for a minute. I know that he doesn't believe me but he let it go for now, which I was grateful for. The party had grown bigger and somehow I managed to find a place to sit. I looked around to see if I could spot Craig. I didn't see him or Manny, and the pain I felt before sneaks back in.
And will he see
How much he means to me
Call me a masochist but I couldn't help but wonder where they ran off too. I slumped back into the chair as I saw everyone's smiling faces. Not two hours ago was I one of them. It became clear at that moment that the state of bliss I felt such a short time ago, was merely a fantasy. Craig wasn't protesting at all when Manny pulled him away. His arm that was comfortably wrapped around my shoulders left effortlessly when she appeared.
I think it's not to be
A stray tear slips out of my eye and I quickly brush it away. I turn my head toward the window hoping nobody sees me this weak. I feel someone sit down next me and I find myself hoping its Craig. I turn around and see it's only Alex. I give her a feeble smile and recognize that she is tipsy. I roll my eyes as she offers me a drink. I know I shouldn't take it but I just want to drown my sorrows.
I sip casually on the small drink I made for myself. While doing this, I asked myself a series of questions. What if gets back together with Manny? Will our friendship suffer because I can't let go of my feelings? Will it be awkward when we hang out alone? Would I be tempted, or will I revert back to old ways? Will he forget about me?
What will become of my dear friend?
Where will his actions lead us then?
As I sit and ponder these thoughts, Marco makes his way up to me. Pouting he asks why I am not having fun. I look at him knowing he knows why. He gestures to the party and tells me to just forget it. He tells me to just enjoy myself and that he really isn't worth it. I smile genuinely. His heart is in the right place and I appreciate him comforting me, but it's just not that simple.
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Marco pulls me to my feet as he dances to the upbeat music. My heart isn't in it at first, but soon the alcohol took over. My emotions fled from me. All I felt was the vibrations of the music. I moved my body steadily to the tune but all the while I kept my eyes searching. I was searching for the one person I should be running from...not too.
Try as I may
It doesn't last
And in the midst off all the people and gyrating bodies, my emotions caught up to me. I can't do this. I shake my head and draw my hand away as Marco tries to pull me back. I scream 'I'm sorry', over the blaring sound. I push my way out of the hot and overcrowded household. There are people outside of the entrance, so I make my way around to the side of the two story house.
I sit down on the cold grass. I let the petals trace my bare skin as I take a deep breath. I try to calm myself. Why? Why am I feeling this way? He is only my friend. My best friend. The one person I can talk to about my family issues. The only one who I actually feel understands...the one I love.
And will we ever
End up together
Acceptance as they say is the last step. I finally accepted the fact that I am in love with Craig Manning. The only problem is...he doesn't feel the same way. I cry softly at this realization. I am in love with a boy who doesn't love me back.
No I think not
It's never to become
I pull my legs in closer to my chest as the loud noise muffles my sounds. I shook my head faintly, hoping and praying no one will find me. I wish for some great power to give me strength to get up and walk away. And just like magic I hear a distinct voice...and name.
I get up and peer around the corner. I see Craig and his tall lanky body facing away from me and into Manny's eyes. She is smiling and reaching out to hold his hand. I watch for the final time as she edges closer towards him. She is leaning in for a kiss and that's when I turn away. That is the final point. My moment to run home and forget what had transpired this entire evening. To shut out the world from reality. The reality in which I am not his and he is not mine. The reality I want to dreadfully avoid.
For I am not the one
A/N: Okay so I think this might be the best I have ever written. Please read and review and if you didn't guess already this from 'The Nightmare Before Christmas'. I do not own anything in the story nor do I own the movie or the song. Trust me Tim Burton is a genius and I would never take claim to anything he did. There is a part two, so stayed tuned and review! :)
