Hi, My name is Ariel Maruise Belle. I am 13 years old homeschooled at Ohdela.I Kinda like it better than regualr school no annoying people just me . But sometimes i get lonley because i used to just have friends and teachers to talk to. Now its just me. I dont talk to myself or anything but i just... dont have anyone to talkt to mother makes it no yells at for getting C's ive been getting Cs all my life and now its a big deal my striaght A sister got a C on her Report card and she was home free. My mom says i shouldnt get any Cs becaus im here by myself (home). I can do a hoemwork paper at home by myself after school and still get a C so what makes you think me beign home all day by myself is any better ive learned to function around orthes its harder now. I used to have people i could turn to to help me with things now i have to wait for someone to be avalible for me (the teachers).
I dont really like my mother anymore she took me from what i loved most school teachers and most deffinetly my freinds i gave all of them a peice of my heart and it hurts to have to be seperated form them all it hurt even worse when i had to be sepreated from my Ex boyfriend i miss them all alot im not allowed to communicate with them anymore my mom wont allow it she keeps me from them like ow she keeps me from my father.
Legally i have no parent she doesent have custody of me.
Sometimes i want to runaway to my dads house or my Aunts house but i think she would find me as quickly as she found my sister Isis she ran away once to. Sometimes i want to kill myself and cut myself but ik that wont make her send me back to school i think she hates me and my sister she never comes home anymore ever. She basically lives at her boyfriend Wali's house theres no food to eat in our house but she does have enough money to stock up Wali's fridge. Isis has her own job so she can buy food but she dosent usually bring any food for me sometimes i go to bed without food everyday. Noone cares about me anymore but idc eeither fuck em all FML. I really love Superman August Alsina Nicki Manija Trey Songz Chris Brown Wiz Khalifa Lil Wayne Drake and may other rappers. If i had 3 days before i died and i knew it i would have sex with Demetrius on the first day before i died on the second day i would go to as many amusement parks as i can and on the last day before i day iw ould have more sex with Demetrius and as many others as i can then on the day i die in the morning i would rob a bank and eat hella panckaes and chiken for breakfast get arrested and die. Thatll be a beautiful death if you ask me. I guess thats because its my likfe thats dieing but who gives a flying fuck but me. Oh By the way you have just read whoever you are prob not supposed to be reading this but This has been a session of Janias Thoughts and feelings.
