This is a story that I had written during a sad time for me so I found venting through free verse very healing...

Sadly most of my favourite characters have to suffer from my venting... XD


Dear My Guardian Angel,

It's been hard.

I know you're happier now

But that won't stop me from

Wishing things

Could be different…

Maybe if I said something different

Did something just to show

How much I care

How much I wish

I had been there

With you…

I never really knew how

But you repaired my life

You sowed my loose stitches and

Combed through the knots

With gentle fingers

You cared…

How I wish I could repay you

Hold you

Kiss you

Keep you

But not now

Now you're safe…

You always told me

Life was difficult

Painful

And sometimes unpredictable

But that's what made living

Everyday so special…

Nothing is special

You lied to me

Just like you did once before

You said everything was going to be all right

Why?

Why did you lie? ...

Nights have been long

Days without meaning

Nothing means anything anymore

So I lose myself

In memories

I hold on to what's gone…

I can still hear your voice

In my ears

I can still feel your hands

In my hands

I can still see your smile

In my eyes…

Sometimes I imagine

You walking through my door

That smirk on your lips

You lean down and kiss me

But all I see is an empty hallway

And broken dreams, cold on the floor…

It didn't take me long

To take the first step

It hurt

But the pain of

Losing you forever

Hurt so much more…

Save me

I don't want to feel this way

No longer

No longer can I bare it

No longer can I breathe

No longer can I live…

I waited

I begged

I cried

I tried

I tried so hard

So hard…

The day has come

The last hour reached

I wait

Because I know

I will see you again

Once more…

It was hard

I know you're happier now

And soon I will be too

I was always the selfish one

You always cared for me

Now I will never leave your side…

The light was so bright

All hate flooded from my body

All love swollen in my stomach

All memories my story

I will see you again…

You search for my eyes

I smile at you

You walk over

And I wrap my arms around you

My eyes are wet

Your eyes are closed…

I couldn't wait

I hope you forgive me

I wasn't strong enough

I never was

Not without my only reason to live…

It was hard

But now we share happiness

But I see it in your eyes

How you wish

Everything could be different

Not ended this way…

I was always the selfish one

You always cared for me

But I made my choice

So I hold your hand

Have you by my side...

I never wanted our lives to be this way

But now we can live forever

In our hearts

Beating softly

Forever…

Love Alfred x


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