This is a story that I had written during a sad time for me so I found venting through free verse very healing...
Sadly most of my favourite characters have to suffer from my venting... XD
Dear My Guardian Angel,
It's been hard.
I know you're happier now
But that won't stop me from
Wishing things
Could be different…
Maybe if I said something different
Did something just to show
How much I care
How much I wish
I had been there
With you…
I never really knew how
But you repaired my life
You sowed my loose stitches and
Combed through the knots
With gentle fingers
You cared…
How I wish I could repay you
Hold you
Kiss you
Keep you
But not now
Now you're safe…
You always told me
Life was difficult
Painful
And sometimes unpredictable
But that's what made living
Everyday so special…
Nothing is special
You lied to me
Just like you did once before
You said everything was going to be all right
Why?
Why did you lie? ...
Nights have been long
Days without meaning
Nothing means anything anymore
So I lose myself
In memories
I hold on to what's gone…
I can still hear your voice
In my ears
I can still feel your hands
In my hands
I can still see your smile
In my eyes…
Sometimes I imagine
You walking through my door
That smirk on your lips
You lean down and kiss me
But all I see is an empty hallway
And broken dreams, cold on the floor…
It didn't take me long
To take the first step
It hurt
But the pain of
Losing you forever
Hurt so much more…
Save me
I don't want to feel this way
No longer
No longer can I bare it
No longer can I breathe
No longer can I live…
I waited
I begged
I cried
I tried
I tried so hard
So hard…
The day has come
The last hour reached
I wait
Because I know
I will see you again
Once more…
It was hard
I know you're happier now
And soon I will be too
I was always the selfish one
You always cared for me
Now I will never leave your side…
The light was so bright
All hate flooded from my body
All love swollen in my stomach
All memories my story
I will see you again…
You search for my eyes
I smile at you
You walk over
And I wrap my arms around you
My eyes are wet
Your eyes are closed…
I couldn't wait
I hope you forgive me
I wasn't strong enough
I never was
Not without my only reason to live…
It was hard
But now we share happiness
But I see it in your eyes
How you wish
Everything could be different
Not ended this way…
I was always the selfish one
You always cared for me
But I made my choice
So I hold your hand
Have you by my side...
I never wanted our lives to be this way
But now we can live forever
In our hearts
Beating softly
Forever…
Love Alfred x
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