If I really owned Hellsing or any of the characters or episodes, do you really think that Alucard and Integra wouldn't have gotten together by now? Quite honestly, I think it's clear there's romance. But that's just my view.

A/N: Just so you know (almost become a superstition, writing this in every time), I don't take plot as written in stone. Generally, I try to keep things intact in the plot as I can, but I do not feel hindered by the plot in that I could not change it to better support the fic. I'd appreciate it if you didn't flame me for plot reasons.

Static

When you saved me for the first time;

Answered me, my cries in vain

My desperation and my agony

Answered me when the world had forsaken

Answered me when all else had forgotten

In that one moment,

I think that perhaps

You really saw me

Clear and true

Through the static

Connecting with you.

In that one moment

I think perhaps you knew

Who I was

That was I something real to you;

Not just another human,

Not just a pretty police girl,

But someone real,

A weak, dying hope,

That maybe the world

Wasn't really as cruel

As it had been to you.

In that one moment

That signal in the static

You gave me one chance,

A chance to cheat my fate

But the cost so great . . .

Were you really surprised at my choice?

Oh, how well I can remember

Those clever red eyes

Full of your own personal justice

For just one moment,

Somber, sorrowful

Wishing it could have been different

And yet understanding, the realization . . .

You delivered promptly, no second guesses.

And in that moment

Maybe you could see

Breaking through the static

That I wasn't so unlike you

That maybe, I, too

Could wander the night;

That, lonely, like you

We wouldn't have to be alone.

Quickly as you came

You faded away

Becoming nothing to you

A little rag doll lying on the stairs

Just another pretty face . . .

How could you be like that?

Just your tool, your little childer

A new fledgling

To-be a ruthless killing machine

Nothing much . . .

How could you be so cold?

Is it your heart, childish, fearful of breaking?

Is it your mind, corrupted by your slavery?

Is it you, you and your faithless religion,

Your sweet ecstasy of sorrow,

You and your high prison walls

Your dark mirrored asylum?

Is this your eternity,

This world of sorrow reflected in red eyes?

My greatest wish

In just one moment

To connect through

Through this graying world

That you might see me again

Like you did once

Something worth it . . .

But it just won't care

You're on the other side

The walls before me

Laughing at my tears

You can't hear me

Through this static

Through this battle without compare

Through your midnight ecstasy

Through you . . .

How could you betray my heart?

Me, me who had become yours

Me, who you gave

The gift, the curse

The eternal life

It is I that make your eyes turn away

Ashamed to meet mine

Red in anger

Red from fate

Red from crying

But to offer another scathing criticism

On my fledgling massacre skills.

Because deep down, you know

That I am far from blind

That I can see what even you deny yourself

I see where your eyes have led you

I see where your heart lies

In her eyes

Her eyes . . .

Call me just police girl

To me, it never read at all

Your frail heart, in its stony fortress,

Surrendered to a woman, so cold

So uptight and callously cool

Surrendered to a woman, your master given

Holding your soul in eternal bondage

Surrendered to a woman, your true desire

Your tempting Aphrodite

Never to me, one bleeding and forlorn

Never to me, broken child of the night

Never to me ... dying . . .

Static

Static in my voice

Static in my heart

My words, my very self

Fading slowly away

Chameleon, camouflage

Becoming the gray

While you drift ever further

In the clouds of paradise

Of course you'd never see

Me fading into nothing.

Of course you'd never know

How I was crumbling inside

Of course you'd never see

A dog in the shadow of an angel.

So go to your love

You've searched of for centuries

Finally your paradise

Escape to your land of bliss

Your eternal heaven

Forever in this awesome ecstasy.

Leave the dog in the rain

Dripping outside your door

Never offer a whine for salvation

Leave the memories of graying pasts

Of pretty, innocent police girls

Of red staring eyes in the moonlight

Leave the memories of a moment

Lost among the shattered pieces

Of a pretty doll.

Leave me to fade away

Into the static

Forgotten forever

Forsaken by you . . .

And in that one moment

Maybe you'll even have a piece

Of what you lost . . .

THE END