Angel: My first yaoi, currently rewritten.

Kurama: I don't think I'm going to like this.

Hiei: Neither am I.

Angel: Give me a break! This is my first attemt at angst and yaoi!

DISCLAIMER:Don't own it, but I wish I did.


Hold on to me love

You know I can't stay long

All I wanted to say was I love you

And I'm not afraid

Can you hear me?

Can you feel me in your arms?

Kurama sat in the forest, leaning against a tree, crying and bleeding. He had just had the worst experience in the world. Rejection.

'The only reason I left' Kurama cried to himself, 'Was because I had to open my big mouth. Damn it! I just wanted him to love me, I just wanted to be with him.'

He looked up through the canopy of leaves at the stars. It was depressing knowing Hiei had no feelings for him. He wiped his eyes and stood up, but fell down because of his injuries and blood loss.

'No chance on getting help, at least I have some healing herbs.' Then it struck him, why stay in the Ningenkai? Koenma told him the moment he dies, he would go back to being Youko. He could be free again. 'And never see Hiei again...'

Holding my last breathe

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you

Sweet raptured light

It ends here tonight

Kurama laid down, feeling the world twist and turn. Calling up a last rose, he held it in his hands, then made the color shift to black, with red petals in the center.

'A Hiei rose.' He mused. 'They'll neverknow it was his fault I died.'

I miss the winter

A world of fragile things

Look for me in the white forest

Hiding in a hollowed tree (come find me)

I know you hear me

I can taste it in your tears

He placed the rose next to him and felt tears run down his cheeks. 'Why did things have to turn out this way? Why couldn't we be together?'

Then he remembered, because Hiei said, 'Love is for the weak. And anyone who loves is a fool. And I will not tolerate fools.'

Holding my last breathe

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you

Sweet raptured light

It ends here tonight

"I hate you Hiei, I hate you." He cried openly, not caring if anyone saw. He would die here, and it would be Hiei's fault. He was the reason Kurama ran away, he was the reason Kurama fought that demon so carelessly, Hiei's fault, because he couldn't just tell him, 'I don't feel the same.'

Closing your eyes to disappear

You pray your dreams will leave you here

But still you wake and know the truth

No one's there

Safe inside myself

Say goodnight

Don't be afraid

Calling me,

Calling me,

As you fade to black

(say goodnight)

'Why can't I just die now? I just want to die!' Then it clicked, his wounds weren't bad enough! He pulled out a plant known for its blade like leafs. He took one and began slicing his arms and wrists. Blood poured, and Kurama felt weaker. 'It's your fault Hiei.'

The blood pooled around him, thick and dark. He watched as it seeped into his clothes and skin, dieing it all red, like Hiei's eyes.

'I can't believe I did this!' Finally realizing what he had been doing. 'No! I won't give in. Kasaan, my friends,...Hiei.'

Barely standing, he tried to get back to the temple using the trees as support.

Holding my last breathe (don't be afraid)

Safe inside myself (calling me)

Are all my thoughts of you

Sweet raptured light

It ends here tonight

He manged to stumble under the tree Hiei had been in just as he finally collapsed.

"Kurama!" Hiei jumped down from his perch and turned his red-haired companion over. "Kurama, wake-up! What happened?"

"Aishi..teru, Hiei." His eyes fluttered closed, and his last breath passed his pale lips.

"I'm sorry,Kurama, aishiteru." The fire demon cried silently, knowing he had been a fool to deny his fox.

Holding My Last Breathe

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you

Sweet raptured light

It ends here tonight...


Angel: That made me cry! -sniffle-

Muse: Your first yaoi is a dark angst drama.

Hiei: Bring Kurama back!

Angel: Should I? If enough people want it, I will. Review please! -hands out tissues to readers- Just in case you cried or got teary-eyed.