I don't really know what's up with me, but I've been coming up with a lot of really angsty oneshots lately. This is really short, I know. Dx Anyway, my dad and I were doing stupid word games in our gigantic book of them (don't laugh! We're crossword puzzle nerds!), and he left to go unclog the gutter. Obviously, I wasn't whiny or freaking out, but while he was dealing with that I wrote this.

Going as SMeyer for Halloween does not give me the rights to Twilight. At least, that's what my friends say. Dx

Knowing you've been abandoned for a gutter is one thing.

"C'mon, Bells, it's okay," Charlie reassures me. "I'll only be a few minutes."

"But Daddy…" my five year-old self whines, pouting. I hold up the book of word searches, waving it feebly in front of me. "You promised," I whimper.

Realizing that you've lost your love to "distractions" is another thing entirely.

"I know, Bella, honey," he says, softening. "And we will do those. But this is important."

I look down and turn away. A single curl, bleached light amber from the Phoenix sun, falls to cover my left eye. ""More important than me?" I whisper without hope.

I can handle losing Charlie to household repairs.

"It'll help with the leak in the living room," he says uncomfortably, dodging my question.

"Can't you do it after I leave next week?" I try, stubborn too the last.

Being left by Edward, all alone in the woods, all alone in my life, cannot be dealt with quite as easily.

"No, Bella," he says firmly. "I have to do this now. How would you like it if the house flooded?"

I shrug halfheartedly. "It'd be fun to go swimming."

"You won't feel that way once your room is underwater, trust me," he mutters.

I could get over that, because we could always do the word searches another time.

This was different.

As he leaves to unclog the gutter, I hear one last thing: "It's for your own good, Bella."

You said the same thing, Edward. You claimed you left for me.

And you know what?

Charlie and I never did get around to those word searches.

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