Note: I do not own any character or element other than Lithe. The rest belongs to Nix Hydra. This chapter may contain some straight-from-the-game elements, but there are plenty of modifications. This is a re-imagining, so there will be lots of similarities, but also plenty of differences.

Ch. 1: The Magician's Apprentice

I can see it on his face before he even opens his mouth to speak. I know what's coming.

"I'll miss you."

It's the dead of a moonless night. The right time for beginning a journey, according to him. I think he was just trying to avoid me seeing him off. He knows how I feel about always being left behind.

"Here… take this. For you to play around with while I'm gone."

A gift? This can't be good. How long is he planning to leave me this time? He slips a hand into a deceptively small pouch.

"My tarot deck."

I reach out and the deck plops into my hand, the hum of Asra's magic tickling my palm.

"You think I'm ready, Master?"

I'm momentarily distracted by the vague whisper of the arcana in my head. My fingers twitch shut around the deck and the tingle of Asra's magic intensifies.

"You're still calling me that… You know I can't answer that for you. You've made incredible progress, but you still won't let go of your doubt. Do you think you're ready?"

Always answering questions with more questions. No, avoiding answers with more questions. I'm losing patience and everything in me is begging to ask why he won't just answer me for once.

"Why don't we ask the cards?"

He glances toward the door and I speak before he has the chance to make an exit.

"Excellent suggestion."

He practically lights up, heading for the back room with a bounce to his step that I haven't seen in a while. He seems eager.

"It's been a while since we've practiced."

I realize my palms are sweating as the words break free from his lips. It has been a while. Moths maybe? How long had he been gone last time?

"Because you're always gone?"

His shoulders sag a bit under the weight of his guilt. Good. Maybe he'll stop doing this?

"Maybe. Someday you'll find a real teacher… Well, I'm here now. Let's see how powerful you've become."

He's always going on about how "powerful" and "gifted" I am… But he still won't take me with him. Too dangerous. Too long. He'd worry.

I shake my head and try to clear my mind, focusing on Asra and letting the arcana guide my hand. I shuffle the deck. His gaze follows the cards as they slip through my fingers. I place three cards face down, waiting for Asra's gaze to settle on one before sweeping the other two back into the deck. I flip the card on the table over.

"…The High Priestess."

I'm hit with a wave of unease, but when I speak, my voice is clear and strong.

"And what is she telling you?"

He leans close, expectant. He smells of sandalwood. He's been using the shampoo I made him while he was gone.

"Is she speaking to you now?"

He's impatient. When the cards speak to me, it isn't in any human tongue. Nonetheless, when my mind is clear, the answer comes to me.

"You've forsaken her."

"I have?"

He looks startled, violet eyes looking wild for half a second before he speaks.

"Yes. You've pushed her away, and buried her voice. She calls out to you, but you won't listen. Master, if you don't listen to her…"

A sharp knocking startles all three of us. A customer? By the time I get cut off I'm practically begging him to heed the warning, so its just as well we be interrupted before I make a fool of myself.

"Did you forget to put out the lantern again? Just as well. I can't stay any longer."

He stands and picks up his pack from the bookshelf holding ingredients on the back wall.

"Well then… take care of yourself, Lithe."

He still has something to say, but he won't say it. I open my mouth to inquire or to object. I'm not sure which, I think, but I am sure. I know what I want.

"Stay."

"Don't go."

"Don't leave me behind. Again."

Its what I want to say, what I try to say, but he slips through the curtain to the shop and rounds on me as soon as I'm in the main shop.

"Until we meet again."

Asra slides his hat over his head, shielding his eyes from view. He parts the curtains soundlessly and slips out the back door. And just like that, he's gone again.

After last night's intrusion… I turn the first lock, and then the second and third. Almost satisfied, I press my right hand to the door and whisper a cross-me-not spell. The wood lights up beneath my palm, in the pattern of Asra's intricate designs. White whorls glow deep within the door, slowly fading into the grain. The shop will be well. All will be well. I pull my shawl tighter, and step out into the foggy street.

The morning mist is thick, yet to be scattered by the heat of day. It blankets the street in an ethereal, milky glow. I take a moment to appreciate the tranquil scene, when all at once… I feel the drag of exhaustion. After the events of the previous night, I got even less sleep than I usually do without Asra beside me. When he's here we share a bed, unless he falls asleep in front of the hearth with Faust curled up in his shawl.

I break free from my thoughts, realizing I'm still staring off into the mist. I have to go. Now. Exhaling deeply, I continue toward the narrow, mossy steps that will lead me to the marketplace.

Wood groans beneath my feet as I step carefully onto the walkway. Daylight seeps through the gaps between the worn planks, shimmering on the water that flows below. It's early yet, and the marketplace is already wide awake. All around me are the sounds of bartering, laughter, vendors hawking their wares. A voice I know well calls out to me over the sea of noise.

"Lithe! Have you eaten? I've got that pumpkin loaf you like in the oven. Won't be long now. Come, sit down, talk for a while!"

I sniff the air on impulse and my stomach twists in hunger. I should probably be careful of the time… but I doubt I'd even make it to the palace sleep deprived and hungry. I nod.

The baker's sun-speckled face lights up with a broad smile. He leads me into the booth, and a warm, spicy scent surrounds me. As I settle against the back wall, he offers me a steaming tin cup and places his hands on his hips.

"And where is Asra? Sleeping in?"

I busy myself with my cup, staring down into the murky liquid. I take a sip and lick my lips before I answer.

"He's on a journey."

I swirl the hot, minty drink around my cup, nearly splashing it out the sides.

"Ahh, and where's he off to this time?"

The baker smiles warmly, then turns to check on the loaves baking in the large stone oven. When his eyes meet mine again I shrug and sip at my now-cooled drink. The baker gives me an odd look.

"He didn't tell you? How suspicious! You're telling me that rascal is keeping secrets from his prized pupil?"

The words are in jest, but they prod at my raw nerves in a way that compels me to answer. My answer feels heavy on my tongue and it tumbles out uncomfortably.

"It's always like that."

The thought of Asra sharing everything with me is laughable. 'Where are you going?' 'Out.' 'When will you be back?' 'Sooner or later.' It used to drive me crazy, wondering what he was hiding from me. But I've learned to live with it, more or less. I don't ask as often. I try to keep busy.

And my methods did work until recently. The last journey was hard. He was gone for months and didn't even bother to let me know it would be a while. When he came home nearly a fortnight ago I wasn't sure if I should laugh or cry. I was so angry when I heard he was approaching, but as soon as he came in his face lit up with that familiar warmth and I found myself embracing him instantly.

"Squeeze?"

Faust echoed in my mind as Asra and I stood in the doorway like that for quite some time.

I am pulled out of my daydreaming by the baker's warm laugh.

"You two are so complicated. So, he's off on some secret journey. And where are you off to today, if I may ask?"

I consider holding my tongue, but I decide he can be trusted. I lean in and tell him about the previous night's events, leaving out the doctor's intrusion. I tell him about the deal and the palace. I think he can see that I'm nervous. I try not to think about how much I want Asra here in this moment. I should probably be on my way to the palace by now anyway.

"How's that bread coming along?"
With a shake of his head, the baker goes to the small wood stove to check. He slides the loaves out and places one atop some parchment and linen, wrapping the paper neatly before tying the cloth around it.

"There, all wrapped up for the road. Now, don't keep the Countess waiting!"

I reach for my coin purse, but he holds up a hand. Its not like I can't pay, but I'm grateful for the gesture. I give a backwards wave and head back out to join the flow of traffic.