A/N : My first not one shot IchigoxRukia fanfic. I got this idea from a very wonderful book~ Sorry if OOCness & grammar mistakes.

Disclaimer : I don't own BLEACH and some of the plot.

Full summary

Rukia fell in love with a guy at first sight but he is the most cold and ruthless person who treats her badly. He will use many ways to make her sick like leaving her out in the snow waiting for his arrival. He also crushed Rukia's last tiny wish. When everything Rukia held dear to has been taken away, he will disappear without a trace. When he appear once more, he will a different identity and no memories of his old identity. Is he the one that loves Rukia more than he loves himself? Do they really have to wait until they have disappear from each other's memories to be together or not?


Prologue

"Tick Tock…"

"Tick Tock… Tick Tock…"

It felt like someone wearing high heels walking on the marble floor. No, it is just the clock on my room's wall ticking. I rest my head on the table while wandering off my thoughts again. I took a deep breath, my heart is feeling a bit nervous about the tension.

"Hey, I love you…"

I heard the voice inside my head. Immediately, I shot my violet eyes open. There is no one in my room… Where exactly is that person talking?

"Who… who is talking?" I questioned.

"Rukia, I love you… You hear me?"

I shut my eyes again. My head keep on concentrating on the voice. The voice sounded a bit hoarse. It sounded like the person talked too much or it is like this due to tiredness. I don't know why, I seem to feel the warmness of his breath. I also feel the sadness inside that person's voice.

"Who… Who are you…?" I muttered.

I shot my violet eyes open once again. All I see is my room's wall and I'm still resting my head on my table. I shut my eyes again. I don't really understand why, this is the first time I heard that person's voice. But that voice makes me feel comfortable and safe. I feel like shutting my eyes to see that person's face.

I keep feeling that person is near me. I suddenly feel that warmness had disappeared. All I can hear now is the never changing tick tock sound. The air only has the cold taste of melted snow.

My heart is suddenly filled with a great sadness, it hurts so much. I don't know why I can't stand it. I can feel some tears rolling down my cheek. Then, I woke up.

I saw my Chappy printed curtains closing my view of the night sky while the wind is blowing in. I felt a bit cold. So I got up and close the window.

I've already forgotten how many times I've dream about this. Sometimes my I have many weird thoughts too. It happens to me while sitting in the bus or while in class. Once I wander off my thoughts, this so called dream of mine will always pop out from the corner of my mind. I feel like it is telling me to not forget this so called dream of mine.

It does not have a starting nor an ending. It is like a movie which started halfway. It is like I suddenly went in the cinema and left urgently without seeing the starting nor ending of the movie. All my mind remembers is a broken image.

I still even remember my 16th birthday, one guy said "I love you" to me. He said it 99 times. I have never seen his face. Maybe he appear in my dream before, but I don't remember anything. All I remember that is his voice sounded a bit hoarse. His voice sounded sad too, but still that voice of his make me feel safe and comfortable.

I don't know what this indicates but that kind of sadness even though it is just in my dream, I can really feel it. I suddenly have this feeling that this so called dream of mine will never be forgotten. It is always in my mind, when I almost forget about it, it will tell me...

"Hey, I'm still here, Midget?"

"Hey, I love you. Midget."

The nerve of that guy calling me 'midget'. My eyebrows twitched slightly. I open my Chappy printed curtains and look at the beautiful white moon in the night sky. The moonlight felt so cold to me.