Diary of Setsuna Sakurazaki.

Thursday, 25th of July.

Dear diary,

Is this right? I've never written a diary before. To be perfectly honest I didn't know such a thing existed in the first place. It feels a bit awkward writing in here like I'm writing to a person, but Ojousama said that that's the most common way of writing in your diary. Or journal. She told me that I can call it that instead if I think it's embarassing. Maybe I would have if she had given me a pink one but you're a leather book. Hah, it still feels weird to write like this. I'm however grateful towards her. It wasn't even a special occasion.

Today I arrived in Kyoto with Ojousama. Her father is hosting a huge event and he asked us to join him during the preparations. There's this annual cherry blossom event in Kyoto that has gotten a lot of attention the past few years because of this fundraising ball and this year he was chosen to host it. It's quite the honor. It doesn't surprise me though. The Konoe name is held very high in all of Japan and not just among those practicing witchcraft but also among the common population for raising money for e.g. sustainable land management and other environmental and conservation friendly ventures. He sure rubbed off on his daughter. Always so keen to help out and assist everyone.

We took a train ride very early this morning. I don't even think Asuna was back home from her paper route when we left. Luckily, we are on summer vacation so we won't miss any school work. After summer we begin our last year as seniors at Mahora. It's a bit melancholy to think that this is our last school summer vacation. Next year we are graduating students by this time around.

Since you're my personal diary I think I should at least be honest in here.

I'm having a hard time spending so much time alone with Ojousama. I don't have a problem with it when we're in school because there's so many people around us that it keeps me busy most of the time having to constantly be on the edge in case of an unexpected attack. But out here I have her under constant watch all the time. Without any bustling and noisy classmates. It's just us two. I'm blushing now and I shouldn't, I know.

Oh, it's already 7:04 pm I should get ready. We were asked to join her father for a welcoming dinner at 8 pm when we arrived. He's been out of the house the entire day and couldn't greet us when we first arrived this morning.

I will probably write more in you when I get back. You'll be placed under my pillow for now.


I'm back from dinner.

I had the hardest time concentrating tonight. I don't think I can remember most of what Eishun-sama said and it bothers me because I've never been so distracted before.

After I put you away securely under my pillow after my last entry I decided to walk straight to Ojousama's room to see if she was awake. Granted we were up really early to be able to get here so quickly today and so I wouldn't have been surprised had she decided to take a nap.
She wasn't asleep but when I knocked on the door there was no answer. I immediately, as her loyal bodyguard, decided it best to enter without permission in case of emergency. Asleep or not.

She came out from the bathroom all dressed and sent me one of her beaming smiles before asking me to help her with the dress. It was an elegant black tight fitted dress that she had bought a few weeks before. I remember that day very clearly for we had been out shopping the entire day and not managed to find anything that Ojousama liked. And I admit, I am a poor critic when accompanying her on these sort of trips. Everything she wore looked great on her. But when she stepped out of that dressing room, my heart almost stopped beating. She must have noticed the effect because she immediately followed through with a purchase.

So there she stood in front of the mirror in that black dress. Really, for Ojousama to wear something like that would make anyone feel underdressed. I myself was wearing what she always calls the traditional bodyguard outfit that I always wear when attending important dinners or other events that will have Ojousama dressed up like this. That sounds overly protective of me. But it is true. It is the most easy way to estimate the value of the event. The way Ojousama dresses. She's got a knack for looking her best always and it attracts unwanted attention at times. The dress still had that effect on me though.

I know I'm out of line for thinking this let alone writing it down but she truly is the most beautiful woman I've ever laid my eyes upon. She's matured so much over the last few years, I'm not sure she's realized it herself. Quite innocent still though. Which isn't bad at all believe me. I'm honestly surprised she hasn't found anyone yet. Hopefully it will be a while before she does. I want to.. Well I want to get used to the idea of her being with someone first. Because as soon as she has found... a man, of her choosing.. She will forget about me. And that's okay. I've known this since we were children but somehow I've managed to block that thought out for years. The reality that she won't be in my life forever.

It's a big day tomorrow. Ojousama is meeting with a big donor before the actual ball. Apparently he's got a daughter who might be joining us as well. I was really glad to hear that. At least I can rule out the possibility of an omiai.