Chapter 1


Drugs have never been something Jim has ever liked. There are three reasons.

1.) He's allergic to most drugs most doctors- sans Bones- give on everyday bases. Now when Jim looks back on his childhood he's glad Sam never took him to clinic (his mom wasn't there to take him to one and Frank had been the reason why he needed to go to one).

2.) Drugs mess with Jim's ability that Tommy had nicknamed "banshee power."

3.) The main reason is there's the fact he's not in complete control of himself. Being in control is something that's important to him. If he's in control he can take care of the people he loves. If he's in control - if he's the authority figure then authority will not be abused. No one would be killed much less shot whilst being an unarmed civilian. If he's in control he can beat the impossible scenario (and nothing is impossible if you're smart enough to find a way out). It's not arrogance that he thinks that. It's the truth. It's what he does. The Kelvin Incident, Tarsus IV, Nero, and Khan.

So yeah control is important to him.

Yes. Feel free to laugh.

Jim was known at the Academy as the cadet that woke up hungover every other day.

There's a difference to alcohol and drugs.…. wellleast there is for him anyway.

He can hold his alcohol. He can't hold the drugs that are in his system. So that is the reason Jim Kirk (Also known as James T. Kirk, JT, Captain, and t'hy'la to Spock and Ambassador Spock who both had yet to tell him what that word meant. A childish part of Jim thinks that Hoshi would tell him if she was still alive before his mood darkens. The memories - the guilt - of that day flashes before his eyes and God does Jim hate drugs.) has such a hatred for drugs.

Recent events furthering his dislikement of them. He wouldn't be in this situation if hadn't been drugs. He actually wouldn't have been in the situation of being drugged if he had listened to Spock, Bones, Uhura but he's not going to admit to that. This- the change in how Bones treated him when he can't avoid him - is punishment enough.


A/N: Crossposted on archiveofourown.

This was insipired by Sadieyuki's post:

(sequel to my previous post on this)
Jim: Bones, I think you should play the role of my mother.
Bones: I don't wanna be your mother.
Jim: That's perfect! You already know your lines.
Bones: ...
Jim: Okay fine, you can play the role of my brother.
Bones (fed up): I'm leaving.
Jim: Perfect! You're a natural.
Bones: Jim, I'm gonna kill you.
Jim: I appreciate your enthusiasm, but Kodos will not be in this production.