Disclaimer: I don't own Vampire Academy and I don't own 'How you love me now' the song belongs to Hey Monday. Oh yea, this takes place somewhere in Frostbite before the ski trip.

Rpov

I watched as I watched Dimitri through Lissa's head, snuggling with Tasha against the warm fire with something that only she could bring out of him, love. To believe he said he loved me. Looks like to me that he lied. Every single word was nothing and meant nothing.

You were talking to her, been messing with me

It's finally clear you're blurring the lines

All a lie. He never loved me. And never will. He probably just said that just because he was trying to be nice. He said it was because of our 'jobs' but now I see, that it wasn't. He cared for her, he doesn't want to leave her, he wants her, and I'm just a fling.

Are you disturbed?

Oh, now you care?

Why do you race through my headlights?

Why the heck am I still thinking about him! God, he's so frustrating! Get out of my head!

Can't understand? I'll slow it down for you

Tell me, how can you sleep?

How can you breathe?

Baby tell me now, how you love me now

I just can't believe that he's acting as if nothing happened between us. I just can't believe him.

Tell me, how can you sleep?

How can you breathe?

I hate how, how you love me now

But I still like him? No, I mentally slapped myself. You don't. Oh great, he's knocking on the door. I can just tell because he left Tasha the same time I got out of Lissa's head. I got up from the bed and answered the door.

"What now Comrade?" I said gruffly.

He looked taken back. "Just came to see how you're doing Rose." he said and let himself in. I closed the door when he stepped through the threshold. I turned around to face him. He had his arms across his chest and had the stoic look on his face. I tried doing that one-eye brow raising thing he does, and had some success.

"What do you want?" I asked feeling a little annoyed.

Save, save it for her,

I'm not gonna hear you reasons and 'please-just-take-me-backs'

We never right, you crash on your own tonight

"I need to tell you something," he said and looked at me in the eye. I snorted at him.

"Well make it fast." I said.

"Rose, I love you." He said. I rolled me eyes. Yeah right.

"But aren't you with Tasha." I said it more like a statement then a question.

"Will you at least hear me out?"

"No." I said. "Dimitri, I can't take it anymore."

Can't understand? I'll slow it down for you

Tell me how can you sleep? How can you breathe?

Tell me now, how you love me now

Tell me how can you sleep? How can you breathe?

I hate how, how you love me now

Dimitri didn't answer for a moment that responded. "She asked me to be her guardian. " He said with his stoic expression. Then he softened. "But I need to know how you feel."

I gaped at him. One side said : 'just go.' While the other said: 'no, stay.'

Lights out and I found out my falling star,

Goodbye, the sun rises and there is no more you

And I…

"Dimitri," I said after a long pause. "I love you too, but it hurts to much. I can't make you stay if you choose not to," I paused to open the door. "But you can leave."

How can you sleep? How can you breathe?

Baby tell me now, I hate when you say,

How you love me now, how you love me now,

How you love me now

He took his leave. I slammed the door behind him and tried to keep the tears from coming. But as long as he's happy, I'm happy.

Sorry if your confused.