Prolouge

I never really thought about how I would die, and even if I had I would've
never guessed it would be like this. But I guess being surrounded by all the
people you ever cared about in the world, well almost all of them I amended, is
a good way to go. I felt so guilty, leaving my brother and dad to fend for
themselves. I was the responsible one in the family, the one that took care of
everyone and everything. It's was practically criminal to leave them alone. At
least my brother had someone to depend on. He would know why this was
happening to me. I was more afraid for him than for myself.
I was also leaving behind three amazing friends and the love of my life. I
was scared for them as well, but I knew they were more capable of dealing with
it than anyone else. I laughed quietly to myself. No one had suspected that I
would truly take their secret to the grave, and now I was. I didn't know what
was going to happen to them when I was gone. My brother said I was the glue
that kept us all together, and now I wasn't going to be here. What would
become of my best friends when their glue was gone? Though they had all been
together long before I had arrived, I had a feeling that everything would
change soon. My life had changed at least one of their lives, and that life
would never be the same. The life of my love would never be the same. But I
had faith in him, and all of them. I had faith, a blind faith at that, that
for me they would stay together. They would comfort each other for me. Because
of me.

And as I lay there dying I couldn't help but be happy. How could I not? My
friends had stuck with me through all of this, and my love had been so strong.
They never showed how badly being around me while I was dying hurt them, just
as I never showed them how badly it hurt me. I was the luckiest girl in the
entire world, dying or not. I had everything I could ever need or want right
here at my bedside. I had all the people who had loved me enough to stay, even
though it nearly killed them all. Life certainly couldn't get better than
this, so it was fair that it never would.