If you could only see the way she loves me
Then maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about our love
And what I must do
If you could only see how blue her eyes can be when she says
When she says she loves me
Well you've got your reasons
And you've got your lies
Any you've got your manipulations
You cut me down to size
Say you know
But you don't
You think you love but you won't
If you could only see the way she loves me
Then maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about our love, and what I must do
If you could only see how blue her eyes can be when she says
When she says she loves me
See the road less traveled
Shows happiness unravel
And you got to take a little turn
To keep what you love
Oh this is what you gotta do
You say you love but you don't
You think you love but you wont
Stretching out your arms for something that's just not there
You say you know where you stand in your heart but you can't
If you could only see the way she loves me
Maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about our love
And what I must do
If you could only see how blue her eyes can be
When she says
When she says she loves me
You say you love but you don't
You think you love but you wont
Its in your eyes
You say you know where you stand in your heart but you can't
If you could only see the way she loves me
Maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about our love
And what I must do
If you could only see how blue her eyes can be
When she says
When she says she loves me
"If you could only see", by tonic.
Susanah. My querida. I want to stay with her, but I know its wrong. She deserves someone better. Someone alive. As much as I hate to say it, Slater's right. She should be with someone like him, someone who can give her everything. But at the same time I hate to think of Susannah being with anyone other than me. I am being selfish. I should let her go...
I went to Father Dominic early on Monday.
"I just don't know what I should do, Padre. I love her. I want to stay with her, but I know it's wrong."
"You're right, Jesse, its unnatural for you to stay with Susannah. But I cannot allow you to have yourself exorcised, either."
I was going to go to Slater that day, after I left the padre. Forgive me, Lord, but I cannot just stand by and watch Susannah go on and be with someone else. So, I said goodbye, and prepared myself to make a pact with the devil.
"So, Jesse, what can I do for you today? Broken nose, exorcision, send you back to your time?"
He was joking, but I guess the look on my face told him I wasn't. his tone changed, and he suddenly got very serious.
"What? You can't be serious! You want me to exorcise you, when you've just won Suze? Why?"
"First, I am serious. Second, Susannah is not something to be won. Thirdly, she deserves better than me. She deserves someone alive. Someone who can give her everything. Someone she can introduce to her family, someone she can flaunt."
"If you're completely sure that you want to do this, I'll help you. Firstly, I need to know. Do you want to be exorcised, or do you want to go back to 1850?"
Was he serious? Could I really go back home? See mi mama? My sisters? My father? Dios! But I would not be with Susannah. I would get to see my family, but I would never get to introduce my sisters to Susannah, she would never be mine. But I would always think of her. She would always on my mind.
"I'm positive, Slater."
"OK, but if Suze kills me, I'm coming after you."
And so, I met him later, at his house. And he said something that was probably ancient Egyptian. A portal opened, and I stepped through. When I reached the other side, I recognized where I was immediately. I was at Susannah's house, but its version in 1850. It was the day of my murder. I was going to have to watch my back, but I was alive. I took a deep breath, loving the sensation. If only mi querida was here. We could live happily ever after.
That night, I went to bed, but I had hidden a dagger under my pillow, ready for Diego. Later that night I heard my door open. It was Diego. As I lay there, waiting for him to strike, I thought of Susannah. I loved her so much. I missed her so much. I wished so hard that she could be here with me. I felt Diego's hands wrap around my neck. My eyes shot open, and I reached for my dagger. I got in a good swipe at him, before he drew out a gun. He pointed it at me, and I stood there, shocked. As I began to calm down, I resigned myself to death. I wasn't going to be with Susannah. What was the point? I stood there, and waited. But the shot never came. Time seemed to stop. The most beautiful woman stood before me. Beautiful brown hair, gorgeous green eyes. I knew this person... "Susannah?"
Random Mitch Hedburg moment of bliss:
I had a cheese grater once. But that's the good name for it. Its really a sponge ruiner. I used to have a sponge, but then I tried to clean it. And I ended up with little bits of sponge, that would melt easily over tortilla chips.
I like blackjack. But I'm not addicted to gambling, I'm addicted to sitting in a semi-circle.
