Track was my life. I ran and ran. It was who I am. I thought life had always been that simple but it never really was. My parents Carlisle and Esme thought I was bright student who had an amazing future ahead of me. College and all that was where I would be in five years. But to me the only thing ever on my mind was who I wanted to be with, in five years.
As I ran around the track I focused on what I wanted not what others wanted for me because the track was my escape, my shelter from the real world. I never realized how much I really wanted to be with him till that moment. I knew I liked him from the moment I saw him. I was in this mindset that-
"Edward, wait up man!" I skidded to a stop as my best friend Emmett ran up beside me.
"Hey what's up man?" I said putting my hands behind my head to catch my breath. Emmett and I had always been close. He was my brother after all. He was a lot bigger than me so u couldn't really tell but he was one of my triplets. The other one of us was our sister Alice.
"Hey man Bella and Alice are having a party tonight. We're all going I was just making sure you were gonna show up?" Bella and Alice had been together for a year now and I was pretty sure that Jasper would be there because Rose was going with Emmett.
"Sure I'll come but can u pick me at five from here? I got to stay after to train." I looked at him with my puppy dog eyes and knew I had him.
"God Edward you're such a girl." He shoved my shoulder as I smirked. "I'll pick you up."
He took off back towards his car and left me standing there. I laughed a little to myself before heading back around the track a couple more times. After about 10 more laps I stopped and sat down on the bench. I had about thirty minutes before we started training so I drifted off into my own thoughts.
I was awakened by someone throwing water on me. I shot up into a sitting position and wiped my face with my shirt before looking up at my couch.
"Cullen, don't waste my time. 5 laps and then 50 pushups for a warm up today." Shit my day was already bad now I have to deal with this.
I grunted a yes then took off around the track. I could feel my muscles protest but fought against it. As I was finishing up my last lap I ran to the center of the field. I dropped and began my pushups. When I reached forty-five I looked up to find couch talking to his daughter, Jessica Stanley. That's when I noticed the arm around her waist. When I followed it up to the body and face connected to it I felt my heart fall. Standing there holding her was Jasper Hale. I guess it was true when someone says heartbreak is a bitch. Because when I saw him smiling at her while she talked to her father I collapsed on the ground.
I'm not sure how long I laid there but soon I felt someone tap my shoulder.
"Cullen, why don't you head home? We will continue tomorrow." He stood from his position beside me and walked away. When I heard his car pull away I dropped to the ground and relaxed my breathing before hopping up and take off towards the showers.
As soon as I was stripped and under the hot water I felt all my muscles tense before relaxing. I let the water run through my hair and down my back before running my fingers through my hair. I was finishing up rinsing out the shampoo from my hair when I felt two strong arms grab my waist and push my against the shower wall.
"You hated it didn't you?" At first the voice scared me but then I smelt the honey surround my senses.
"Yes." That was all I could get out. I felt like my voice box was about to explode inside me.
"Why didn't you say so? Why did you lay down like it was nothing?"
"Go away Jasper. Please just leave me alone." I couldn't do this anymore. Be toyed with because he felt like it. It just wasn't who I am. "I can't do this anymore." I felt his arms fall from my side before I heard him walk away. When I finished my shower and cleaned my face, I went to wait for Emmett. He showed up with a big smile on his face like he couldn't wait to tell me something.
"What is it, Em?"
"She said yes Eddie. Rosie agreed to move in with me when we go to college." His smile lit up the car as I patter him on the back in congratulations. I really was happy for him.
"That's great man. I'm happy for you." I gave him a reassuring smile before looking out the window. I was happy for him but it hurt that I would never be this happy.
As we pulled up to the house I hopped out and ran up the stairs to my room. I through my dirty clothes in the hamper and plopped on my bed. The fact that my body frame was laying straight out made my muscles scream in relief. Before I knew it I was out like a light.
I felt someone running their fingers through my hair and turned over to look at him as he sat motionless on the side of my bed; his face covered itself in tears of pain.
"Please Edward. Just one more time. Make me feel whole and wanted one more time. Please!"
He collapsed into my arms and I rubbed his back in a comforting way.
"One more time Jasper." He pulled back and looked at me but before he could say anything I crashed my mouth to his. Our lips moved as though they knew this would be there last moment together.
I felt him whimper and open his mouth after I ran my tongue over his bottom lip. In that moment I realized something that would make this more painful than it already was. I loved him. His hair, his scent, his hands, his mind, I loved him and didn't want to let him go.
