Preface: Forget me

(Bella's PoV)

"Hi Edward!" I shouted and waved when I wasn't even near at him. Edward had left a letter in my desk early in the morning; he told me he wanted to meet me here – in our very own meadow. It was something very important, at least that's what he had told me.

I had run immediately to my car and started the engine. I drove faster than usual – still not the way he did – and suddenly I was in the beginning of the forest. The walking seemed to take me more time than it normally did, but finaly I was there.

He walked slower than he usually did to me, almost as slow as normal people do. There was something different about him this time, though I didn't realize what it was. He almost crushed me against his chest and when I was able to breathe again it was time for another surprise.

He leaned to me and I could feel his cold marble lips touching mine. The kiss seemed to last forever; it felt different than any other ever before had. He loosens his hold slowly and reluctantly and it was until then when I finally realized what has been so different about that kiss; it was full of sadness and grief. I was almost able to taste them. Suddenly I noticed his eyes all full of that same sadness.

"Edward, what's wrong?" I asked quietly. Whatever he was about to tell me, it would be something very serious, I could tell that.

The silence seemed to last forever. He just looked at me thinking how I'd react for his words. Then he started to speak:

"Bella" he pronounced my name clearly and slowly "Bella, I can't stay here anymore. I have to leave."

"You just came here" I said with a puzzled voice.

"No, Bella. That wasn't exactly what I meant. I mean I have to go away. I have to leave Forks."

I tried to realize what he – my angel – had just told me, but it was impossible.

"Edward, what are you talking about?

He looked at me sadness glowing in his topaz eyes brighter than ever before.

"I have to do it. It'll be best for both of us"

Now I saw what he was telling me.

"Why?" was all I could say.

"Bella, I want you to live a happy life" he informed and then finishing the sentence by telling me something that almost stopped my heart "A life without me."

A single tear dropped to my cheek.

"Trust me, Bella. It's much better this way."

I couldn't help it, the tears started to water my face. I shook quietly, thinking when my feet wouldn't be able to keep me away from the ground.

"You can't leave me, Edward, at least not like this. I love you!" I tried to say and wasn't sure if he had even heard me. Apparently he did.

"That's exactly why I should leave now. Soon it may be too late" he murmured smiling the most beautiful and saddest smile I'd ever seen.

My foot failed and I was lying in the wet ground – it had started to rain. I didn't feel it when I'd fallen. At the moment I wouldn't be able to feel anything. I sobbed quietly and my eyes were closed.

I don't know how much time it had passed when I finaly opened my eyes. He wasn't there. Edward was gone. He'd left Forks, he'd left me. There was no reason to live anymore. Edward was gone and my heart had gone with him, forever.