Chapter one : Vivid

Everything was dark now, it had seemed like days since I had seen my Edward. I was passed panicking, now I just wanted to wake up and see the faces of my family, hear the musical laughter from Edwards lips. I assumed I was asleep - which of course made absolutely no sense, as a vampire I didn't sleep - and so I fought to open my eyes, knowing that I needed too. I could just imagine the panic and pain that Edward would be in. I needed to wake up and I needed to do it now.

I thought back to my final memories before the blackness took over. I had just awoken from my three day transformation and had truly appreciated Edward with my new eyes. I had kissed him forcefully in front of his family but I didn't care, I needed him. And then there was nothing. This blackness. No doubt I have some wacky power that I need to get under control, it was the only option for what was happening to me.

I fought again against the ever growing darkness. WAKE UP. I yelled at myself as if that would help. Finally I could hear something other then nothing, there was a string of beeps, short but precise. I felt my eyes fluttering open then but I found all my thoughts centered on Edward. Where was he? Shouldn't he be talking to me by now? But there was nothing.

My eyes finally opened, the lights were too bright and I struggled to cope with the burn they left in my head. The room was void of anything but this bed and equipment. So that's where the beeping was coming from. I studied the room, blank white walls. A small painting of nothing in particular hung on the wall in front of me. Where was I? I looked down at my hands only know realizing for the first time that I wasn't wearing my wedding ring or Edward's mothers engagement ring. I started to panic. Had I lost them? He would be so hurt! As I panicked the beeping grew faster, I knew I was missing something obvious but I couldn't seem to focus on that now. I tried to move, but it hurt too much as if I was nothing more than stone itself.

I looked at my hand, it was no longer ice white and hard. I was still pale but how I had always been before the change. It suddenly hit me. The beeping was my heart beat. It was erratic now. Had Edward found a way to undo the change? Did he regret turning me? Or was I such a mess that I couldn't even keep the change? Did I revert back because of my bad luck?

Finally a small nurse came in, she looked to be late fifties easily, with her snow white hair pulled up into a bun.

"Calm down dear. Your safe. I'm calling the doctor now." Doctor? I was in a hospital?

"Carlisle?" I asked through my short rasp. My throat stung and I felt short of breath.

"Do you mean Dr Carlisle Cullen?" She asked intrigued. I nodded not wanting to hurt my throat anymore. Her expression turned sad then. "He hasn't worked here in five years my dear." Her words repeated and repeated in my head. Five years. What the hell happened?

"How old am I?" the panic was really starting to set in now. She walked to the end of my bed picking up the old grey folder that contained my information.

"Twenty five in three days." I felt my blood turn cold, my stomach turned and I wanted to scream. Twenty five? That made no sense, I was forever nineteen. The doctor walked in, I remembered this grey haired man as Dr Guandy.

"Isabella." His eyes flashed over to the nurse who looked just as shocked as he did.

"What's going on?" I asked, the burning was full on now. He studied my face again and again. "Why do you look so shocked?"

"We weren't expecting you to wake up. Do you remember what happened?" He asked in a serious clinical voice now. I wasn't sure if telling them about me being a vampire, with a vampire child and family was appropriate so instead I just shook a no. "Do you remember trying to kill yourself?"

"Kill myself? Wait, are you talking about cliff jumping?" It was the only thing that made sense. He nodded. "I wasn't trying to kill myself it was… fun. Beside why does that matter?" I had already explained all this to Jacob and Alice and even my dad.

"Isabella, when…"

"Bella" I corrected him. I hated Isabella.

"Bella, while you were in the water, it would seem you hit your head off the coral" I nodded still unsure of where this was going. "A young man, Jacob Black I believe" he said throwing the nurse a look to check the folder, she did and nodded at him to continue. "Well he pulled you from the water but after we tried to resuscitate you, it seemed your head injuries were too bad. You've been in a coma since." I felt my heart stop, thankfully so did that annoying beeping. He rushed to me, checking me and the machines until finally that noise came back. I felt like a zombie.

"What year is it?" I whispered.

"2011"

I turned my head away from him then, looking at the small painting. Was it all just a dream? Charlie, Charlie would surely know something.

"My dad?" I asked again, eager now to know the truth.

"Your father was injured in the line of duty two years ago Bella. We did all we could but it was just to extensive." The doctor spoke slowly as if he didn't want to upset me anymore.

Why didn't I remember this? Was he right? Maybe it had all been a dream. I felt a tear fall down my cheek, Charlie was really dead…

"Bella we have to do some tests, I will call in your fathers lawyer, from what I understand everything was left to you. I think he hoped one day you would wake up." I nodded again, at a loss for word. He turned and headed towards the door.

"Wait, have I had any visitors since I've been here?" I asked skeptically.

"Um, in the beginning, your school friends, your mother was here often. The boy that pulled you from the water came often as well." I nodded. He hadn't mentioned the Cullen's at all. Maybe they really didn't care.

That night and the next day seemed to drag on, while they ran test after test. It would seem I was in perfect condition to go home. Home? Did I even have one now? The lawyer had come to visit, Charlie had left everything to me, including a savings account he had set up for my college fund, when I finally woke up. I couldn't help but smile at that. He was so sure I would.

The doctor had phone Jacob on my request and Jacob promised to take me home as soon as he got here. I couldn't wait to see Jacob. I needed to know it wasn't all a dream, that somewhere in this mess, I was still me.

The door swung open and Jacob stood in the door way, slightly bent from his height. He stared at me, wide eyed. As if he didn't believe it was really me.

"Jacob?" He looked exactly the same as I remembered him. He took a step closer, shutting the door behind him.

"Bells?" He ran at me then and had me in a hug before I even realized. "I missed you" I heard between sobs. He pulled back and stared at me again. "How are you feeling?"

"I… I don't know… I'm so confused." I muttered, only know realizing my own sobs.

"I know Bells. It's been a long time. Did they tell you about Charlie?" he asked softly brushing my face. I nodded as a new round of tears started.

"Tell me its not true." I barely spoke, knowing it would only be a lie if he did. His expression had informed me of that.

"Bells… what has you so confused?" I explained my dream to him, missing out the fights we had and even the time he had forced his kiss on to me. He had nodded the whole way through.

"It felt so real Jacob…" I ended.

"I know Bells. But… it wasn't. We took down the red head about a month after this happened" he motioned to me in the bed. "I haven't crossed scents with any other vampire since."

Another round of tears, Edward and the other Cullen's really didn't care.

"In fairness, this hospital isn't even in Forks but I'm not picking up anything new here either."

His words caught me off guard.

"Where am I then?"

"Your in Seattle Grace. Charlie had you moved here about five years ago. He said that your current Doctor moved away."

Five years ago? Wasn't that when that nurse had said Carlisle worked here? And twenty five? I jumped off that cliff when I was eighteen. That was seven years.

"Did you ever meet this doctor?"

"No, I was injured for a long time Bells, I didn't make it up here often and the we were told to let you go but Charlie fought and fought." He was making excuses.

"Injured?" I asked trying to figure out what the heck I had missed. "Since when do you stay injured."

"If we're hurt bad enough. Victoria brought a new born army with her, we lost some of the pack." His words mumbled towards the end.

"What??? Who?" I could feel myself panicking again.

"Jared and Paul." I could read the hurt on his face. My own dropped, I hadn't particularly liked either but they were like his brothers.

"Oh" was my great response. There was silence for a long time before I finally had to ask. "How's Billy?" Jacob's mouth turned down.

"He passed away last summer." My breath caught. Had everyone passed away…

"Oh. How are you Jake?" I asked now reaching for his too warm hands.

"I'm getting better. Leah has helped so much." He was nodding constantly as he spoke.

"Leah Clearwater?" I asked surprised.

"Yeah, I sort of imprinted on her." His laugh was shaky. Jacob and Leah?

"Seriously?" He nodded and a big grin spread across his face.

"She's amazing Bells, when you get to know her. She's so caring and kind. I have kids." he continued but I was lost at the part of she's so kind. In my dream she had been vicious and cruel. Wait… kids?

"KIDS" I yelled not meaning to but it was all just too much to take in.

"Yep, two. One girl, one boy… twins" He smiled at me.

"But your not married?" I looked at his hand.

"Actually we are, I just cant afford to have the ring on if I have to phase suddenly. It was a small ceremony last April, we wanted to do it before Billy passed away."

"You knew?" I cut him off.

"Yeah, he had cancer so we were given the warning." His expression glum again.

"Oh Jake, I'm so sorry. I wish I could have been there for you."

"I know Bells." His hand tightened around mine.

"So tell me about these kids."

"Well there's Billy JR and Harriett. Harry passed away the same day you… well you know and so we called my little girl after him."

"Wait, I knew that? How did I know Harry passed away."

"The doctor told us you might be able to hear so we told you things. I guess it must have just played a part in that dream." He shrugged.

"I guess" I responded, wondering what else had been in my dream because of something I had been told.

"Your free to go" Dr Guandy said as he stuck his head around the door frame.

As we were about to walk out the doors, or rather Jacob walked as he pushed me in my wheelchair, I recognized the nurse from the day before.

"Wait." I yelled and she turned around. I motioned for her to come over and she did. "You said Carlisle hadn't worked here in five years right?" She nodded "Your sure about that?" She took a moment, she seemed to be calculating.

"Yes five years. He would sit in your room and read to you." I was frozen.

"Did any of his family come to see me?" I asked not knowing if I wanted the answer. She looked around her and over her shoulders before bending right down and whispering.

"Yes, they would come at strange times of the night, no one knew they were here. Especially the youngest boy. The amount of times I had to warn him that a doctor or another nurse was coming." She laughed. "Every morning, the older two would have to come and force him to go. I promised Carlisle I wouldn't inform anyone on this, but you dear, you meant a lot to them. I was surprised when they stopped coming."

"Why did they stop?"

"Bells we should go." Jacob interrupted.

"No Jake, I want to know." I looked back at the nurse.

"Charlie caught them and he started digging into there background. I caught him once using a laptop in your room. He was goggling vampires." I laughed a shaky breath.

"He always did have a crazy side." I added playfully. She laughed as well. "Thank you" I smiled at her.

"Take care and no more cliff jumping." she scolded before Jacob started pushing me towards the car again.

All that information was flying around my head. They had all been here, they had come and were forced away by Charlie's suspicions.

The entire ride home I was quiet, I was trying to sort out my feelings. They all seemed jumbled. I had missed so much and yet I wanted nothing more than to return to my happy dream where I was with Edward.

I noticed the car stop and we were suddenly outside Charlie's house. Oh I guess it was my house now. It looked spooky and old, obvious no one had lived there for some time. Jacob helped me out the car without another word knowing that my mind was somewhere else.

After opening the door, he helped me towards the sofa while he picked up all the mail and put it on the counter. "Sorry Bells, haven't been over here since Charlie. I couldn't bear it."

"I understand" I said as I continued to look around. It was the same, needed a good clean but it was the same house. Jacobs phone rang and he pulled it from the small pocket in his jeans.

"Hey" I could hear a panicked voice in the background followed by Jacobs groan. "I'm on my way." he hung up and looked down at me. "I have to go. Apparently your bad luck has brought a vampire with it." He laughed obviously trying to be funny. I laughed as well, more to sooth him. "Are you going to be alright here." I nodded and ushered him towards the door. I was still a little sore but apart from that I felt fine.


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