This is a story about toad. yeah. its told from told pov. Song lyrics are italicized.
I
close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
The day my
parents got a divorce everything went bad. Nothing was the same. I just didn't
understand .why did they want to leave. Before they fighting and before the
yelling. When I was little everything was fine. There was no sad things in my
life everything was perfect. I wish it were like that now.
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again
"Shut up"
"Make me"
"I wish you were dead"
The voice of my parents yelling was enough to drive me crazy. I put my pillow over my head and cried. If only they knew how much there fighting hurt me. I wish they would stop and think
'Crash'
'Bang'
'Smash'
The sound of
things breaking and people yelling fill the entire house. If they keep this up
by the end of the week there might not be anything left to break or yell about.
Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry
Then it's quite for a few minutes before the yelling starts up again "look at this mess! Clean it up now"
"No it your fault why don't you clean"
"Why don't you make me"?!
More yelling more
mess more things being shattered. Maybe someday both of my parents will stop
fighting over nothing and hug me and tell me they love me. Just maybe is I hope
and dream enough thing will get better .My mom comes in. I see tears in her
eyes and I can tell she been crying. "Todd honey, I know things have been different."
she smiles at me" but I promise things will get better" "I promise" and with
that she turns out my light and shuts the door.
Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday
I close my eyes
and can't wait to start dreaming. When I dream everything is ok and nothing is
sad. There is no yelling and fighting just a lot of love and angels. I smile
and wish my life could be like my dreams.
Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now
At school only my
friends know about the fighting. When the come they my house and see all the
broken stuff they ask what's going on. Lucky for me I am a good actor. I just
smile and say everything fine its no big deal and they believe me. I don't want
to tell any one what's really happening. Maybe if I just ignore it, the bad
things will go anyway.
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday
When I got home
that day my mom looked really sad. She had been crying again but she was
smiling. "Oh Todd your home" She said to me "Todd honey, your dad and I are
getting a divorce" a divorce what was that. She could probably see the confused
look on my face." it mean your dad is moving away and we wont be together any more.
Thing are going to be wonderful now honey. I promise, no more fighting or
anything anymore" how is dad going away wonderful! "No I don't believe you" I
yell at her and run to my room. Everything is so messed up now I just don't
understand.
Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
No
No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
No
No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
"how did
he take it" I hear my dad ask
"I don't know"
"Well why don't you go ask him?"
"Fine I will". I hear my mom walking down the hall. "Todd honey can I come in"
"Sure" I reply
"Honey I know you might not understand why we are getting divorced, but its just that we have grown apart, we don't love each other like we used to, But Todd we both love you very much and nothing will ever change that" then she leaves. Everything is messed up no wand I know nothing will ever be wonderful again.
I
don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I
don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
It has been 2 months since the divorce ad already my mom is dating someone. He tires to be nice to me but he wont be my dad. No he will never replace my dad. I want everything to be like it was before the divorce. My mom says things are ok and can only get better but I don't believe her. Nothing can get better. never.
Some days I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now...
So now I am running,
I don't even know where I am going, I am just running. Running away for all the
things I hate, trying to run away form my life. But I know I will have to go
back. Maybe I will Maybe I wont. all I know now is that I am running. Wishing
things were wonderful.
I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
