Alright so this is the morning of the wedding from Edwards point of view. This is my first attempt at fan fiction so I hope I do good enough to please you all. There will be some Dark Edward in this Fan fiction and a submissive Bella, but also a fiery Bella. Range of emotions and dramatics.
EPOV
So today is the day, the day i will finally be married to my one true, my love, my life, my Bella. i grow more
impatient with every minute that passes by, Why did i agree to this? Damn that pixie for keeping my bride to be away from me. Damn Esmé for agreeing so I had no choice upon the matter, well.. maybe not damn Esmé, she is my mother after all.
If I want to be with my fiancé the night before my wedding I shall and no one will keep me from
her! Why does everyone seem so intent on prodding their noses into my business with MY wife-to be. Here I stand
pacing over the carcass of my last kill, when i could be wrapped in Bella's warm arms, kissing away my problems
into those luscious full lips, being cacooned in the warmth of HER and feeling the beautiful heat of her blush
against my palm.
Ah, my lovely Fiance. I cannot wait for the wedding to be over with so I can take her away from
everyone and we will spend the next 3 months honeymooning all alone on Isle Esmé, an Island given as a gift to me- to us, by Esmé and Carlisle that sits just off the coast of Rio de Janeiro. But of course Bella knows nothing of this.
I wanted it to be a surprise for her, I can't wait to see her beautiful brown pools of light shine with joy when
she see's what I, her husband have arranged to make her honeymoon as perfect as can be.
Draining another doe brings me back from my thoughts and by the end of the kill I'm bored and full. I shove the carcass away from me and wipe my mouth with the back of my hand, looking around me and listening to my surroundings proves that nothing has changed since I came out here to hunt.
No dangers and no dreadful pixie's returning my fiancé to me.
Damn. I sigh and run back to the house at a steady rate, and as the large white house comes into view so do
the thoughts of my family come into my hearing range. They are all about the wedding,
though they are all worrying about different things, Esmé the flower arrangements and the weather, Carlisle is
worrying about my control for the night after. I move on swiftly from his thoughts, Jasper is thinking about Bella and Alice. Hoping Alice doesn't go too hard on Bella tonight because she felt awful nervous when he left her.
These thoughts didn't concern me, i knew of Bella's reservations about the wedding. I knew of her dislike of the
idea of marriage and matrimony. I also knew she had accepted it all, she was more likely to be nervous about what Alice had planned for her. I run straight into the living room and sit with Emmett and Jasper. Rosalie is in the garage and i can hear her usual thoughts - of herself mainly. Both of my brothers look up and acknowledge me in their minds.
Hey Edward.
Hi Eddie-boy.
God I hate that nickname. Tis one that Emmett has come up with for me,
and he won't let the damn things slide. He's been at it months now. It's irritating, my name is Edward. Not Ed.
Or Eddie. Or even E. EDWARD! I nod at Jasper and growl a little at Emmett causing him to laugh and clap me on the shoulder with his huge granite hand. Then the inevitable started. I had braced myself for this all day,
whilst on my private hunt.
"So Ed.." Emmett starts, rather pathetically.
"Yes, Emmett?" I grumble while staring at the football game on the flat screen that they were watching when i
came in.
"Tonight is the night" He wiggles his eyebrows at me. I sigh heavily and nod.
"I'm aware of that Emmett" I try to keep my voice low.
"So, which position you going to try first?" He cackled at the top of his lungs not a second before i get the
chance to pounce at him his laugh is cut short by a sharp crack on the back of his head. Rosalie.
"Shut up Emmett."
"Rose! What the hell was that for?" He grumbles, rubbing the back of his skull as if she had hurt him. She narrows her eyes and raises her hand again and Emmett cowers and apologizes. Rosalie smirks and walks away back to her garage warning Emmett again with her eyes. I sit and laugh at him bluntly, I don't care if it's not nice he just got OWNED by his wife. I clutch my sides as the laughs turns to full on cackling. Pausing only for a second to look at a rather disgruntled Emmett and make the noise of a whip hitting the ground while miming it at him. His eyebrow twitches and I laugh more.
"You trying to say I'm whipped?"
"I know that you are whipped" I cackle some more, oh it's good to laugh this much.
"I am NOT whipped!" He actually growls at me. I pause a little in my laughter to cock an eyebrow of my own at him.
"Shall we go talk to Rose about this?" I smirk and stand from my chair threateningly.
"NO!NO PLEASE! I - I mean no come on man sit down and watch the game already. heh eh.." He settles back into his chair. I snort and walk away up the stairs to my room. Closing the door on the third floor reveals to my glass wall and the astounding view that would be all the more spectacular if my wife-to be was here with me. The sun is only just coming up over Washington and it's going to be a beautiful day, already i can tell. The normally stagnant grey skies are tainted with slopes of red-orange and yellow. The colors seeming to weave together throughout the great expanse of color.
I wonder again where my Bella is, what she is doing. Alice woke her early hours this
morning and pulled her out of the house. The whole time reciting in her head The Flower duet by Lakme; I rather enjoyed hearing the tune in her little pixie head voice, it was magical. But that didn't make it any less
irritating. She was hiding her thoughts from me, so i had no clue of where she was taking my heart, my Bella.
I have immense trust in Alice.. that is obvious. I wouldn't let the other half of my soul be pulled away by
just anyone. She asked me to trust her. That was the one thought in her head aside from Flower
Duet. "Trust me on this!" her enthusiastic little head voice prodded. So I did. I wasn't allowed to see her after
that. That was at about 3 o'clock in the morning. She was sleeping for heaven's sake! I tried to tell Alice to get
gone. But she didn't listen, she just strode round me through the door and took her. It is now approximately 5
o'clock in the morning, maybe later. I took this as an opportunity however to go hunting. I am rather full, and I
will be going again soon with my brothers and my father. The wedding will be starting at 4 o'clock this afternoon and we will have to be here an hour before it starts. That's ten hours of hunting with my fellow menfolk. I make a mental note to ask my father some important questions for tonight.
Sigh. Tonight, that i am fearing, yet burning with anticipation for. The night when i will have my lovely Bella
in the purest of ways possible for a man to have a woman. She is giving me this gift, her soul, my soul, and - and her body... she will give them all to me willingly, and she doesn't know what that does to me. Oh I have thought about this night too many times to remember.. thought about her.. and what I would do to her. I shudder and turn around to play some music to distract me from my thoughts. It is my wedding day.. I shouldn't think of Bella that way. Not today, well.. not until tonight.
But my treacherous mind runs free with its vivid imagination. Bella's skin.. her blush.. all the way down to..
to.. i can't even think of it how the hell am I going to fare tonight when I am seeing.. touching..
Tasting.
A wild voice whispers from the back of my head. I freeze and my eyes widen. taste.. A groan rips from my
throat and I have no time to stop it, loud and clear it rings over the music and I'm sure my family heard it..
damn it.
I hit myself in the head with the palm of my hand. How could I be so naive and un-imaginative as to not think of
TASTING her. The wild whispering voice chuckles darkly at his win. And then I think.. that is my monster speaking. He is thinking about tasting her blood... I gasp angrily and scowl down at the floor. How could any part of me think that about my Bella?
But then the wild voice chuckles louder and I am pushed straight to my ass - landing on the leather couch as I am bombarded with mental images of Bella laid out bare for me her thighs wide open inviting me to her dripping core running mercilessly for me, only for me. mine. MINE- another, louder, groan rips through my chest and I am taken completely off guard.I try to get my thoughts back in order. I can't be thinking like this. This is my angel, my Bella. How could I? I hit myself in the head again, but with my fist this time; growling viciously.
Tasting Bella, tasting the essence that tortures me every night and day when things go too far either in her
dreams or when we are kissing, holding each other. The scent that drives me wild every time it hits me in the face.
I have never thought of that possibility before.. but now i think about it the more appealing it becomes.. my
Bella, would willingly give herself to me, and no doubt she would be willing for me to do anything to pleasure her the way she has craved for months. But thinking of her in such a pose is disrespectful to my love. I shake
my head, no matter how much the idea appeals to me I would never degrade my Bella in such a way. She deserves far better than the sordid desires of a slobbering teenage boy. She wouldn't want that. would she? NO! she wouldn't. Not at all. she is a divine innocent creature that needs to be worshiped not sullied. Adored, not tarnished. That is what I need to keep in mind tonight.
I shall push all my desires and wants to the farthest corner of my mind and focus on giving her the attention
she deserves after months of waiting. She deserves what a man, a husband can give
to his woman, his wife. And I will give her everything. A century of hearing the thoughts of every person within a ten-mile radius of me has made research into this particular area very easy. I didn't listen for long, just picked
up little bits. From the minds of the nicest women around, the most decent, not in league of my Bella, but they
would do. Just what they liked, what they wanted from their lover, attention, love, slow gentle and soft kisses,
thrusts. Soft words and nothing too drastic. Safe. The vampire Edward inside my brain paces impatiently at
the idea of all of this, but the real Edward, me, cannot wait to give Bella all the attention and pleasure she
deserves.
The wild and now angry voice growls defiantly.
Shut up.
I tell him.
This is nothing to do with you. You will be thoroughly locked away during this special time with Bella that is to come. I cannot let you out in fear that you will harm my love.
She is mine as well and I will do a better job at pleasing her than you ever could, let me out!
The voice whisper-shouts viciously at me. I am remotely scared. She is not his.. she is mine. I will do my best to please her. She wants me not him. I remember that I am speaking of myself here and sigh. Can we not just get along? I ask the other side of myself imploringly. To be cut off with a roar:
NO I WILL NOT SHARE HER WITH YOU. She is mine to drink and devour and fuck until there is nothing left!
I growl louder than all the times before and try to retreat from my thoughts. I don't want to hear this! I try to
listen to anything the sound of the pianists fingers hitting the notes on this track, the thoughts of my family,
Carlisle and Esmé are worrying about me, and Emmett, Rosalie and Jasper are amused because they think
I am jacking off - wait a second!
"NO I'M NOT! I'M WARING WITH MY THOUGHTS!" I shout knowing they would hear me. All three of them laughed loudly and I grunted. There he goes again - Emmet's thoughts. GRRRR. I need Bella. It has been too long without her. I need to feel her in my arms, see her beautiful deep brown doe eyes. Stroke her beautiful alabaster cheeks and see her blush rise.
All the way down the front of her shirt.
The voice murmurs. I will have to control myself from now on from growling aloud at myself, it may seem strange. And it seems the Voice isn't going to let up. I will just have to ignore it.
Fuck you, I'm here to stay buddy. You can't ignore me.
Shit! How is this going to work? I can't have him here when I am finally making love to Bella, he will drive me
crazy, my love will think it is of her fault, she will cry. No! She will not cry, I will do anything in my power
to make sure she doesn't cry. I would rip myself apart just to see her smile. Though I doubt that would make her smile.
Suddenly the sound of giggles and car wheels enters my brain, I freeze and listen intently only to be rewarded by the gods as the lilting sound of my Bella's giggle floats toward the house. She never giggles for me.. only ever with Alice. Humph. Never mind. She will giggle for me at one point. I rush down the stairs and toward the front of the house causing my brothers to roll their eyes at me, I flip them off when Esmé turns around to go to the kitchen and carry on out the door. Alice finally pulls up at the front of the house. And I am instantly by the side of the car opening the door and lifting Bella into my arms. She grins at me a beautiful beaming smile and I lean into her scent, captivated. She turns her head to me and cocks an eyebrow in question and I press my lips against her temple everso lightly, and smile.
"I missed you, love" I whisper into her ear while caressing her cheek, I feel the rising heat before I see it.
Her beautiful alabaster cheeks burn like rose petals. I smile triumphantly. I love-making her blush, it's my proof
that I have an effect on my little girl. My Bella. I could bring these reactions from her and I loved how powerful
it made me feel, like I had just achieved the greatest feat the world had ever known and I was proud of that.
She leans into me and kisses my jaw so I decide to stop teasing her and kiss her, i lean my head down slowly and breathe on her face, "dazzling" her as she puts it. Her eyes glaze over - love and want and I finally grant her my lips, grasping her waist tightly with one hand and her neck with the other and pull her to me, she wraps her arms round my neck and puts on in my hair and we kiss passionately. I had missed her so much, I could tell that she had missed me to, we poured it into this kiss and then I belatedly realized that Alice was still stood next to us watching me clutch my fiancé to me like the horny teenager I am. She eyes me and clears her throat to grasp our attention further. We both separate and Bella lights up, her face flushing furiously as she too realized Alice was still here and saw us at our most passionate. I chuckle and nod at Alice, she nods back and goes inside. Jeez, she's always so submissive. Always awaiting order. Waiting for if I needed her for anything else. Jasper had raised her that way though I suppose. To be utterly submissive in EVERY way. I shook the memories out of my head at thoughts and situations I would have rather not seen between dominant Jasper and his pixie slave.
hmph.
It made me a little embarrassed to admit I was a sort of Dominant.. on the inside. I was waiting for my moment, if it sat okay with Bella I would raise her to be utterly submissive to me and no
other. hmm.. i couldn't wait for those days. But for now, i would tone it down. I would be ever so gentle but
thorough with her.. with my Bella's lovely body.. mm. I felt my eyes glazing over.
"I missed you too." She breaks my reverie completely. Kissing my cheek and smiling then staring into my eyes. I smile and I hope it was a bright one but she blushes brightly so I imagine I was probably showing my intentions through my eyes and facial expression. Dark. I look away and think of what to say.
"I hope Alice didn't torture you too much my love, I warned her to go easy.." I looked imploringly into her eyes
looking for signs of discomfort, but she looked at ease, smiling easily and relaxed in her stance.
"I'm perfectly fine, Edward. Quite happy actually. We are getting married today." She replied. Lovely..
my wife.. hmm my wife to be. Mine, all mine. All of her. All for me and only me.. mm yes. That'll do nicely..
I realized I was staring at her body and then looked up and took her hand leading her into the house.
"I know love, and I couldn't be happier. Though I will have to leave you now. I am going hunting with my brothers and my father before the wedding.. Alice has demanded I not see you.." My voice strained toward the end. I wanted to be with her so much it hurt. I kissed her forehead again, I wanted to kiss her longer, harder.
All over.
The voice whispered and groaned like an animal lusting after a piece of meat.
I froze and Bella shot her eyes straight to my face to see when was wrong. I looked at her for one moment and I thought I was going to lose it and take her. I wanted to.. oh how I wanted to just nestle myself into her warm body.. warm and alive.. and beautiful. I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and reminded myself of all things Bella to bring me back from the brink, I thought of her scent and inhaled it, I thought of her smile,
her blush, holding her lovely little hands in mine. ah.. my little girl. I opened my eyes again to the concerned eyes of my love, Bella, with both her hands either side of my face looking at me and wondering what she could do. I felt my mouth twitch into a half-smile at her. She is so adorable, always trying to help me somehow. She smiled then, brightly, and I was myself again, with my Bella.
She is my balm, my remedy. I wrap my arms tighter around her and kiss her, molding my hard lips against her full plump lips that are pleasently pliant underneath mine.
I only had a few minutes more with her before Alice pulled her away again, I could see in her thoughts she was going to come and interrupt us very soon. This would be the last time I see her until she is walking down that Aisle. I can't wait to see her, and take her as my bride. I smiled against her lips and laughed joyfully, she is mine, she will be mine. Nothing can or will stop this from happening. Then I pulled her body to mine and kissed her deeply, tipping her head back and pushing her to me by the small of her back, our hips pushed together and her breasts pushed against my chest, I groaned at the sensation and she whimpered. I instantly felt a pang down below and I could feel an erection forming. Then a sickly little idea popped into my head, I pulled her closer, putting one of my legs between her and ground into her slightly with my hips, my erection propped up instantly and I could feel it rubbing against her stomach, I was sure to any outsider looking in I would look like a horny little lap dog humping its owners leg, but I couldn't care less. If I was going to do this, then I would give her an idea for later, something to keep her thinking. And she certainly enjoyed it.
She moaned loudly and swung her arms around my neck, running one hand into my hair and clutching and the other pulling me to her at the waist. She was blushing a bright crimson and I chuckled, and kissed her a few more times before pulling away. She whimpered at the loss but I smirked at her and shook my finger.
"I bid thee farewell my sweet Bella, until the hour strikes when we shall be wed you shall be the focus of my
every thought. I very much look forward to when we are finally man and wife, my Isabella." I say in a soft silky
voice that melts her like butter. I love being able to make her like this. I could smell her arousal brewing and
I knew I should stop before my brothers or Alice or even worse my PARENTS notice and say something. I kissed her forehead, then her hand, peppering kisses all the way to her engagement ring. I smile and pull away from her now, leading her into the house. Alice was instantly there and took a hold of my soul, my heart, and lead it away from me. If she wanted to, that pixie could ruin my world with her potions and witch craft. Bella waved at me and smiled sadly that we would be parted for so long. I waved and looked her deeply in the eyes to try to express my sorrow also, but my excitement at marrying her finally, finally getting my wife!
"I'll see you at the altar" I say before they are out of ear-shot.
"I'll be the one in white" She smiles and turns away with Alice, and I chuckle at how nonchalant she made herself sound, as if she wasn't dreading the ordeal. She will be perfect tomorrow, I know it. I turn away so that I don't have to watch her walk away from me any more and I sit on the step in front of the house.
My brothers are instantly by my side, Emmett to the right, Jasper to the left. I sigh and they both clap me on
the shoulder.
"It'll be fine bro, just wait, soon you'll be able to bone her!" Emmett said enthusiastically. I growled at him.
I didn't want him thinking about even me boning my Bella, I didn't want him to think about it at all.
"Stop it Emmett! Stop thinking about her like that! SHE IS MINE!"I roared into Emmett's face and he froze in
shock.
"What the hell are you saying, that I'd go after Bella?" Emmet scoffed and chuckled.
"I'm saying that I don't want you thinking about my Bella and anything sexual at all at the same time. She is my
woman, my wife, and only I can think about her like that DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!" Still roaring, I stand toward the end of my speech. Emmet's face is blank as he stares at me. In his thoughts he is submissive to me, admitting he wouldn't want anyone thinking about Rose like that either. He smiles at me and claps my shoulder again.
"No problem bro. I get it, your woman, your territory, you own her that kinda stuff. I get it. chill"
I calm a little and turn to jasper who is staring at me like he is scared. I quirk an eyebrow and instantly I am
met with a large wash of burning rage then it's gone again. I scowl at him in question, is he trying to make me
and Emmett fight? no.. he isn't he was showing me.. Showing me what he felt.
"That is what came across to me only stronger Edward, when you started shouting. You are going to need to learn to control that" They both stared at me incredulously and I wondered what had come over me. Then I remember my voice.
Muaha.
muahahah,
muahahahaha
I told you boy, you have no control over me!
I just want to keep the essence of my life alive! I need her..
I need her more..
Once you take her she won't be her anymore. She'll be gone. I can't possibly let you take control -
PFFT! Hahahaha! Stupid foolish young and naive boy. You think I would destroy her? Oh no.. i would do so many things to her.. but I would not hurt her.. well maybe a bit. But she would beg for more.
He chuckles again and pushes filthy images into my head of my Bella in hundreds of sinfully seductive poses and things I could do to her, things he wanted to do. I shook my head and tried to concentrate.
"Can we go hunting please? I'm battling with myself here guys"
"Sure let's go. What do you wanna find first, a lion?"
"I want some panther." I boasted. I would have some. Panther was the best blood I had ever tasted, after my Bella's sweet nectar-y blood of course. and after Panther comes mountain Lion. Though I have gathered a thirst for Doe.. I don't know why.
"But first I will find some Doe." I reveal anti-climaticaly just as Emmet had started to get excited. Jasper shot
me a funny look and I shrugged and began to run. We easily came across a pack of deer. Selecting a group of four doe's I decided I would have them all. I would go crazy and drink and drink and drink. I pounced and as the deer spread apart i herded the does, into a spot they could not get out of, i grabbed each one and broke their spinal cord so they were paralyzed but still alive. Easiest and Kindest way to kill was to paralyze first. I dug in.
Alright guys what did you think? What about Edwards "voice" huh? He is one sex crazed maniac by the sounds of things. Or maybe Edward is pushing out his instinct and just needs to accept this part of himself and learn to channel it to our lady Bella, because we all know Bella wants some of that! Next chapter will be in Bella's point of view guys.
Thanks for coming;)
