A/N: English is not my mother tongue, so I apologize for any grammar and spelling mistakes.
This story takes place before the King and Queen of Arendelle died.
disclaimer: I don't own Frozen.
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Chapter 1
Why? Why am I even alive? Elsa thought. After so many years of isolation she had asked herself that countless of times. Anna wasn't talking to her anymore and her parents didn't care. They only thought of her as a replacement. She was all alone.
Tears trickled down Elsa's face, falling down to the floor and completely freezing it. She didn't know why she was crying. A part of her was hurting, while the other part was numb. Empty.
For some reason she wanted to feel pain. Liking the idea of hurting Elsa grabbed her left arm with her right hand and dug her nails into the flesh.
I need this. I deserve this. I am a monster after all. This is my punishment. I keep hurting people. Again and again.
Blood started running down her arm. Elsa winced in pain as her nails broke through the skin, but smiled in pleasure at the same time. Happy that she has accomplished something. Her face turned to the right and she froze at the sight of her reflection in the mirror. Why had she been smiling like that? No! This is wrong! Elsa turned away from the mirror and looked at her arm again. There were blood trails running down her arm. The bleeding had already stopped since she didn't go that deep, but Elsa stood up otherwise and headed to the bathroom. She cleaned her arm and patched up the wounds so they would heal faster.
Back in her bedroom Elsa let herself fall onto the bed. Why am I still feeling this way? Elsa clutched her covers. She shut her eyes as her body shook. Why am I feeling so helpless? I want it to stop. Why can't it stop? Elsa opened her mouth and tried to breath. She felt like she wasn't getting enough oxygen into her lungs. Why am I still in pain? Elsa hadn't noticed that she was crying, staining her pillow. And so it was another night of crying herself to sleep.
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Okay, this was a very, very short chapter. I don't know why, but I just wanted to write something like this. I'm not sure where this is going, but I'll definitely write a second chapter.
