Misery Loves Company - A Vampire Knight Fanfiction
Disclaimer: Don't own anyone or anything from Vampire Knight as made by Matsuri Hino.
Oh, and anything found in this story that is found in another person's fanfic that was posted up before mine, I give credit to them, whether I was aware of using it or not.
Rating: M, 'cause that's how I roll.
Story Warnings: rape, abuse, crazy shit, oh! bad words...um, probably some graphic stuff in terms of the first three warnings (if I can manage big, descriptive words for it), twincest ((guess who? Ichiru! -that rhymes!!)), and some lemon and lime when the romance comes in, typos and some brain-damage may occur on your part! :3
Author's Notes: Hi! It's me, again, bee-otches! (kidding. I appreciate all of you ) X3 Yeah, here's the new KanamexZero fanficcy. However, it has nothing to do with my other stories What Am I Doing? or it's sequel, Under Our Noses or any sequels later made for that series. In this one, Zero is a Level D vampire like he's supposed to be aaaand Nezumi probably won't pop up. (For those who don't know, Nezumi's a major character I made for the aforementioned stories of mine- I own him! ) Zero will be slight OOC to fit the part he's forced in for this and a bit depressed for more reasons than his vampirism.
Me: "Sorry Zero-kun."
Zero: "Don't talk to me." :angry:
Me: :pout:
It'll be mostly AU as usual and because I haven't read past Night 25, it'll be safe to say that Ichiru and any information reagarding Shizuka and him will be held in some places and marred terribly in others!
For once, I'll keep Yuuki un-bashed and holding Kaname and Zero's affections...
Yuuki: "Thank you...!"
Me: "Shut up." :slaps out cold: "It'll be better when I make Zero and Kaname reject you for each other, because that's what really happends in the end of VK...!!" :goes off sobbing, 'cause it's not true!:
Anyway, I hope you like it and all it's attempted "not just romance, but hardy, conflicted, substance" plotline. X3 isn't good at those
Chapter Warning: Some molestation, rape and Zero-beating. D: Poor Zero!!
Read and Review, please, but no flames... I'm scared of those. pout
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Chapter 1- Nothing
Zero kept his head down as he walked away from Cross Academy, following his reflection, it looked like. But no... that was his identical, younger twin brother Ichiru. He came every once and a while to pick him up from school and took him to his house a little while away. The corner of his mouth hitched up in a half-smirk. The notion of his brother coming to take him out of school for a day... sounds nice, right?
Ichiru glanced over his shoulder as they walked down the sidewalk that leads to the parking lot where his car awaited, now out of the school grounds, to look at his brother. Zero quickly schooled his expression, but not before Ichiru saw the smirk. Zero cursed himself in his mind...
"Zero. I see you find something amusing," Ichiru said pleasantly, turning back to watch where he was going.
"Not at all..." Zero muttered, clenching his fists at his side. Damn it...
They finally reached the small parking lot- silence had insued since Zero's stupid slip-up. Reaching the dark gray Mustang GT '08, Ichiru got into the driver's side and waited patiently for Zero to get in. And when the door closed behind Zero, no one moved. Except Zero's tense fists quivered slightly in his lap.
In the minutes that passed with Ichiru seemingly just staring at nothing out of the windshield, Zero's gears in his brain started to turn: Maybe he could do it now... The car wasn't even on yet and if he timed it right for once, he could escape...
"Are you thinking about trying to run again, Zero?" Ichiru's icy voice broke the silence.
Zero willed his fear from showing. "No."
"You remember what happened last time, don't you?" Ichiru pressed, turning to Zero slowly, making his older brother tremble more.
"Yes. I do," Zero confirmed. How could he forget? That day he really felt the power of Shizuka's blood in Ichiru's body... He thought he could use his vampirism and Kaname Kuran's blood in him to maybe force Ichiru away, so he could escape, but... well, it didn't work out so well and it seems because of his large gaps between his intake of Kaname's blood, Ichiru still proved stronger. Or maybe it was because when it came down to it, Ichiru was evil now and Zero could not bring himself to hurt his only remaining blood relative.
But it was his little brother for God's sake! The frail, sickly one who always came crawling into Zero's bed at night when he was scared or sick or just because. Just because Ichiru had loved his big brother so much and looked up to him... so why...?
Ichiru leaned over, placing his hand on one of Zero's clenched, shaking fists and used his other hand to grab Zero's chin gently, careful not to hurt his previously broken jaw if it hadn't healed completely- he had used an anti-vampire weapon that time...
He turned his brother's head to face him and said, "...I see your bruises and broken jaw have healed, Zero. Is it Kuran's blood or your own freakish vampirism?"
"I don't know," Zero replied flatly. Obediently.
"I see. Would you like me to break it again? Or shall we break something else on your beautiful body?"
Zero's eyebrows knitted slightly and he said quietly, fear creeping into his voice, "Ichiru... why are you like this...?"
An eerie grin crept onto Ichiru's face and he looked nothing like the soft anger of Zero, but his own frozen hatred. How could anyone think they looked alike...?
"It's because I love you, big brother," he whispered almost sarcastcially and leaned in to place a soft kiss on Zero's trembling lips. Tears pricked behind the older twin's eyes and he almost gasped in a sob before Ichiru's grip on his hand tightened threateningly.
"Kiss," he hissed, irritated, against Zero's lips.
And so Zero kissed back slowly and attempted to put some feel into it. Ichiru would know if he was faking it... but it was hard to kiss his own brother like this- especially when Ichiru put his tongue in like he was...! But if he had honestly wanted to love his brother like this- sexually- then he would not have minded because Zero only gave a damn about what a few people thought of him. The most being Yuuki, of course, and she would have supported him (but Zero would not have left her like that, he adored her more than life itself). However, he did not lust after his brother and yes, Ichiru raped and abused him. And Zero was afraid.
He knew it seemed like he would not just let Ichiru do this, but Ichiru could seriously hurt or kill Zero. Shizuka's pure vampire blood flowed in Ichiru which was bad enough, but he was also trained by her to be a worthy accomplice. So in addition to his freak power, he was skilled with his hands and his blades, and to top it, he was trained as a hunter just like Zero. In addition to being a hunter, Ichiru knew how to use anti-vampire charms and weapons against Zero, an ex-human. Zero was greatly disadvantaged, ever father, as he muffled his vampire abilities in his resentment (which, unfortunately did not mean the hunter weapons saw him as human), so yeah- Ichiru could basically destroy his brother, but he seemed to rather have him suffer to get his own pleasure from it.
The younger, but more powerful, of the two moved his hand that was on Zero's jaw around to lace his fingers in Zero's soft mop of silver hair, gripping softly. Zero moaned slightly, but not because he liked it. It was just so unbearable how dirty he was feeling with this not foreign, but disgusting-feeling tongue in his mouth. Ichiru always did this sort of thing- the rape was for Ichiru's home. Today, he felt a bit more brave and hoped to God that Ichiru was in a good mood. As he pulled away from Ichiru, who immediately looked amused, yet pissed that Zero would try this again, Zero pleaded with his eyes.
"I...Ichiru... please. Can I just go back to school today...?" he tried softly.
"Why?" Ichiru asked, stroking Zero's hair lovingly, but Zero knew how Ichiru only did this because he hated him, and that this was a better method of inwardly destroying Zero than actual fighting and injury. It got under his skin.
"I... I'm tired today and... my fingers still hurt..." he mumbled, averting his eyes from Ichiru's now glaring ones. Please let him be good to me today...
Last time Ichiru came to school to get Zero, much to his class' adoration (they just thought it was so sweet), he had taken him to his house, tied him up to the bedposts and broke each of Zero's fingers after his brutal rape session. But not his thumbs... those weren't fingers, Ichiru had said. And that's when he decided to beat the shit out of Zero until his jaw shattered.
Ichiru sat and ran his belittling gaze over Zero, who dared not look up from his lap where Ichiru's hand still held his. The pressure there increased, making Zero wince- his fingers really did hurt. And as if that was what Ichiru was thinking as well, he let him go and leaned back into seat. However... Ichiru was feeling a bit needy today.
"I don't know, Zero... I think I went easy on you last time. Too easy, " his cold, empty eyes slid back over to look at Zero who had turned to look out the window. "What do you think?"
Silence.
Suddenly, everything was a flurry of motion as Zero flung the door open and jumped out of the car running across the lot. He hadn't really expected Ichiru to listen- he never did, because he never cared. Ichiru, too, had moved at that moment, bolting out of his side. He knew Zero was planning to try escaping. In fact, he had a little surprise in his boot already.
Zero took off across towards where people would be- Ichiru wouldn't try anything where witnesses were. He looked over his shoulder and growled when he saw Ichiru running after him. They were actually kind of far from people right now, so if Ichiru caught him before he found someone... Zero shuddered at the thought.
There! Someone was jogging down the sidewalk- the only person in the already conspicuous-looking area. Zero counted his lucky stars as he willed himself to get closer. He was still too far to get the person to look his way and see an obviously escaping victim running madly away from his assaulter. Zero opened his mouth to yell for them, but a sharp, stabbing pain rang out from the swell of his calf, making him stumble. He did cry out, but a spilt second before the jogger turned, a hand clamped over his mouth and yanked him over into some shrubbery.
He'd been captured.
He glanced down at his leg to see a small dagger sticking out of his calf and he felt the blood spilling down his uniform-clad leg. He brought his widened eyes back up to Ichiru, who looked furious.
"All right, Ze-ro," he growled lowly, ripping out the weapon along with Zero's name, making Zero moan behind the hand at his mouth. He stuck the blade back into his boot and continued, "I really was considering letting you go back to school, unharmed, but you blew it. You really did. And I think I'll do you outside for a change. Right here."
Zero whimpered and his tears fell now, over Ichiru's hand, but he seemed unmoved. "By the way," he said, leaning in and removing his hand- "That was a silver dagger." They both knew what that meant as he bit down into Zero's lower lip, hard, making Zero groan in agony. When Ichiru moved away, licking the blood from his own lips, he watched the wound not heal and bleed down his chin and neck.
"Good thing I had a silver weapon, huh, Zero?"
Zero didn't even try to beg- it would only demean him more and he closed his eyes when he felt his shirt being untucked and his slacks undone- pulled away with his boxers. He knew how it went and even though he also knew that him not crying out or moaning meant Ichiru would only be rougher, he decided not to give Ichiru the satisfaction today.
So by the time Ichiru had readied himself and positioned Zero, the older Kiryuu was steeled. Well, as much as one could be for this sort of thing. Ichiru watched his brother's face with a sick fascination when he slammed into him with no preparation or lubricant of any sort. Zero's face contorted in pain, but he bit down on his already torn lip and did not make a sound other than the quick intake of air. Ichiru allowed himself a small noise of pleasure at the heat and walls around him before raising an eyebrow at Zero's silence.
"Oh. You're gonna do that..." he said. "Well. I guess you don't want me to stop any time soon," he paused to grin at the way Zero's eyes flew open when he understood what he meant. "When you beg," Ichiru pulled out and rammed back in, getting a gasp from Zero, "I'll stop."
Zero's eyes were wide now and he really didn't want to beg- he always pleaded! He hated it! And worse, it had never worked before and now Ichiru wants him to so that he'll hear it. Because, face it, people like Ichiru like being begged to. How... disgusting to use a roundabout approach to get Zero to beg when he refused, but ignore it other times when he would do it, hoping, praying that Ichiru would have mercy.
He wouldn't.
He squeezed his eyes back shut as Ichiru leaned over him, gripping his shoulders painfully and rocking himself harshly into Zero's screaming passage. Sometimes, he would stretch Zero a bit or use something to make it easier... but there was nothing this time and Zero's fingers dug into the dirt around them.
He couldn't.
Ichiru's breath came a bit quicker and Zero hoped that maybe he would come and get tired so that he wouldn't have to beg. However, in the back of his mind, he knew that Ichiru would only torture him in other ways until he groveled. Suddenly, Ichiru struck his prostate roughly, but the way the strangled groan came out told that it actually hurt more than it pleasured. It felt like someone had stabbed it, instead, ripping him in half slowly from the inside out.
"Aah!! Stop it, Ichi...Ichiru!! PLEASE!!"
He had to.
And guess what? Ichiru kept on raping him, pounding into Zero erractically, too wrapped up in the one-sided ecstacy to even care that he had lied. Not that he would have cared anyway. He only groaned back at Zero, moving up to claw at Zero's neck for seemingly no reason other than to hurt him, and it did, but Zero let out the cries now. He felt blood from his neck, by the tattoo, from his bitten lip, from the stab in his leg and trickling from his rear. He was covered in his own blood and was being raped.
Every week it was like this- sometimes every other day. It depended on when Ichiru would come and get him, swearing to maim Yuuki or Zero himself if he didn't come along. Somewhere in his mind, he figured that Ichiru might not be able to get to Yuuki; not with Kaname around, but Ichiru wasn't just a human and what's more, Yuuki was trying not to depend on Kaname and Zero so much, so all Ichiru had to do was pretend to be his older brother (he looked the part enough) and trick Yuuki into her own death or hospitalization. But if all Zero had to do was sacrifice his body to keep her safe then... it was fine.
That thought alone, kept him from yelling out his misery one more time with Ichiru's final cry as he came in Zero, making the tears inside sting from the heat and chemicals of the psycho above him.
"I swear, Zero... you just get better each time I see you," Ichiru panted, pulling out. Zero tried not to listen- this was the psychological abuse coming up...
"I always expect you to hate me next time I come around, but you only get tighter and hotter. I have to thank you for that."
"I... I don't want this, Ichiru..." Zero nearly whispered, even though he knew. HE KNEW that this was what Ichiru wanted.
"You don't? Really?" Ichiru said, pulling his pants and such back up, "I can't tell, honestly, what with all that moaning and crying out under me. Why don't you stop me?"
"I can't..."
"Why don't you run?"
"I try," Zero said, louder.
"You should tell someone."
"THEY WON'T BELIEVE ME IF I TELL THEM!! I KNOW THEY WON'T!!" Zero shouted, his throat protesting his continued strain. Ichiru raised his hand and slapped Zero so hard that he got another cut inside of his mouth from the lining of his mouth getting sliced from his teeth.
"You know why? It's because you are a nobody. Nothing. You fit in nowhere, Zero. You're not a vampire, and you are not a human. Who would believe such a misfit? A freak who lets himself get fucked by his little brother every week and likes it."
Zero let himself bite out a sob, he felt he deserved at least that.
"I don't like it, Ichiru...!" he said, sounding pathetic. He tried to get up and finally beat the snot out of Ichiru, but he couldn't move with the wounds, the pain in his chest from the hunger, the pain all over but as soon as he tried, Ichiru only puched him right in his left eye, keeping him flat on his back.
Ichiru 'tsk'ed a few times at the poor sight before getting up and leaving the little bushed area, telling Zero that he'd see him later. Zero lay there, feeling numb, now and staring up at the bright blue sky...
"I am nothing."
How dare the sky be so blue when he was down here, so red with blood?
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Author's Notes: Woooo! New Story!! Anyways, before I forget- someone ((you know who you are)) wanted What Am I Doing?/Under Our Noses to be IchiruxZero, but it was too far into KxZ for it. Even though this is rape, I'll deticate this in part to that person! X3 Look, if you want, I can do a quick PWP oneshot just for you IchiruxZero fans, if you ask. It is a nice pairing. covers Kaname's ears But don't tell Kaname-kun!!
This chappie came out pleasantly but unexpectedly long- to me anyway. And oh my God, I was so sad as I typed up poor Zero's sorrow. I know- he's weak-looking in here, so far, but don't worry! When he gets back to school, it's like the old Zero, if not a little distant.
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