Every one has left me

Every time I rely on them

What was I supposed to do?

Just sit around and wait for you?

You gave no indication that you could be mine.

Everyone who had my heart in their hands,

has brutally torn a piece of it away.

I was so scared you were going to do the same,

that I had to walk away. I had to run.

I tried to save myself ,

and all I do it hurt someone else.

But the worst part was that I hurt you,

but can you blame me really?

My mother left when I was 1,

My father said he didn't want me,

My grandparents wouldn't take me,

And my god-mother forgot about me.

When I became an adult,

I thought things would change.

But then my friends left me one by one,

they all found someone else to be with

someone who mattered more than me.

Girlfriends were even worse,

they said I love you, I want to be your forever,

but all forever was, was the length of time to find someone else.

So I ask again what was I supposed to do?

You knew what I wanted

You knew I wanted you

But you never said you would sacrifice to be with me

I knew that you would have to sacrifice

And if you were willing to do it

I would have stood by you every step

But you never said

I never knew for sure

So I tried to find my own happiness

And now I pay for it every day.

Because I lost my chance with you.