Gale moving away did make my decision to stay with Peeta easier. Well, of course it did, Peeta was my 'Star Crossed Lover' but I didn't come up with this name, this label, and I pretended to love him for so long, I don't know when it stopped feeling fake, or when I began to truly develop feelings for him, he became my rock; he was the only person to understand what I went through. No one else can even begin to comprehend what I've been through, and because of this, I believe I began to lean on him, he helped me to become a better person, the person I am today.

I love what he's done for me, I love the attention and affection he shows toward me but I don't I love him yet I selfishly say I do, because if I didn't at least try to love him, what does that say about me. I have to try, as my Father would say, 'you choose what you do in life'. But he's wrong, not completely but he forgot the one thing that defies all odds, love. Love isn't a choice, you don't have to try to love your soul mate, and I didn't have to try to love Gale.

Gale, the very name sends shudders down my spine, he's the person that killed Prim, but somehow I don't blame him, as I know Prim wouldn't. Prim will be happier with my father than she ever would be here, she's looking down on me, with nothing but pride of how much I have accomplished but also disappointment that I'm not with Gale; this may be crazy talk, but I know my sister. She was selfless, gave me a purpose in life and completely a sucker for romance. I wish she was here, I want a sister I can talk to about boy trouble, how pathetic that must sound, but it's true, no one deserves to not have a trusting female friend.

I can't choose to go with my heart without breaking Peeta's, that would be a selfish act, what if Gale has moved on...without me. I know he loved me, but I don't know if he loves me. What do I do, shall I go with my heart, and break Peeta's and potentially my own, or do I stay with my head, and stay with Peeta.