Author's note
-About the timing of the story: anything before 2011 means Sebastian is travelling to the past. In this first part you will see the date 2019, but it is a continuation of the 2000 one (this might not make sense now but I hope it does once you've read that). I will set the action in the future (after 2011) to give snippets on Kurt and Sebastian's life together and how they deal with Sebastian's condition. And why not, to write Kurtbastian for Kurtbastian's sake ;)
-I am not following the book/movie much. In this fic Kurt doesn't know when him and Sebastian are going to meet 'naturally' because I think it is more interesting that way. Also, I think it's more fitting if Sebastian's parents are like Clare's are in the books/movie and Kurt's are like Henry's, which leads us to the next note.
- In this part there are some references to Mrs. Hummel's illness. In later chapter there will be some to her death but I will try to use them only if they are relevant to the story and focus more on how it affects Kurt and Sebastian than the death itself. However, I will let you all know in case it is triggering for someone and wants to skip it.
- I think that's all. I hope you all enjoy and let me know what you think of it :D
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Year 2000
Kurt Hummel sat on his favorite chair once all of the things needed for his daily tea party were perfectly placed –following all of the protocol instructions on how to set the table for such occasions- and his guest had occupied her seat.
"Mommy, would you like some more milk? Or maybe a biscuit?" Kurt asked excitedly to the woman sitting right in front of him. Anyone would have made the connection even without the kid calling her his mother. Her eyes were a mix of grey, green and blue which seemed to have been created by a painter determined to make his perfect piece of art, carefully choosing the colors so they would be filled with joy and lighted up whenever her gaze met the form of her smiling child or husband.
She was about to reply, with the huge smile still decorating her beautiful and delicate features, when she began couching loudly. Her happy face turned into an expression that was hard to decipher, worry? Maybe sadness? However when she realized that Kurt was looking at her she tried to smile again.
"It's ok, sweetheart. Mommy is ok. I am just going to go inside the castle to look for King Burt, alright? I'll be back in no time, promise me that you will stay here"
The blue eyed boy nodded and kissed her mother back before she went inside the house, taking another look at him before disappearing to go look for her husband.
A 25 year old Sebastian Smythe had been contemplating the last part of the scene from behind the bushes, thankful for the fact that none of the Hummel's neighbors were around to see a naked man creeping through it –though admittedly he wasn't exactly creeping, but it would be hard to explain that he was just keeping an eye on the boy he loved who at the time happened to be six- .
His heart was breaking from what he had just witnessed. Judging from Kurt's age Mrs. Hummel had about two years left of life. She probably knew it and was willing to spend every second she could, sharing her time with her family and protecting her beloved son from all of the hurt that came with an illness like hers.
Well, it was time to entertain the little boy and introduce himself to him, for the first time of what would be many years to come.
"Hey, Kurt!" he called from his hiding place.
Kurt narrowed his eyes at that and looked around offended. "I don't know any Kurt! I am Prince Kurt!"
Sebastian chuckled; always the diva, he thought "Oh right, right I am so sorry, Prince Kurt, my most sincere apology to you, Majesty"
Kurt seemed pleased with the new answer and he decided he was starting to like the owner of the voice. "Who are you? And how did you find my castle?"
"I will tell you all about it, Prince. But you need to do me a favor first… Could you lend me one of your Royal blankets?"
"Why should I?"
"Because you want to know how I got here and it is the only way I am telling you" Sebastian said, hoping five year old Kurt's mind worked like his older self's.
"Hmm… Fine... BUT if it gets wrinkled or dirty or something like that I will introduce you to my very hungry pet dragon"
"Understood. Throw it over here, please your Majesty". Sebastian raised his hand so Kurt could see it. The kid hesitantly reached the blanket that was sitting on the grass and used all of his strength to send it in the direction of the raised hand.
Once it was around his body, covering his exposed skin he came out from where he had been hiding and smiled at Kurt.
His heart was racing, he knew things were going to work just fine, but explaining why he was there without giving too much away was hard.
"Ok, I will tell you now but you have to be quiet until I'm done, ok? I don't have a lot of time… before I go back to the future"
Kurt just looked at him with wide eyes and then started laughing very loudly.
"Shhh, you don't want your parents coming out here now" he said, because as much as he loved the sound of Kurt's laugh the last thing he needed was Burt coming out with his shotgun in hand.
"But you are so funny! You can't be from the future because it has not happened yet, that is why it is called future, duh!" he said, laughing again though slightly lower.
"I know it sounds weird but soon enough you will see I really am from the future. In a matter of minutes you will see me disappear but I will be back in two weeks, after your room is finally done being redecorated with the light blue and purple paper wall you love so much" he said.
Kurt was looking at him suspiciously now but he was also listening and Sebastian knew he had piqued his curiosity.
"Do you know me in the future?" Kurt asked, giving him a look that said that the answer to that question was crucial in whether he would believe him or not.
"Yes, we are… very good friends"
"Am I still a prince?"
It was Sebastian turn to laugh at how serious Kurt was "you are the prettiest prince of them all" he said with a fond smile. "In fact I am here to tell you something about it"
"What is it?"
"Look, sometimes other people are jealous of princes and they treat them badly. "
"Like in Snow White?"
"Exactly. The Queen is jealous of her because she is pretty and nice and she wishes she was a little bit more like her. But you have to promise me you will be like Snow White. You have to be strong, ok? No matter what people say or do, you have to know that you are the most perfect prince ever and that you don't have to change who you are."
Sebastian wanted to tell him about how in twelve years he'll meet a younger version of himself who would be completely rude and almost cruel to him, both because he was jealous of him and because even for the first time that he had laid his eyes on his walking figure something had told him that Kurt Hummel was the one and that single thought had scared him more than anything he had felt before.
Kurt was clearly confused again, and Sebastian knew for a fact that even if he wasn't understanding him right then those words would help him in the future.
"Do you want some tea?" the blue eyed kid simply said, showing that he had decided to trust Sebastian, since his tea parties were sacred.
"I can't right now but we will have one in exactly two weeks. Oh, Prince Kurt? When I travel I can't take my clothes with me so could you lend me some of your father's? Leave them behind those bushes?"
Kurt smiled at him in agreement.
"Be strong, Kurt. I'll see you soon" were the last things he said as he reached out to touch Kurt's cheek before he disappeared. There was one more thing that he had liked to say before leaving: "sorry for being one of those people who hurt you".
Year 2019
Sebastian is then standing in the living room, in the exact same place in which he was when he travelled to the year 2000. His clothes had been picked from the floor, but they had also been replaced with a pair of his boxers. He checked the clock sitting on one of the tables '2:45 a.m.'
"Damn" he said under his breath. He was having dinner with Kurt before disappearing and he had left the other boy waiting for him once again.
After putting his underwear on he walked into the room Kurt and him shared as quietly as possible. Sebastian couldn't suppress a smile when he saw a slipping form tangled in the sheets, which he laid against of.
"I am sorry. I love you so much, my prince" he whispered, even though he knew the blue eyed boy couldn't hear him.
Sebastian didn't let sleep drag him for a long time. He didn't want to close his eyes because that meant that he had to stop looking at the angelic face he was just inches away from, and god knew that he didn't want to waste whatever time he had left with him before disappearing again.
Year 2011
Kurt entered the Lima Bean at six o'clock in the afternoon, like he always did to meet Blaine. Despite seeing each other every day the coffee dates were something they still did daily, it was their thing.
Kurt was in love for the first time in his life. Or better said he was in a committed relationship with someone he was in love with for the first time. There was another boy that he had come to love over the years but whom he spent several weeks or even months apart from.
Sebastian Smythe had been there to support him over some of the hardest times in his life: the day his mother died Sebastian had held them until he had fallen asleep, one of the days during his father's coma he had appeared in the hospital room… there was something that just kept bringing him to Kurt, like they were destined to be together.
Sebastian had always been Kurt's happy place. Even when they weren't together, just the thought of him made him feel instantly better.
Kurt had asked him many times before if they were together in the future, but Sebastian refused to answer that question every single time. 'I would love to tell you, Kurt; but if I do I will never know if things play out because I once told you to or if they really were meant to be'. As much as Kurt hated it, he understood it; it was Sebastian's way of saying 'what's meant to be will always find its way'. And oh, how Kurt hoped it was, or at least he had until Blaine had come into the picture.
He loved Sebastian deeply, he meant the world to him in ways that could not even be put into words; but Blaine was there, he always was, he was more than just a thought or a memory.
Kurt had spent countless times thinking of what he would do if he ever had to choose between the two of them and even if admitting it was scary to him –the idea of saying goodbye to Blaine hurt so much at that point of their relationship- he picked Sebastian every single time.
Things, however, were about to change.
Yes, Kurt entered the Lima Bean at 6 o'clock like he always did; but when he spotted Blaine and his' table he saw something –or better said, someone- that made his hear stop beating for a while and made his knees weak to the point of having to support himself by holding the doorknob.
He was younger, but Kurt would recognize that smile and those beautiful eyes anywhere and at any time. Sebastian Smythe, his first love, was sitting there engaged in a conversation with his boyfriend.
Kurt closed his eyes for a moment, trying to remember if the older Sebastian had ever mentioned that encounter to him. And yes, he had, he had told him that they would meet at some point in the future –well, Kurt's future; Sebastian's past at the moment that conversation had been held- but he hadn't told him anything else because he 'didn't want to interfere in whatever it was that the destiny had cooked for them'.
Damn it, Sebastian. What am I supposed to do now?, Kurt thought, trying to be pissed at him for his need to protect their fate, though for some reason he had always found it really hard to be mad at Sebastian.
When he felt his heart beating again –maybe way too fast, then- he approached the other two boys, being careful to not to be seen by either of them, though he was pretty sure that Sebastian would not recognize him since he had never seen him looking so young in the past.
Before doing anything Kurt listened to their conversation. 'I have a boyfriend'- wait, why were they talking about him?, Kurt thought and he was positive that he was about to have a heart attack right on the spot.
'Doesn't bother me if it doesn't bother you'… 'He doesn't need to know'- that thing about having a heart attack? Well, erase it; he didn't have a heart anymore because Sebastian flirting with Blaine was just too much for it to take.
Kurt needed to do something; he couldn't just stay there and listen, so without really thinking about it twice he got closer to the two boys. 'He's really great'.
"Who's really great?" he asked, trying to sound as casual as possible as he let his eyes roam up and down Sebastian's whole body, trying to capture all of the differences he found between him and his future self.
The moment Kurt offered his hand to Sebastian he knew he should have known better than to do something like that. He was proven to be right when the other boy shook it and a shiver ran down his spine, which he tried to hide since his boyfriend kept on nervously looking between the two of them. "Pleasure"
"And how do we know Sebastian?" Under different circumstances he would have laughed at that, because he really did know Sebastian well; but he was still to shocked to even think about joking. He knew that was a stupid question to ask since Sebastian was wearing the Dalton uniform –which he couldn't help but notice, looked amazing on him- but it was the first thing that came to his mind other than 'oh holy shit, never ever let go of my hand, please'.
When Sebastian began talking about the wonder that was Blaine he just had to cut him off, listening to him talk about other boy in that tone made him jealous to the point that it physically hurt. "Yes, he's even more impressive in the flesh" he said in a sharp way.
Sebastian next question totally caught him off guard. Why did he want to know what they were doing the next time? Did he want to hang out with them? Kurt didn't think he could survive through another meeting with the two of them so close.
" Well, we are rehearsing for the school musical and then, and then, at bed time we do a rigorous skin-sloughing regime over the phone together." Kurt didn't know if that possessive side had come out because he didn't want to lose Blaine to Sebastian or because he wanted to be the one that got lost with the taller boy; but deep inside he knew the latest option was the most likely to be correct. It was not the first time that he got jealous over Sebastian talking about some other boy.
He was so lost in thought that he didn't even notice the conversation had gone on without him listening. Not until he heard the words "I found the man on my dreams in the dance floor"
That pain he had been feeling since he had spotted the two of them together and that was quickly becoming rather familiar, hit him again, harder than before if that was even possible. Sebastian was in love with someone else? Was that the real reason behind him not wanting to discuss their future? Was it because they weren't together and the older Sebastian didn't want to crush Kurt's dreams and hopes?
"Are you two still together?" he asked doing his best to sound casual one more time and not like he was breaking inside, like he really was.
"Sadly, no, we broke up about twenty minutes after we met" That statement left Kurt completely relieved and more confused at the same time. The Sebastian he knew didn't seem like the one night-stand type.
He really needed some time alone with Sebastian, to know in which other ways he was different from his older version. He clearly had his eyes set on Blaine –Kurt refused to believe that his sudden anger at his boyfriend had anything to do with that- so if the only chance he would probably had to get Sebastian alone was to go out with the two of them, then so be it. The pain would be worth it if he just got to talk to him without Blaine watching their every move.
"We're in" Kurt finally said, much to the surprise of the other two boys.
That night Kurt was sleepless. He just couldn't take the Sebastian he had met that day out of his mind. So different and yet so alike… In just two days he'd be going to a gay club with the two men he was in love with, with one of them clearly being interested in the other. That made him nervous to the extent of wanting to throw up; but then he thought of the conversation he could possibly have with Sebastian, the idea of having him close, of feeling him around… and it managed to calm him down.
