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This is a villain Deku story I decided to Wright it because I'm really tired and bored and I've only seen a couple on fanfiction so here's another one. But I do have to say one of my favorite Villain Deku storys is Mightless so you should read it if you haven't.

if you don't like dark topics i wouldn't recommend this for you.

Topics that include

DEPRESSION

SELF HATE

SELF HARM

SUICIDE ATTEMPTS

SUICIDAL THOUGHTS

Etc

i hope you enjoy 3

You remember that time when you were a kid and you decided what you wanted to be when you grow up,

Well I do too, And I'm not to fond of that.

While growing up I always idolized All Might, I mean who didn't! he was the symbol of peace.

and he was respected and everyone believed he would save the day because he was a hero.

nobody ever believed that I would be a hero because I didn't have a quirk.

Mom took me to the doctors office to see if I'll have a quirk, And I was told the worst thing you could tell a kid around this time,

Doctor: "Sorry kid you have no quirk, you'll never be a hero."

Later that day all i heard was fighting and screaming which ended with the front door slamming, And silence became crying.

After the fight my mom came in my room still with tears streaming down her face,

Inko: "Izuku..."

Izuku: "He's not coming back this time... Is he?"

Inko: "I'm sorry"

After my mom and dad stopped believing I could be something, My only friend did too, Instead of testing out different ways to see if a had a quirk like we used to,

Once I told him I'll never get a quirk, I was of no use to him anymore, He became more violent towards me and started bullied me everyday,

"YOU'LL NEVER BE A HERO"

"JUST STOP TRYING"

"I'M SORRY"

"WHY WOULD I WANT A USE LESS SON"

"LOSER"

"WANNABE "

And this became my hell, this was in my head everyday and i sat in silence in my room just re-watching my favorite All Might video until one day I just stopped and layed in bed and stared at the ceiling thinking 'why'

Each day the beatings became worse and worse I would come home crying all beaten and go to my room clean and bandage all the cuts,bruises and burns and just stare at the wall or the ceiling, I would barely eat, I never really had an appetite

And then the thoughts would float in my head

' Why am I not good enough, why does everyone leave, why was i even born.'

Mom would pretend she didn't see the marks on me and continue doing her thing, I would cry each night for this to just stop but it never would.

I cried so much to the point where I had no clue why I was crying anymore.

The Last year in middle school

'Well I'm in my last year of middle school I can survive I think... how bad can it be'

I thought to myself as i walk into the class room. I stop immediately once I see Bakugo and put my head down

'ah god again, we're in the same class again, god I hope he didn't see m-'

Bakugo: "Hey Deku I'll murder you if you SIT NEAR ME!"

Izuku: " ...right" I say nothing above a whisper

the year went exactly how you thought it would the same but way worse I was beating up more and more frequently.

4 months in the year I just wanted to die I felt nothing just numb and sad. and i was even more bruised and burned today then usual, ' I have to take a shower' i thought while getting my stuff for the shower,

I got in the shower and the moment my burn skin touched the water it stung ' oh this is going to be fun cleaning' i thought sarcastically as I started gently cleaning my burnt and bruised skin, After what felt like an eternity of gently washing my skin, It was time to do my hair.

as I was reaching for the shampoo something fell off the shelf I looked down and saw a rectangular silver shiny object,

It was a razor, I pick up the razor and look at it.

'DO IT!'

'NOBODY LIKES YOU '

'YOU'RE NEVER GOING TO BE A HERO'

'STOP TRYING'

'DEKU'

'I'M SORRY'

'I DON'T WANT A USE LESS SON'

'DOO ITT'

My mind goes blank as I move the small object towards my small wrist, I press the razor into my flesh and slice my skin, a thin red line is all I can see as it starts to bleed I drop the razor and keep looking at the small bleeding line, I feel a bit better, wait I feel.. I feel..I can feel something, I smile at the small bleeding line and sit down in the shower and pick up the razor and cut some more small lines into my flesh.

After I finished my shower I went straight to my room to bandage the small red lines on my wrist and and laid down and eventually fell asleep.

I woke up the next day and got ready for school I dreaded this part of the day because it meant leaving room and going to a war zone.

After getting dressed i went down stairs and ate breakfast and grabbed my bag and went to school.

On the walk to school I noticed that the morning felt peaceful and calm I think it's because Kachan isn't around he must be already there then counting the fact that I'm late but it's also that I'm not really in a hurry either.

okay so I'm going to leave it there tell me what you think and tell me what quirk he should have if i give him one *wink *wink

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