SOMEWHERE
To have those words said out loud
Instead of in a whisper
To have the world know the truth,
That you never intend to hurt me
Forgive me for I've spoke to soon
And the inevitable has happened
The truth has changed
My life a lie,
the life I shared with you
Now I'm weeping in a corner,
Trying to shield myself from those hate filled words
You say I'm weak and always was, and never deserved you.
I stop my sobs and look in your eyes
The truth held within them.
But I can't see it,
Has it died,
The love you once had for me.
Then I realize it,
My biggest fear,
For you never really loved me.
I can't take the pain not from you.
So now with wanting to hurt you.
I do it the only way I know how.
The child growing living with in me.
Your only heir.
I get up to leave,
You wonder what I'm doing.
I give you no answer,
Not even a glance.
You pull me back by the arm,
Turning me to look at you.
You ask again where I'm going.
Then I say it,
"To rid myself of your child"
Your confused and don't understand
Until I say "abortion".
Your face falls but not for long
That smirk
That smirk that cause me to love you
But at the same hate you.
You say I lie and would never do a thing like that.
How right you are,
But I never let you know that.
Your grip on my arm is released
With a turn on my heals I left you.
Never to come back.
I heard you left to train,
Far off in the mountains,
Alone.
I ask if your still alive
But they won't say.
I take it as a no.
They tell me to forget you
But I can't .
I wonder, wonder what we could of had
What kind of life,
For you, me,
And your son.
Then I see it
That smirk
Except it's not you wearing it,
It's our son.
He looks like you,
With the exception of my fathers hair.
He said something to me the other day
"Why can't daddy live with us"
I ask him what he's talking about
He says
"Daddy says he doesn't live with us because you don't want him to"
I tell him he's confused and doesn't have a father.
He shakes his head and says I'm the one who's confused
Then he leaves the room.
A tear streams down my cheek
Knowing he speaks the truth.
Then I smile,
I have no reason to cry,
I never lost you.
Your still here,
..somewhere..
To have those words said out loud
Instead of in a whisper
To have the world know the truth,
That you never intend to hurt me
Forgive me for I've spoke to soon
And the inevitable has happened
The truth has changed
My life a lie,
the life I shared with you
Now I'm weeping in a corner,
Trying to shield myself from those hate filled words
You say I'm weak and always was, and never deserved you.
I stop my sobs and look in your eyes
The truth held within them.
But I can't see it,
Has it died,
The love you once had for me.
Then I realize it,
My biggest fear,
For you never really loved me.
I can't take the pain not from you.
So now with wanting to hurt you.
I do it the only way I know how.
The child growing living with in me.
Your only heir.
I get up to leave,
You wonder what I'm doing.
I give you no answer,
Not even a glance.
You pull me back by the arm,
Turning me to look at you.
You ask again where I'm going.
Then I say it,
"To rid myself of your child"
Your confused and don't understand
Until I say "abortion".
Your face falls but not for long
That smirk
That smirk that cause me to love you
But at the same hate you.
You say I lie and would never do a thing like that.
How right you are,
But I never let you know that.
Your grip on my arm is released
With a turn on my heals I left you.
Never to come back.
I heard you left to train,
Far off in the mountains,
Alone.
I ask if your still alive
But they won't say.
I take it as a no.
They tell me to forget you
But I can't .
I wonder, wonder what we could of had
What kind of life,
For you, me,
And your son.
Then I see it
That smirk
Except it's not you wearing it,
It's our son.
He looks like you,
With the exception of my fathers hair.
He said something to me the other day
"Why can't daddy live with us"
I ask him what he's talking about
He says
"Daddy says he doesn't live with us because you don't want him to"
I tell him he's confused and doesn't have a father.
He shakes his head and says I'm the one who's confused
Then he leaves the room.
A tear streams down my cheek
Knowing he speaks the truth.
Then I smile,
I have no reason to cry,
I never lost you.
Your still here,
..somewhere..
