Runaway Train

"Look at me when I'm talking to you!" my mother screamed at me. I felt a hard blow across my face. 'Why?' I thought what have I done? I felt another hard blow on my face.

'Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning'

"You little shit! You're worthless, useless! No wonder why your father didn't want you!" I said nothing I just stared at her like I'm lost in space. I lost all hope. What do I have to live for? She's right. No wonder why I'm so fucked up. No wonder why I became a Goth.

'So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep'

I'm sorry Henrietta, I'm sorry George, I'm sorry Evan......I'm really sorry. I promise you I wouldn't hurt myself again. I'm sorry I couldn't keep that promise. I'm so tired I wake up every night thinking about that promise. I'm sorry I fucked things up. "What the fuck do you think you're doing! You little bustard hurry up and clean this up! I don't care if you're bleeding hurry up you piece of crap!" I heard her storm off.

'It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray'

No one can help me now. No one doesn't really know expect for Evan. I have a plan to get out of here. No more getting beat to a pulp every night. I made up my mind there's no turning back, not now.

'Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there'

Tonight is the night I'm running away. I stole $500 from my mum's wallet I take one look around my room; I was about to head out the window when something caught my eye.

'Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded'

I smiled at the photo of all of us. I felt tears in my eyes; I can't believe I'm doing this, leaving my friends. I took the photo out of its frame and put it in my pants pocket.

'I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train'

I look out my window it's raining, I took one last look at my room then I climb out my window, I ran to the train tracks my heart is beating fast. I feel the cold droplets of water falling on me. I did not look back, I feared if I did my mother would be chasing me.

'Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it'

Just a few more feet until I made it to the tracks. My nightmare well be over soon.

'Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there'

'Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain'

I laughed in the rain when I got to the train tracks. I started to follow the tracks to the next town. I can't believe I'm doing this. I'm insane! Crazy! But I don't care after years being beat to a pulp. After years being in hell, I finally rescued myself from her.

'Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same'

I'm sorry Evan but I have to do this. I'm running away and I'm never coming back.

A/N: Runaway Train by Soul Asylum.