'Why is it that I always want you most when you're away, when I'm sat in my room listening to some sad old music and you're far away… doing whatever?'
Truth was I didn't know who he was back then. I'd got no idea at all. Not a sausage.
But I did know that someday I'd meet the guy I missed, the guy I only wanted when I was lonely or feeling especially mushy. Icky, I know, but true.
I'd go exploring the grounds at night, after everyone thought that I was asleep, so I could be alone, and try to find him. I must have only been about 5.
It's strange to think that it happened under completely not perfect circumstances.
'I guess you gotta find yourself to find someone else'
Wise words.
Fatal words.
'Cause he went off to find himself, he thought with all of everything that she was the one… he just had to find himself first.
'Once you start, you can't stop. I couldn't tear myself away because it would mean admitting I had been wrong… outsmarted by Sora'
Pride can be such a destructive thing… I wish he had just forgotten his pride, and abandoned the silly childhood rivalry which went deeper than what it seemed to be - just children being competitive.
They both knew what it would come to in the end. Maybe we all did.
Neither could forget… I don't know if either has forgiven either.
'I only miss you when it hits me that you're so far away, sometimes, even though people find themselves, it just… can't happen I guess.'
The self that Riku found in his teens he condemned. He couldn't forget his mistake, wouldn't let himself love ever again for fear he would destroy so much.
Maybe if things had been different…
I'm entirely not sure of what this is… apart from that it's what you get when you sit listening to Saves the Day and reading soppy Yurikus and Squiffies when you should be getting started on one of the thousand pieces of coursework you have.
I thought towards the middle that I could add it into Trance, but I dunno… I mean, I could make Trance end like this, it's been there in my mind for a while, but I guess we'll have to see. I may add this in at a later date, I may not. Tell me what you think!
23.10.05 – checked over it after some sort of meagre reviews, although my thanks to Lady Sonora the Black-Rose; I really appreciate your comment! I didn't wanna end Trance like that either, they should totally get a happy ending... although I'm not sure how that'd work. I can fix something!
Oh and I forgot this too – I do not own Riku or any of the hinted at characters in this fic. They all belong to Square or Disney or whatever.
Bracken xxx
