Ok so like it or not this story is going to be short diary intakes in Ana's life she is depressed with life. At this time her mother is married to husband number three, ray will not come into this story as he was never with Carla so Ana did not know him so she couldn't turn to him in this time or need, please only nice reviews

Dear diary,

It's me again oh how I wish I would be loved even if my mother should some interested in me I wouldn't feel so down, well I guess it is my own fault if I wasn't so fat and ugly maybe she would take me shopping for clothes or even I can get my hair done. Well that wouldn't even happen as we have no money only enough to pay the rent and have some food on the table for dinner. I don't know how husband number three has enough to get beer and cigarettes and yet he says it is my fault we are in this situation. Well I am sorry maybe if I stop eating and feeling ungrateful to them for putting a roof over my head

Tonight I hear them arguing again it's always over the same old things when is it going to get easier I just drown the sound out by slowly drinking myself so sleep yes that is right diary I stole his beer he has too much of it anyways it isn't like he will notice any of it is gone. HA I like it when I can't feel any pain and when my head gets to fuzzy to think properly anyways at least you love me diary, well I know you can't because u are just my thoughts but I like to think that you do.

Anyways night for no,

Love Ana xx