I loved him. I truly did. He had this calm demeanour and he must have had the mentality of a saint to put up with me every day. Oshitari Yuushi. The one and only person I ever loved, and he abandoned me for… Atobe. Am I not good enough? What is it about Atobe that makes him special? Is there something he has that I don't? I mean, I may not be tall, or have a beauty mark, but I'm a genuine person. I wonder if he ever truly loved me in the first place. I don't think so. We were just doubles partners, but I was naïve enough to believe there was something more between us. Yuushi… why? Why did you abandon me? You didn't even prepare me for it, Yuushi.
"Oh, by the way, Gakuto, I'm Atobe's boyfriend now." Yuushi said, not even looking guilty. "What?" Gakuto replied, laughing a little nervously. Yuushi couldn't be serious! "… You're ridiculous, didn't you hear? I'm with Atobe." the tall blunette repeated. Gakuto's heart sank and a tear slipped from his eye. "…" the red-head was speechless. Yuushi shook his head and walked away, taking Atobe's hand and kissing the narcissist's forehead lightly. Gakuto sobbed. He began to run. 'Run away', that's all he could think. 'Get as far away from him as you can', Gakuto's brain told him. He ran home, and broke down in a corner of his bedroom. His screams filled the house and his sobs were pitiful. "Yuushi!!" Gakuto screamed and clawed at the floor. He shook his head fiercely and smashed it against the wall. He sobbed and screamed, his heart breaking with every wail. "Why?!" he shouted, before slamming his head into the wall again. He pulled his legs to his chest and cried uncontrollably into them, rocking backwards and forwards repeatedly. He cried until he could cry no longer, and drifted into a silent, tormented slumber.
He hurt me. My heart yearns for him. Every day, I think about him, what life is now, and what life could have been, if we had stayed together. Shall I tell you what he was to me? He was everything. He was my best friend, my doubles partner and my lover.
