I did this for a book report at school, and apparently it's pretty good so...
My Dear Gemma,
If you are reading this, I am no longer part of your life. I am so sorry. For everything. I have done some of the worst things imaginable to you, and yet you forgive me every time. It is only now, as I am writing this with what little of a candle I have left, that I realized that my apologies were few. Hopefully you forgive me for that as well, as I plan on making it up on paper now.
I'm sorry for not trusting you, in the beginning, for I was under the charm of the Rakshana. Perhaps I wouldn't have been so easily deceived if I hadn't looked up to Amar so. I'm sorry for yelling at you when you couldn't stifle your visions.
I am sorry for not telling you about Fowlson while we were in London. I am sorry for playing with your emotions, then flirting with Emily.
I'm sorry for telling you that I ally myself with you and your friends, and then disappearing. I had become afraid of my feelings. Do you remember when you fell off that bicycle? I could barely keep myself from kissing you then. So, I told you that our paths could not cross, that I had been wrong (I wasn't wrong, I'm sorry for trying to deceive you).
I am sorry for not protecting you against Fowlson better, and the rest of the Rakshana. I'm sorry for leaving you.
Now, as I sit back and look at what I've written, I wouldn't blame you if you didn't forgive me, Gemma. You never deserved any of this. As I needed to tell you what I am sorry for, I need to tell you what I am not sorry about.
I'm not sorry I met you. I'm not sorry we became so close. I'm not sorry I told you about Amar, or that I showed you my hiding place. I'm not sorry that we danced and I loved every moment. I'm not sorry that we kissed on the docks while you were still dressed as a boy. I'm not sorry about our dreams in the Cave of Sighs. Most of all, Gemma, I'm not sorry that I fell in love with you, that I still love you, and that I always will, no matter what.
Knowing you and your temper, you probably are angry at me for leaving you. I hope this letter changed that. Please don't dwell on anger or grief, Gemma. You have the world in front of you, waiting for you to explore it, to find out that not all wonders exist in the Realms. Our love proved that.
With all my love and more,
Kartik
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Hugs and Kisses
Helen
