Ok so this story is a little dark and weird specially because ¡spoiler spoiler! Bruce is going to use a lantern ring but its going to be a happy ending. I hope you like it please if you have and idea let me hear it, thanks!

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WARNING this history is going to contain self harm, depression and eating disorders

Chapther 1

Bruce POV

In the room there is a mortal silence, you can cut the tension with a knife so ironic, I can feel his eyes in me the league but especially the eyes of Clark.

How do I loose the control? How do I arrive to this situation? In any moment a judge is going to give us the final judgement and I am so tired and I really want that all of this end really I want all of this to be a bad dream just that, yes just that.

Bruce POV (1 month before)

The alarm is ringing another day, I feel so dead like I'm alive but at the same time dead lately I feel so sad like I cant keep doing this anymore I want to sleep and never wake up. Slowly very slowly I bath myself and I dress and make my way to the kitchen.

Nobody POV

Alfred makes excellent meals and this morning wasn't the exception there is pancakes which you could actually smell the butter in them and hot coffee and chocolate fruit with natural yogurt and eggs with bacon, the children were already in the kitchen eating, now that the relationship between Jason and Bruce wasn't so awkward anymore he let himself be and sleep in the manor more and more often, nobody said absolutely nothing about this not even Demian and it was nice very nice to have the whole family in home well not the whole family cause it was so large.

"good morning every body"

"Hey old man"

"good morning master Bruce"

"father"

"heya Bruce"

"where is timothy"

"master Bruce master timothy left very early this morning he needed to give his project in collage remember? And he said that I need to tell you that he is going to be at Wayne Enterprises at noon"

"ok Alfred thanks, I'm late so I'm going have a good day all of you"

"but master Bruce the breakfast is"

"its ok Alfred I'm not hungry I will eat something later thanks anyway"

Bruce left the house but Alfred know him better and knew something was so wrong maybe some case or something brother him with the league

Wayne Enterprises 1:00pm

Bruce POV

I feel so relived when I finish to cut that last line but immediately, I feel so embarrassed and sad I cant believe I keep doing this, the true is that it was an habit that I have when I was younger I needed a way to relax, relieve the pressure of all that training in the league of shadows I was so wasted physically and mentally and that's how I begin to cut myself that's how I also begin with eating disorders and tried to suicide but that's other story I stopped when I adopted dick and nobody knows anything about it that's why I have the rule in the house of not lock the door and the reason why I enter the room of my children without knocking, but lately I have a lot between my hands I have all this pressure the kids the lots and lots of work the justice league the batman "sign" batman I think while I look at myself in the mirror I'm so jaded so many corpses so many blood screams it can be so damn stressing.

Now how do I keep all of this in secret; especially from Alfred?

Well in the beginning it was kind of easy we didn't talk about my time with the league of shadows I didn't say anything he didn't ask anything and when I started like batman it was easy to lie like, it was Victor Zsasz the knife of the joker etc… and I tried very hard to not be hurt in my wrists and hide it but when dick arrive it wasn't necessary.

How do I hide it now? Well technically I'm very smart and I create a special cream that cover and hide the cuts and scars it can only be removed with an especial I still try to be careful.

I left the bathroom and back to the office to my surprise timothy is in there.

"hey dad"

"hey little one I thought you were not going to make it"

(sign) " the project was more demanding than I thought but do not worry I'm here now and oh my god are you bleeding from your wrists? your sleeve is soaked!"

I freeze what happened I clean it and wrapped the cut oh god I didn't cut so deeply do I? I was so distracted.

"I'm going to the bathroom" I said while I stand up and run to the bathroom Tim run behind me but I'm faster and can close the door before he reach it.

I unwrap the cut its just a mess

"Dad!" Tim knock the door I can hear the confusion and concern in his voice.

"Dad!, is everything ok?" great just great what am I going to do now?