I can't believe the sight before me or what I just heard.
"I think this one's my favorite," I hear Amethyst say.
"I think he's her favorite too..." The words come from my mouth, but I barely register that I've said it.
As I watch them continue their dance, each step feels like it's trampling my already bruised heart. Suddenly I start to feel sick. I need to get away from here. Away from them. But there's no way I can let them see me. I'm shaking as I try to look for a way out. The ocean...yes, I don't need to breathe so I can hide down there for awhile…
I sprint toward the water, ignoring Garnet and Amethyst. I just need to get away. And I need to get everything that I've seen and heard out of my head.
I'm not sure how long I've been running, but the darkness of the water around me and the low temperature tells me I'm pretty deep under. I find a rock to hide behind and sit down as the tears I'd been fighting finally flow freely, mingling with the already salty water around me. I bury my face in my hands as sobs wrack my body. Everything hurts and I just want it to stop.
It's a good thing that I don't need to breathe, or I would have drowned. A small voice says that wouldn't really be so bad. After all, if I'm gone I can't hurt. But I know that even if Rose doesn't love me the way I wish she would, she still cares about me and if anything were to happen she'd be crushed. That thought offers little comfort, however.
I just wish that I could be her favorite…
As the weeks pass and I see them spending more and more time together, I'm convinced that Greg isn't just a phase like I thought.
It's not fair. He hasn't even known her half as long as I have. What does he have that I don't? How can some human get the love of the most beautiful and flawless gem in existence? How can she love someone she's only known for a year? How can she not love me when I've known her for thousands of years? What can he possibly give her that I haven't already? Has she really forgotten all that? She does seem to have forgotten about me...she spends all her time with him...maybe I shouldn't have stayed...not that there was any way I could've known this would happen. That I'd have to watch the gem I love with someone else. And how much it would hurt. I don't think I've ever felt pain like this. I wish I could make it stop...
