Lena
The last thing either me or Stef expected was to walk out to see Mariana kissing another girl. Sure I'm a lesbian, and I support it but that doesn't change that I really didn't see it coming. Mariana was never the child we expected. Jude, definitely, we all know already we are just waiting for him to come out. I tired to think back and see if we missed some hints but honestly I'm not thinking of anything.
I pull my wife into the next room so we don't disturb them. She smiled at me as we both couldn't help but take another peek. Mariana is now bright red at the sudden kiss, despite the fact that she was the one who learn in first.
"I really didn't see that coming" stef said agreeing with me. Another thought popped into my head.
"She's probably just experimenting" I reminded her as I pulled Stef back trying to keep her from peeking.
Mariana
I just kissed her! I can't believe I just did that. She smiled, and told me she will see me at school tomorrow.
what did I just do? I can't experiment with her she's actually a lesbian. I'm leading her on. Experiment with Lexi if you want to experiment with someone. Yeah Mariana experiment with your brothers girlfriend because I'm sure that will go over well.
"Listen, Sarah." I started trying to find the words. Part of me really wish I went to moms now. Why wouldn't I? I have two lesbian mothers who won't judge me to talk to about this and instead I go and get myself into more drama.
"Yeah honey" she flirted. I wish she would stop she's making it harder.
"I'm sorry about that kiss" I said and felt like slapping myself, that's not what I'm suppose to say.
She laughed at my nervousness,"oh honey don't worry about it." She left and when I turned around both my moms were standing behind me. I felt myself get beat red again. Great as if this wasn't bad enough my moms had to be watching.
"So how did it go?" Stef said smiling evilly and Lena slapped her.
"Glad you enjoyed it. Can't you just watch a tv drama?" I said feeling irritable.
"So, how did it go?" Lena asked as if giving up fighting the urge not to ask.
"You guys had to be watching? Can't I get a little privacy" I said starting to head upstairs avoiding the question. I went to my room and slammed the door behind me. I laid on my bed avoiding the glares from my room-mate. I can never get privacy here.
"Everything ok?" She asked and I rolled my eyes. Don't get me wrong, I like Callie. I just want to be left alone. I know it won't be long before I have to deal with my moms again.
"Fine" I said putting in my iPod and turning it up. Surprisingly, neither of them came up untill around dinner time.
"Hey girls, suppers done" Lena said and went back to tell everyone else. How lovely, now I have to sit and eat dinner with them staring at me. Thankfully they didn't. They acted as if they didn't see anything. Maybe they will just drop it. Unfortunately that shape didn't last long as they asked me to stay downstairs after supper.
"I have homework" I said but they know better.
"You finished it earlier. Can we please talk?" Stef said and I decided to just get this over with.
"First of all, who was she? I never saw that girl before" stef said and I can tell she's going to actually go all protective.
"She's just a friend from school. Her names Sarah" I explained. Hoping they don't make a big deal over the fact that she's two years older than me.
"How long have you known her?" Lena asked.
"And how old is she?" Stef. Now I remember why I didn't go to my parents.
"A couple of months and seventeen" I answered avoiding eye contact.
"Seventeen? Mariana..." Lena said and I rolled my eyes. She acts like she never dated a girl older than her.
"Grandma told me about the girl you dated at sixteen years old that was a junior in college" I said turning this around on her.
"And it didn't end well..." I gave her a look to let her know I know more about that relationship then she wants me to and she changed the subject.
"So have you guys been seeing each other?" She asked giving me an annoyed look. Blackmailing your parents, good idea Lexi.
"No we are just friends" I said and they both started to laugh.
"Wow you make us feel old. Back when I was your age when I kissed another girl it was because I was in a relationship with her. Not because I wanted to be just friends but hey times change." Lena joked.
"Lots of straight girls kiss their friends now." Which is true, they do. The problem is she's not straight.
"She's straight?" Lena asked in disbelief.
"No that's the problem" I admitted. They gave me a weird look and I just kept me eyes on the walls.
"So you decide to kiss a girl because all straight girls kiss their friends but she's not straight?" Lena asked extremely confused.
I rolled my eyes,"no I was just curious! I shouldn't have kissed her." Experimenting was not my best idea but I couldn't help being curious. I'm raised by two lesbians how am I suppose to not get curious. That's what I grew up with, I just wanted to know what it's like. Guess I should have taken my chance with Lexi.
"So now she thinks your into her but you're not" Lena said and I can tell by the look on her face that she's thinking back to a similar situation that probably happened when she was my age. The only difference is she was probably the other girl in the situation.
"Yeah, I know I shouldn't have done that" I said feeling guilty. She doesn't deserve that, she's been such an amazing friend to me.
"So this was just experimenting?" Stef asked to make sure.
"Yes." I said but that's what worries me. At the same time, i really liked kissing her. How am I suppose to figure out things when I actually like that kiss? I like boys but that kiss was really nice. Besides when I said she's been an amazing friend I mean she's been so sweet and practically romantic with me and its been nice. Maybe I'm just that desperate.
I sighed and decided to talk to them about it.
"I don't know to be honest." I said and they gave me a sympathetic look. "I liked that kiss too much" I confessed.
"Give it time, Mariana. Sexuality is never figured out over night." Lena said hugging me.
"How do you even know?" I asked and neither of them seemed to know how to answer, fantastic.
"Well..." Lena started then looked at stef. She just gave me an apologetic look.
"Sorry, I don't really know how to explain it. Besides I was the late bloomer why are you looking at me" she said throwing the responsibility back on her wife.
"Sorry kid. Give it time, it'll make sence eventually. Promise us you will talk to us if you need to" she said.
"What am I suppose to do about Sarah?" I asked.
"Just tell her the truth... it will work out eventually" stef said. I just hope they are right.
let me know what you think. Depending on the comments I might continue this. Let me know if you want me to and if you want Mariana to be straight, bisexual or lesbian.
