"Sawyer no! No!"
Kate heard over and over in her head as they began the press review, when it came for her turn Sun had to tug on her arm in order to break her from her trance. It had been four days since Sawyer had kissed her goodbye and jumped out of the plane in order to save everyone, to save her. Yet it felt like yesterday, and she couldn't get that moment out of her head. She could tell herself that she loved Jack, that he could be the one to fill Sawyer's place, but in the end it would only be a lie. No one could fill the place in her heart she still had for him, not even Jack.
"Kate, are you okay?" Jack asked as they exited the conference room, Kate could hear the worry in his voice, he genially cared for Kate and she could sense that.
"No Jack I'm not, I'm not okay at all." She knew it would hurt him that she was so upfront and bold in her answer, but she also knew that they had known each other long enough that he would know if she lied and said that everything was fine.
"Kate you did fine, I think they really bought it." Jack said, he knew she didn't mean the press but he didn't want to touch the subject.
"That's not what I was talking about Jack and you know it." Kate snapped back at him, she knew it made him uncomfortable to talk about Sawyer, and even though it made her feel the same way she couldn't help but feel angry that he touched on the subject then tried to pretend that he didn't.
"Kate I'm sorry about Sawyer, I know you need time_" Jack said before he was cut off by Kate "I don't need time Jack, I need Sawyer. God why do you do this? I see it in your face that you hate it when I say his name or how I feel about him, and yet you bring it up almost every time we talk." She said in a furry of rage, she had never been like this to Jack before.
"Kate I'm just trying to be a good friend." Jack explained, "I don't need you to be a good friend Jack, I need to keep the promise you made on the helicopter and find a way back to the island to get Sawyer." And with that said she walked away, nothing else was said, nothing else could be said.
"Kate are you okay?" Sun asked Kate as they sat drinking coffee in Kate's kitchen. Sun only came down once every couple of weeks, but the visits were becoming all too frequent now. Kate knew everyone was worried about her, so was she. But there was only one thing that would bring her out of her funk,
"I'm going back Sun, I'm going back to the island." Kate replied, a shocked look ran over Sun's face, "What? What do you mean your going back?" Sun's voice held the same large amount of shock that was displayed on her face.
"A couple days ago Ben called saying he finally found the island and I'm going back, we're going on a plane in a few days." Kate spat out frantically, she was so excited to finally be going back. Looking back at Sun she saw her expression change almost instantly from shock to worried when she mentioned Ben's name, she knew that no one at this point liked Ben let alone trusted him.
"Wait! What do you mean Ben called you saying he found the island? I thought Jack was helping you?" Sun asked. Kate knew she would react like this. "It's been three months and Jack hasn't done a single thing, face it he doesn't care. So a couple weeks ago Ben showed up, I was about to call the police on him when he told me he could help me find the island." Kate tried to explain.
"But it's Ben, you know he's helping you for some other reason otherwise he would have just gone back to the island and not even tell you. Kate think about what you're about to do, if you go he may never let you come back." Sun grasp Kate's hand trying to reason with her. But Kate wouldn't have it, "I don't care, as long as I get Sawyer back I don't care. Look I didn't tell you so you could try to talk me out of it." Sun then only had one thing left she could say, "Then why did you tell me?"
"Because I have to go back and I need you to make sure Jack doesn't." Kate answered. "I know how Jack feels about me, he won't care that I went back for Sawyer. He'll only care that I went back and he's going to try to follow me and bring me back. It's the way he is, he needs something to fix." Kate sighed and made a grin on her face. Sun sat there for a few minutes thinking, what could she say? She herself couldn't tell her not to go, if there was a chance she could get Jin back she would. "Of course Kate, just try to come back." Kate closed her eyes; she looked at Sun with her compassioned filled eyes. She couldn't lie to her, "I'll try but if I go I'm not leaving without him Sun."
For the next few minutes they sat in silence, neither of them said anything, Sun and Kate both knew that they would most likely nevr see each other again.
Next chapter: See was Sawyer's been up to and what stops Kate from getting on the plane.
