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I love AxR and there isn't nearly enough stories about them =)so I started my own. Please review, it really helps. Criticism is welcome as long as it's honest. Please tell me what you think, what you want and what you think I should improve on. It's my first FF for VA so it's very very much appreciated. =) enjoy unknown cyber friends.
Mel
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An Adrian and Rose Story

Rose's POV

I close my eyes. Sleep. That's all I needed now. All I could do. I wish I could just sleep for the rest of eternity. Never have to think logically again.
My body ached. I couldn't get comfortable. Bruised, cut, bitten. The pain on the outside was nothing compared to the destruction within.
Still… sleep. I could sleep now. It had taken almost 6 months, but I found him. Finally. Siberia. It was so obvious. How could I have missed it? He was a monster. He'd starved himself to the edge of death and asked me to push him over that edge. He was an animal. Red eyed, pale and savage. I couldn't believe it was him. I didn't let myself think it was him. I had a mission. Just had to stake him, burn him and then, then I could think again. I could feel again. I didn't let myself think about him until he was just a pile of ashes. Then I could cry. And I did. Over his ashes. I cried till my eyes ran dry. I screamed till my throat, already sore from when he bit me, went hoarse. Then I did it. I buried him. His mother was there. Just me and her. And Dimitri.
"He always said he wanted to be cremated." She said.
Sleep. But even now, I couldn't. Even when I closed my eyes I saw him. Savage. Monstrous. Then lifeless, dead. I don't know which one was worse.

That's the downside of sleep. You can't control what you're thinking. And the images are so vivid, so real. I don't know if I could live through that again. Still. There was hope. Something most people didn't have. I could let down the wall I'd built. Lissa. I hadn't let myself think see into her mind for 4 months. It was too painful. The pain I'd caused her, the hurt. Not just her either. Christian, Eddie. They were all worried about me. Then Adrian started showing up in my dreams. Every night. I couldn't handle it anymore. His pleading. Her pleading. It was all to much.
Lissa.

Christian looked at me.
"Liss, please. Stop it. You know she wouldn't want you to be like this. She's fine. She's coming back. I know she is. I don't think there's a Strigoi that can take on Rose and win."
I knew he was lying to make me feel better. I wish I could believe him. I really, really do.
"You heard what Adrian said. She's not dreaming anymore."
Christian hugged me. He was upset too. I know he loves her like a sister.
"Adrian's been drinking a lot more than he used to. It's probably just because of the drink."

I had to pull out. It hurt too much. I can't believe what I've done to her. Its like something had stuck it's hand into her chest and half-ripped her heart out. Wouldn't let her die, too painful for her to want to live. I was that something.
Adrian. He could save me from these dreams. These images. This pain. I let myself relax and just as I was about to lose consciousness, I thought that one last thought, Adrian.

It was a beach with white sands, a turquoise sea and a clear blue sky. I was wearing a black bikini and a bronze sarong. Typical Adrian. Where was he?

"Adrian? Are you here?"
I just wanted to see a familiar face. One that wasn't a monster.

"Little Dhampir. Looking gorgeous as ever."
He walked towards me wearing a blue t-shirt and black boardshorts. His beautiful emerald eyes wide and excited. Wait… since when did I find Adrian's eyes beautiful???

"Though a little battered. And I must say, you actually look happy to see me for once."
I smiled and touched my stomach where the biggest of my bruises were and it faded.
"What am I going to do with you Rose?"
He hugged me tightly. I breathed in his clove scent. I wanted to cry again. I can't believe I just let Adrian hug me.
"I thought you died Rose. Do you have any idea what you've done to me?", he whispered.
"I shouldn't have let you go. I can't believe I did that."
I stepped back from him.
"I did it Adrian. And you should have. I had to."
"As long as your alive Little Dhampir."
He smiled another huge smile and put his arm around my waist. I wiggled out of it. I'm not THAT happy to see him.
"Now is there a reason you called me?"
"I just wanted some decent sleep so if you just let me curl up under a tree and get some rest that would be great."
"You are sleeping. And I haven't heard from you in 4 months, don't think you can just avoid me like that. If anything you owe me."
He walked back up to me and wrapped his arms around my waist again. He was right though. I
did owe him.
"And I can think of many ways in which you can repay me."
I tried to wiggle out again but this time he didn't let me. In fact he pulled me closer. I rolled my eyes.
"Adrian. Can't you just let me dream in our dream without trying to touchy with me all the time?"
"But what if getting touchy is my dream Little Dhampir?"
I glared at him. I was really starting to get angry now. He sighed and let me go. Which was weird because in a strange way I was actually enjoying him holding me.
"So when must I pick you up?"
Go back? I hadn't really given that much thought.
"You are coming back?"
He looked long and hard at me. His eyes filled with hurt and sadness. I wasn't used to this side of him. He was pretty cute when he pulled the puppy dog eyes…
"No Rose. You have to. Please. Think of me. Think of Lissa."
"Okay, okay I'll come."
He grinned the biggest, goofiest grin I've ever seen him pull. It was actually quite adorable.
"Really?
I rolled my eyes. I'm not that mean.
"Yes."
He picked me up and started spinning me around. He was actually pretty strong for a Moroi.
"PUT ME DOWN!"
He laughed but did it.
"I missed you Little Dhampir. So much…"
He was looking at me now. His eyes were so beautiful, so green, so alive, so Adrian.
"Don't forget about what you promised me."
He tilted his head down and kissed me. A jolt of electricity ran down my spine making me stand on my toes. I was suddenly hyper aware of Adrian. Adrian's hands, Adrian's smell, his lips fighting against mine. The electricity doubled and it felt like my insides were melting from the shock.

I woke up with Adrian's kiss still imprinted on my lips.
"What the fuck just happened?!"
Did I just kiss Adrian? What the hell was I thinking?!?! Was I thinking at all? And scariest of all, why did I seem to enjoy it?!
I needed to get back. I needed to help Lissa. I needed my friends.