For the First Time

One year after the letter incident, Angela and Jordan's relationship is still going strong. She is sure Jordan loves her and although he hasn't said it to her yet, she is doesn't want to wait any longer. Angela finally feels "Ready". I own nothing.

Chapter 1

Oh god, I don't know HOW I'm going to talk to my mother about this, but she is the only one I can trust...and she always said I could talk to her about anything...my stomach is twisting in a hundred knots...well... here it goes.

"Mom, I wanted to know if we could talk...it's kinda important and I want to be able to talk to you before Danielle gets home..and without you freaking out..."

Angela's Moms face dropped and immediately turned white, the sick look taking over her cheerful expression. At first she was thrilled that Angela wanted to have a private conversation, but now...

Oh no, no..."Angela, please don't tell me your p..pre..."

"God Mom! No! We haven't even had sex yet!" I can't believe my mother thought that! I'm gonna need more guts than ever to get through this conversation...

Oh god, thank you, thank you, Patty thought to herself. Relieved, the color returning to her face. Take a deep breath Patty, you will get through this...

"Last year, when Jordan and I made up, he told me he would ...wait, and that he wouldn't pressure me because he really cared about me and knew I wasn't ready and didn't want to lose me again." ok, you got out the first part...

Patty shook her head and raised up her eyebrows for Angela to go on, acknowledging that she knew how Jordan felt about her daughter and how good he's been to her all year.

"Well... lately, ...like...um...I've been...kinda feeling...Ready."

There, I said it...breathe now, Angela, and wait for the lecture.

Angela's mom surprisingly looked relieved and happy that her daughter had decided to come to her. Her biggest fear with Angela dating a boy 2 years older was the pressure she would be facing from him to have sex. She was actually beaming inside, so proud that Angela had stuck to her guns, and was making him wait. Honestly though, Patty knew it was only a matter of time. She remembered when she was 16 quite clearly, and didn't want Angela to be put off by any motherly lectures.

"Ok." Patty took in a deep breath again. "I'll set up an appointment with my gynecologist...so that we can make sure.. when you do decide to..."...Patty couldn't bring herself to say the words..."you'll be safe".

Wow, my mom didn't give me a lecture...she is actually being.. cool, about this.

"Oh, Ok...yeah." Angela tucked her hair back behind her ear, "That's what I want." She couldn't help but have a small smile creep across her face. That was a lot easier than she thought.


I didn't tell Jordan that I started taking birth control pills a little over a month ago. I thought it might make him put the pressure back on me, and I wanted to wait until I was ready. It took a while to get used to, remembering to have to take this tiny thing every day at the same time. Sharon told me that she thought she put on weight when she began, but I hadn't noticed anything. Sharon also thought her boobs were bigger, and that it was from the pill too, but of course that didn't happen to me. I'm still the same small chested Angela. You would think I was twelve. I actually don' t think they've grown since I was twelve.

"Hey, Angela...earth to Angela" Jordan smirked as he brought me back from my endless ramblings in my head.

"I'm here", I said, playfully slapping him on the arm. "Jordan, is anyone going to be at your house after school today?"

Sometimes we would tell my parents that we were staying after school to work on the set for the play, but recently we've been ditching eighth period so we can have some time to mess around at Jordan's house while his dad was at work. It's perfect because we have from about 2 until 4 or 5 to just be alone. At first, it made me nervous to be alone with Jordan, I thought he would definitely pressure me to go all the way, but he never has. He always stops when I ask him to, and sometimes he stops when I don't ask him to, but because he needs to. It must be awful for him, I really don' t know what I'm so scared of.

"My dad works until eleven tonight, so it can be just you and me...if that's what you want?" Jordan cautiously asked. Angela is acting slightly weird today, like something is up and I can' t seem to figure it out. Like she has something to tell me, but isn't ready to. I can't imagine what it is.

"I'll meet you back at my locker at 1:45?" Angela asked, raising her eyebrows.

"1:45" Jordan replied, thinking how he wished time would fly today. All day, dark clouds had filled the sky with the threat of rain, and Jordan was hoping what ever Angela had planned would lift this depressing mood the weather was creating.

The whole ride to Jordan's house was practically in silence. Angela couldn't even think of words to say, she was lost in imagining what sex would be like, and somehow didn't quite know if she should tell him she was ready, or just let things proceed to a new level all on their own. Rain suddenly began to fall and the sound of the drops hitting the car somehow seemed to pound in Jordan's ears. Or maybe it was just his pulse? He didn't know why he was feeling nervous. Maybe it was because usually Angela is happily chatting to him about her day.

"Ang...Is everything all right? You haven't been acting like yourself today. You aren't even talking to me, and we never ride to my house in silence." Jordan pulled the car into the driveway and shut the engine off. Now the rain was coming down in sheets, and claps of thunder echoed in the air.

"Everything is fine, Jordan"...I think I'll just tell him, he seems to be looking confused ..."Remember I told you I had a cool conversation with my mom? Well, it was actually about ...SEX...and how I wanted to go get birth control because

I was feeling ...Ready." A giddy smile crept across her face and she lifted her eyebrows up, tucked her hair behind her ear, and waited, anxious to see Jordan's response.

Jordan swears his jaw hit the floor, as he tried to remain expressionless, when what he really wanted to do was jump up and down. He didn't think THIS was what Angela had to tell him, and now...oh my God...does she mean TODAY could be THE day? Clearing his throat Jordan barely got out the words, "Really?". Angela just shook her head and as she started to smile Jordan's mouth suddenly was on hers, swarming her with kisses. The windows of the car were beginning to get fogged up from their heavy breathing and the heat that their bodies were creating. "We better run through these raindrops and get inside quick!", Angela said, making Jordan come out of the fog in his head back to reality. She can make everything sound so cute, like she is reading words from a storybook.